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There is no order to this shyt okay
Wednesday night Tony got locked up on a mistaken Identity charge ...warrant for his arrest in B-More back in 2008 ...not him of course but the bum bytch lawyer he got was advising him all wrong
he ended up getting a $10,000 bond no 10% and wouldn't even take the deed to the house
I ended up getting so pissed at that bum bytch lawyer we had and paying the $750 to retain another lawyer named Mike who seems cool as fugg..............Okay Tony ended up spending time in jail from WED-MON we are so happy he is home and now he just has to go to B-More to str8 in up this mistaken identity charge
Okay so after I got the call that Tony got locked on Wed. I went over Lee's house and we fugged I mean it was good I did dry up a little that shyt I got from my sister didn't work like I thought it would ....anyway he held me and acted like he didn't want me to go I stayed until 4am and then I went home I didn't have to because the kids didn't have school but I felt bad like OMG!!!! bytch your husband just got locked (SMH)
I felt bad after the fact but the sex was the flippin bomb
I didn't speak with him a few days after and I had to be the one to send him the text first (lol) but anyway it's alllllll to the good
OKAY
Not much to say really ........I didn't talk to any guys while I was going through the whole locked up thing I was working to free my man (lol)
everyone kept thinking this meant we would be back together and I even got in a big argument with my mommy behind that shyt .....I had to let her know that I don't HATE Tony I LOVE Tony and being in love with someone and loving someone are two separate things ...I mean is it that people think I should hate him and would have to hate him because I know longer want to be married to him I mean it's weird I guess because women are trying to get married and want to end up like that for the rest of there lives but I have been like that for my whole life at least half of my life (smile)
I am getting so fed up with Lee I mean what has really ticked me off is how after we had sex I was all hot and sweaty I mean we both were and I asked him to fan me even offered to get the paper so he could fan me then said we could fan each other and he told me "NO". then had nerve to say something like if you came over here for something mushy you came to the wrong place ..........yeah some shyt like that.......man I was hurt I mean someone would love to fan me after sex.
Lee can tell there is a difference he has been sending me smiles and shyt but I feel a little different about him now and it's all his fault I would have done anything for him and ....man just forget it.
I asked an ex-girlfriend if she wanted to go out for drinks and she said yeah .......
I have a date for this Tuesday with the dude Lamont.......drinks and a movie were going to see that Paranormal movie reads like a remake of the Entity ...but I'll see (smile) I plan to keep this date I mean it.
Lonnie been hitting me up I hit him back today as well
James and his 2 roommates coming up this weekend for Necole's fashion showing at Blade .....This should be fun ....Tony and I will be very busy this weekend we have my sisters kids and James, his 2 room mates and now lil Troy and his brother Tay WOW!!!!!!!!!!!! kids
I really don't have anything else to say but Oh did I tell you guys that the dude Black on my FB popped up on my chat and we chatted for a lil bit I was cheezin (smile)
Oh yeah this is a trip how come this dude who reads my blog ...lets call him Csaw me at the mall this past weekend with Mo and Shay and he hit Kris up to tell her but he wouldn't say what's up to me true he only knows me from my blog but I think is so UN COOL to know what I look like and I don't know who or what you look like I mean HOW RUDE!
Next time dude speak up, buy a sista a pair of shoes, a drink, or something when you see me out dayum *rolling eyes* (smile)
be careful ladies very careful
Missy you were sooooo right my shyt is hotter then hot sauce ((MUAH))
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Feeling a little down .............I didn't hear from Lee yesterday so I worked OT and then hit him on the way home "Want something".
him "Not at the house my folks had company over my mans house not sure when I'll be back to the house forgot to hit you".
me "Okay". But I was hurt I mean not that I didn't get to see him but because he forgot to hit me ........I mean how in the hell do you make plans with me and then forget to hit me up with a change in the plans ............how I ask ...........KARMA .......I do that shyt all the time .......dayum,dayum, dayum.
Okay so I am prepared for whatever when it comes to Lee I think this just ....was the beginning of my letting go of him because I started feeling like WHO the hell is he to just forget to hit me ..............! yeah ....the old me is coming back I can still love Lee just maybe from a far .....you hear me a far........I won't be starting any text with him for a while believe me .....azz hole.................naw not a good one he already knows he is an azz hole and calls himself that ......lets see............soft azz nucca ...yeah soft (lolololol)
Okay anyway I had told Tony I was going out .........he called me to see what I wanted for dinner and here I go all proud "I'm going out". and then ended up not going out and had to eat a flippin chicken popeye (LOLOLOLOLOL) wow!
That dude Lonnie did call me about the tickets he had left me a message asking if I still wanted to go to the game before he went to pick up the tickets ............WOW I need to check my messages uh?
Anyway he sent me a text yesterday asking me come over his house and I told him I had plans and wouldn't be available until next week .....he said cool after he asked me to break my plans and kick it with him instead.....I told him I hated breaking my plans with people .......shyt I didn't even have any plans SMH!
Darryl sent me a text late talking about was I up late and how about we get together this Thursday??? Whatever dude I didn't even respond I mean why not I should kick it hang out ...go out but I don't feel like it men suck....
When I got home from work I went right to the room and shut the door went to bed got on the laptop and watched the BET hip hop awards, Monica new show and tried to watch Son's of Anarchy but fell asleep 30min into it (geez) I have to catch a rerun of that ASAP!
I was waiting for some of my dishes to get ready in my cafe world before I went to sleep .............Tony came upstairs asked me why I didn't go out and then got on the laptop and then crawled into bed next to me I didn't mind.
I was up nice and early even took Marlow out for a walk in the rain ....it was a slight rain this morning
I got on FB
Tausha called me and said we were still on for bike night tonight.
I sorta don't feel up to it but I will still go help to get that dayum Lee off my mind (SMH)
I am so hungry right now and can't wait until I can go to lunch (smile)
Nothing else going on so far today so I'll just put you guys on pause until something exciting happens (smile)
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Okay not even gonna trip about putting this in order but I went over Lee's house last night
he invited me.....
I guess I have to go by some order so you guys can get the feel
When I got home I was at the door finishing up a conversation with Tausha making sure we were still on for the night .............bike night Wednesday's at Friday's (YES!)
Tony pulled up
I spoke with the girls for a little while and was telling Shay how these teenage kids got on the train talking about how I looked real familar and they thought they seen me before finally the girl comes over to me and says "excuse me but were you on TV"?
me "No".
her "Man you look like someone on TV even with the hair and everything ".
me " Nope, sorry" Then they still kept looking at me and shyt (wow) I always get told I look like someone .......
this man who's mother was a patient at my job used to come in and say I looked like someone he saw he before and then one day he said he knew who it was and he asked me if I ever starred in a porno movie .........WTF!!!!!!!!!!! I told him I was never in any porno he went on to say it was shot in Oakland. I told him again NO it was not me and this flippin fool brought in the porno for me to watch ........WOW...............I took it home and BAM! we did look alike wild ...wild.....(smile) ......some women would have been pissed and or offended that he even thought they resembled a lady in a porno and would have smacked him or cussed him out for bringing the dayum movie to them but not me I just took it home watched it and sent it back hence the reason people think the things about me like they do (lolol)
Tausha and I went to Friday's for bike night.
Tony was looking at me getting ready to go out ...he gave me $40 and then I rolled out first stop was to Tausha's she was driving ......the bytch wasn't even ready when I got there........We played on FB she hit this guy up telling him we were going to Friday's Then she asked me where Rude was and said I should invite him so I did he didn't show but had nerve to hit me later that night asking if he could see me ........yeah right playa......
Anyway we stop at the WaWa first and it looks like the party was there I was getting so many looks and this young guy about Necoles age tried his holla at me ...I was laughing and then another young nice looking guy named Zimba asked me to come here while I was walking in the store to pay for gas I told him to come inside when he didn't I thought he had drove off but he didn't he was waiting for me and then he walked up to me.....I gave him my number....went to pump the gas and was off to the spot.....
Man when we pulled into the spot it was PACKED but on the inside was even more packed.....we walked in and I had a few lookers off the break ...I had on the same pair of blue jeans I only have (size 11 dayum) , the I love shoes T-Shirt and the Madden heels I was looking flyy I might add any way I here someone call my name and it's my boy Arthur we talking, hugging ....I speak to his wife ...he asks me what me and Tausha are drinking because he is running a tab and when I tell him he tells his wife to get the drinks (WOW) .....it went down hill from there after she brought us our drinks she went over to her friend ...they kept looking at me ...whispering and shyt rolling their eyes....Tausha had got us a empty table right next to his and 3 dudes were standing by it ....we started chatting it up with them ......I saw CD he was surrounded by girls like always ...when I caught his eye I gave him the look "BOY YOU BETTER GET YO SELF OVER HERE". look and he said with his finger up "Hold up".
Arthur tells me that CD was talking with his wife's friend for a little while I was like okay but Arthur said it was just a friendly convo but oh girl was interested ....I knew once CD got to me he would stay around me for the rest of the night and he did just that .....not up under me but always real near.....guys were hawking left and right ....I asked CD for a kiss on the cheek right in front of everyone and he did it too. (smile)
Arthur's wife is kirking off telling him she is ready to go ....asking him if he is done talking with me....why is he keep looking at me ....I see them having a few words and then he grabs her and kisses her all long right in the middle of the bar area as if she said "KISS ME TO PROVE YOUR LOVE TO ME" I saw it out my side view but then wouldn't even give her the satisfaction of a full look (lolololol)
they left and then..........
Okay so I go outside to hit a Black with this dude named Jemar and he starts telling me how when he pulled up he saw a big dude choking out his girl ...I described Arthur and his wife and Jemar says that was them he said the police had to get involved I was like OMG!
When we go back inside we talking about it again and this dude comes up to the table talking about it was all my fault ....yada, yada, yada (lol)
I talked with Arthur the next day and he broke her wrist ...he said it was a accident they were arguing and he pulled her out the car and POP it was broken they were on the way to the hospital . (SMH)
That night I met and exchanged numbers with
Lamont........sexy ....30....prez of bike club...kingz....long dreads....has a roomate....cool
Lonnie...can't remember what he looked like ...I think he was the light skinned dude...suspossed to take me to the football game tonight....works as a bartender in some club in DC....always hits me up at night .....not to sure about him
Darryl....young dude ....from ATL...seems cool....has a roommate....dark skinned....dresses nice.....real cute babyface ....yeah ......doesn't date married women so ......I'm not even gonna go any further with him
Zimba.....nice looking ...young guy.....long dreads
Jay Bling ......older dude...in a bike club....nice looking
Might have been a few more dudes but I can't remember these guys hit me up the most.
There was this one dude who was trying to talk to me and Tausha just str8 interrupted him and was like "You don't remember me do you from last week you were talking to me I told you my husband left me and you brought me a drink". While they were talking I stepped off he kept looking at me and I could tell he wanted to talk with me instead but HELL NAW you will not go from her to me ...not gonna happen.
Anyway why a few days later he asked her what WE were getting into ....it was like she clearly couldn't tell he wants me to hang out ....geez mo Christmas the dude I hit the black with Jemar is the same way butta anyway
She also was the only one to say something negative about my masquerade mask and dress .....remember Tiffany said something like I think everyone is jealous of me ...wants to be me or what's my man and she thinks Lee had put this in my head ..........LOL I have felt like that all my life and WHY??? because of the so called friends I have ....the haters I deal with on a regular ....I mean I don't know if you deal with females hating on you all the time you either get low self esteem or you learn that they are jealous and I mean you can tell the difference ....I can just tell with some people and it took NO ONE to learn me this.
Okay so I ended up calling Lee and he sent me to voice mail it ticked me off and I wanted to cry but I let it go until I left the spot and did a drive by past his crib ....only to find out that the car wasn't out there nor was the van uummmm I wonder the van was broken and sat out front for the longest ....anyway I didn't call or text him the rest of the night I hated that he had me out of character like that but it was what is was.
I got on FB and talked with a few people
Jay Bling texted me to make sure I made it home safe and then I went to bed
Thursday
Was when I started getting text from the dudes I met
Lamont and I have hit it off the best so far.
Rude invited me to this chicks house for drinks and a game night but I turned him down of course just wasn't feeling it
Crazy Dogg was hitting me up trying to get to see me but my weekend was too busy
I was chilling working when I got a 
from Lee ..........I didn't respond
about a hour later he sends "What you up too"?
about 30min later I send "Working".
he hits right back "What you doing later"?
me "Hanging out".
him "Where you hanging".
me "Undecided". Which was true I was waiting to hear back from Angel and P. Clark to see if we were still on for 1/2 time.
him "How about my house then lol".
me "Lol".
him "what's funny".
me "Nothing, I'll be over".
him "what's your time frame"?
me "uh"?
him "never mind".
All this takes place during me working OT
I finally get in touch with Angel when I leave work and she is playing cards with Sonovia so we not going out.
I go home and then hit Lee asking if he still wants me to come over ...he says he does
When I got over there it was like old times
we sat on the couch in our spots we talked looked at TV and he laid his head on my lab ...I had my arm on the back of the couch and he took my arm and laid it across his chest (wow) he told me to just talk so we talked bout the kids ...me ...my job....me hanging out.....and that was about it we started watching Mamma Mia (my idea) and then he said lets go watch it in the room ...............I sat on the bed fully clothed and boots still on while he got right in the bed under the covers ................he never asked me to get in the bed nor did he come on to me we just laughed and talked ......I rolled out a little after 12am and he didn't call to talk to me on the way home like he used to but that was okay...............
The next morning I sent him a text telling him how I had a nice time and he sent back he did too I then sent
"Your assignment for today is to clean up your room I was going to spend the night but can't sleep in a dirty room it gives me nightmares".
him "Lol oh really".
me "Yes, really".
him "hmmm".
Nothing else no more contact all that Friday which was cool with me .....................
Friday
I went to go pick up A-Ron's bike from Walmart it's a Handy Mannie push bike with the tools making noise and stuff I thought it was real cute (wink)
Tony was frying fish, fried potatoes,steamed shrimp and broccoli and cheese for dinner he had beer too of course. He posted this on FB and Jamie came right over before he even went home from work (lol) that dayum FB is a mother uh?
Demar came over too he said I looked like Sharkira (It's just the curly, long hair and it is her color)
Tony picked up Lil Troy too for the weekend
I remember going to bed early I was so tired ........
Saturday
I was up early you know Mo had bowling .......
after I left from there I went to look for some earrings for the party later that night ...I ended up not getting anything new but a pair of earrings and I was glad I didn't because my black dress was just fine ...............shoes and all
Okay anyway
I went home and took another nap until was time to pick Mo up...
Then once we got back home I had everyone getting ready for A-Ron's birthday party ..............Tony had taken Lil Troy to work with him so he didn't get to go to the party.
Oh yeah Tony had Lil Troy's hair cut in a mohawk it looks so handsome on him (smile)
I ended up taking Malayah to the party who cried the whole dayum time but once we got her to our house she was laughing and walking around and shyt I was blown.....Man A-Ron was loving the colorful balls all over the floor.
It rained cats and dogs that day too during his party
When I got home I went right to sleep .........Shay woke my up a little before 9pm and was like "Mommy are you okay your phone been ringing off hook". I looked at my phone and had 12 missed calls and 8 text messages (WOW)
I called Tiffany back who was telling me she didn't have anything to wear and asking me if I would pick her up and Felicia who was asking me to scoop her too. I did return G's text he wanted to know what time it started and planned to be there....Oh yeah Meesh sent me a text about the parking and everyone else I just read the text and started getting ready for the party.................Tony hung around to see the finished look I thought I looked real cute and then the mask just set the shyt off (smile)
I picked everyone up and Felicia looked so cute I was like WOW she cleans up nice (wink) the party was real nice and I had a nice time I was working the dance floor on my own every now and then Meesh and Domo danced with me but neither Tiffany or Felicia danced since they feet were hurting .....G kept coming on the dance floor to dance with me and he dances pretty good too for some reason it always amazes me.
Tiffany was falling asleep looking all bored so I left before I was ready too I wanted to see if they did the mask contest because I knew I had it in the bag but didn't want Tiffany thinking I was stuck on myself or some wild shyt ......man I wanted to win but didn't want to be all big headed so we left it was already 2:15am if they did do the contest the winner was happy I had left the building and that's real talk.................I put a pic of me on my FB profile and received nice comments from every one but Tausha (lol) anyway
Sunday
I was home all day Necole and I went to the boutique I got 2 pair of pants and 2 shirts .....Necole had to get a outfit for a fashion show she is in.
I dropped her at practice and then went home ......Tony was cooking dinner he made all my favorites Homemade meatballs, creamed spinach,biscuits, roasted potatoes and sauteed mushrooms mmmm mmmm good everything was wonderful
I washed clothes
got on FB
and watched my Sunday lineup
Later that night I get a text from Darryl asking if it was to late to call me and at that same time I get a text from Lee it was a smiley face. I hit him back with what's up but he didn't respond and then I called Darryl we talked for a good while and he made it clear that if I was married we had to end the conversation right then ....I kept it going for a little while longer after that and then got off the phone.......guess I won't be talking with him and he was a fine youngin too Tausha and I both saw him at the same time and expressed interest if she would have spotted him first I would have left well alone but anyway he stepped to me.
Oh yeah I texted Lee earlier that day just to see if he ever got the poem I sent him and he was like "No, when"? So I sent it again and he hit me right back all he said was "That was nice". (SMH) LOLOLOL that man I tell ya ....I'm sure he read it more then once but I'll never know it (lol)
Tony slept in the bed with me and I still stressed to him how much of a friend I feel in him and I don't want anything else anymore.
Monday
I had a meeting with Shay's math teacher Shay and her got into it and Shay kept telling the teacher she was doing to much and to just be quiet and the teacher put her out the class and Shay asked for her to call me while she was in the room and the teacher told her no and all this started with Shay asking to go to the bathroom.
Man yaw when the teacher called me she was still hyped like she wanted to fight my daughter she even called her a heifer ....yes a HEIFER ...to me ....I told her "This conversation is now over ...my child has a name and heifer is not it you think Shay went off in your class what you don't know is if we don't end this conversation now you will see going off". I called the front off and scheduled a meeting ASAP!
OH Shay said the teacher rolled her eyes at her and was moving her head and hands popping and stuff.
When the teacher couldn't reach me she called my sister and Nickee said she had to tell the teacher to take a breather cause she was way to hyped I was like WOW!
The teacher acted like Shay went off for nothing and told me she said SHUT-UP (which is a word not even used in my house) and that Shay never asked to go to the bathroom ........I know my children and she would not have popped off like that for nothing believe me and then before Shay went out the room she said "YEAH CALL MY MOTHER CALL HER NOW". That showed me right there that Shay wanted me to know what was up before the lies were told.
Of course when we get to the dayum conference Ms. Pitman after hearing Shay's story said that Shay did ask to go to the bathroom and I was like you didn't say that when I spoke with you when you called ....her "I forgot I was so upset".
me "See the reason she wanted you to call me right then .....see how people forget and this was an important part of the incident".
her "And she told me to shut-up". I look at Shay who repeats "I said be quiet".
me "It was still wrong but I don't believe she said shut-up".
her "weather she said be quiet or shut up it means the same".
me "Naw I would have to differ SHUT-UP is a very rude word you wouldn't tell a toddler to SHUT-UP you would say be quiet now grant it either way she shouldn't have told you to be quiet but if your gonna tell the story tell it correctly". She was looking at me all stupid in the face. Then she had nerve to say she wants Shay to write a letter to the class for disrespecting her I said "Oh no that's not gonna happen she will write a letter about disrupting the class but you disrespected her too rolling your eyes popping your head and hand gesture ...naw that's not what's going to be done .
Man people think just because they are children you don't have to respect them ...........so not true......so not true.......
Of course they pulled her grades and the chick has a 59.11% (lol) I was like dayum Shay bring that book home everyday ask you sister for help or go to tutoring you have got to bring the grade up and turn in that dayum homework she had so many missed homework assignments.
I mean it's better to turn it in and get some wrong then just get a plain ole 0
Okay so I got to work late just a little after 9am
Tiffany called off she had a headache
I texted with Lamont
I got morning text from all the guys plus my daddy
I talked with Kris for a little bit via text as well.
Then Lee hit me with the "Wanna come over tomorrow"?
me "Yeah sure what time"?
him "Soon as you get off".
me " Off from the 1st 5pm or 2nd job 8pm"? took a while but then he sent "Just when you get off period".
me "Dayum I'm coming hold up nucca okay".
him "I'm horney so be prepared".
me "Good me too should I bring protection or do you have some"?
him "Bring it but don't like it I haven't been with anyone".
me "Me neither but I'll bring it".
him "So you haven't had any sex since or last time" ?
me "Well the bullet".
him "the bullet uh? you haven't been with anyone"?
me "Dayum Lee no not even Tony he has tried but no dice it's not even there I mean how come it's so hard to believe".
him "You like dyck".
me "And you like puzzie and I don't believe your azz either fugg you Lee".
him "Why you always go off the deep end with me I was just saying no one knows what you been doing".
me "And the same goes for you".....That was that and I haven't texted him since if he hits me I'll go I do want some but I won't text his azz or just go over there fugg that nucca he thinks just because I fugg with him he can say whatever maaaaannnnnnn anyway
I worked OT
That dude Lonnie hit me up but he wasn't talking about taking me to the game so I ended that convo quick
When I got home Tony was warming up some food
I got on FB
and then went to bed he slept in the bed with me again talking about he is coming back for his wife he wants me back .....I told him I wasn't wanting to be won back but he's not hearing me so I just turned over asked him to scoot back and went to sleep I woke up in the middle of the night with him all on my back holding me tight I so can't wait to move or something real talk I just want to separate I will be so much happier.
I can tell he was surprised I am still thinking ........going to Ohio for Thanksgiving and our anniversary without him ..........Oh well
I chatted with my sister Jacquelyn she was saying how excited she is that we are coming up there. And she saw Terah and she is excited too.
I sent T a e-mail last week just asking how him and the kids were he replied back all was well but he wanted to know how I was really doing......Haven't replied back yet
My sister got a call back from her GYN saying she needs to come in so they can discuss her ultrasound I think it's fibroids and told her not to worry I asked her if she wanted me to go with her but she said "No". I think I may just meet her at her house anyway if Mike's not going with her.
Nothing much happened yesterday ......get with you guys later.
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TODAY was a WOW day
I can't even talk about nothing but today okay so here it goes
I sent Lee a "Good Morning". text he didn't send anything back
later I sent him something asking about the trip and if I should call him since he wasn't responding to my e-mail and he hit back that the trip was good everything was some what the same and that he has hadn't checked his e-mails yet.
he asked about my weekend and then .......................then ....."What's up wit my sheets lol "?
me "I still got them I was gonna put those 1000 count sheets on my bed the other day lol why you want them"
him "Damn right I want them you brought them for me".
me "You can't get them unless I'm in that bed mister"!
him "lol Thats Cool"
me "I can always get you a 250 count for the few ppl u hang wit "
him "Lol. Not like that".
me 
That was it nothing much but I'll take whatever ......it makes me smile
I have not heard anything else from him and I really don't even need to for real I am just happy for the lil convo we had today. ..........and his "LOL. NOT LIKE THAT". is classic if I could have seen my heart it would have had a sombero on it jumping around like a jumping bean....hey I used to have a jumping bean when I was in elementary school
Okay sooooooooo let's get this post in order
Yesterday was work and Ruby was packing her bag (YES!)
Work was working nothing exciting yesterday but today I was a tad salty when Lee didn't text back that I should call him so I told Tiffany to send me a text every morning saying fugg Lee and remind me why I don't ever want to hear from him again and she said "I sure will I gladly will". mmmm hhmmm just like I thought ...............butta I'll keep that to myself because if though I don't think she reads anymore some ppl who know her do so I'm gonna leave it alone but I knew it .
I won't be telling her anything pertaining to him it will be as if him and I don't even talk so I didn't tell her about the texts today (smile) I'll just keep that to myself
After work I went home and was hoping to get in the bed early I worked OT unitl 7pm ....but when I got home I watched The Ant Bully with Shay and Mo it was good then I went in the room and got on FB for a little while
lets see
My cousin Terah was talking about how when she reads my Good Morning post it reminds her of how I used to get on the school bus this morning and say real loud "Good Morning Terah". She said how it was a flash back for her and how she misses it.
I told her I do it to my office in the morning too but with a princess Dianna wave "Good Morning office good morning".
she said "I hope they appreciate it I didn't then lol". And she sure didn't she used to be so embarrassed (lol)
Then when I was looking at my notices I saw that Mom Pat left a comment on Kkay's page (that's her mom)
Kkay was on chat so I hit her up "Girl that's not mom Pat on your page"?
her "Yep that's her".
me "STOP! girl I sent her a friend request ...think she still remembers me"?
her "Girl, how she gonna forget trouble". (LOLOLOL) I was happy to cath her as well as my Ohio BFF Fee da Mo (her name is Felicia) but I always called her FeedaMo (wink) I was the first person to cut her hair in a cute ass bob ....she got me a job at Taco Bell where she worked and when I saw how her manager used to talk about her and treat her all bad so my first day on the job she gets smart with FeedaMo and I don't know I didn't like her on the strength of my girl sooooo I stole the bytch BAM! knocked that bytch on the counter then I walked the hell out she called the police and shyt....man if I was in a line up I would have hit that bytch with the Cleo move in set it off ....turning to the side tapping on my top jacket pocket with the grit face.....yeah but it didn't come to that she dropped the charges ....FeedaMo quit soon after that
I had just moved to Ohio from Cali so I had a whole lot of pent up anger I was moved to Ohio for Gang reform (lol) and Ohio was so full of white people man it was just slow as hell there..............I can't wait until she hits me back so we can chit chat (smile)
Lee has not hit me back regarding my poem to him yet I mean maybe his internet has been turned off.............I mean he has wireless service so I mean ............I don't think he would let that get cut off I think he is just not speaking on it ..............WOW............that hurts I gave him a true piece of my feeling through my words and he can't even say thanks .......naw ..naw.......I'm a stick with thinking he hasn't checked his e-mail yet and maybe that shyt is cut what they call the hell off.
I thought I was going to have to takes a cash loan out but the car ins ppl said I could pay them o the 30th and T-Mobile let me pay them next week so I am good I'm just gonna pay for a week of after care and then next week I will get the other $85 up rom some where ................
Today is Tony's Birthday!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
He is acting all nonchalant towards me and really how I feel is .......I can't wait for this day to be over .......I'm glad Dr. B refilled my anxiety med because I am going to need it he's acting soooo I can't put my finger on it but today is his day so I'm trying to be cheery calling him singing happy birthday asking him how his day is going and what he wants to do tonight and he's being so non responsive ..........what I want to do is say "Happy Birthday". and then go about my day as any other day I am just not into it or him anymore and for my birthday believe me I don't want him to go out of his way to do anything for me I'll be alright I will be so glad when this day is over believe me
Last night I went to Necole and Shay's old middle school for a college tour meeting .....it's gonna be for spring break and they are going to all the HBC's I am excited for it..........one of the coaches there Mr. Mundell called Necole on her cell phone last month and told her about it ......that was nice of him to include her as well as a few other high school kids.
Left from there and went to Shay's school for a pep rally she was dancing in and modeling in the dayum thing cost $10 to get in $40 for our family SMH!!!!! it was alright lots of school spirit and Shay danced very well she was on point I was very proud .........very...........then she did alright in her modeling as well she was the last to go and had a spot light (smile) another James int he making (lololol)
it was over at 9:30pm and then we went home
I got on FB to fix my Cafe and then show the family the little baby doing the stanky leg ....it was so cute we all liked it.
Tony was acting all funny when I was making a grill cheese sandwich I asked him if he wanted one and he was like "No, Thank you I'll make my own remember you said your not going to be that type of woman right"? I rolled my eyes and was like "Right, I'm not going to fix you plate every single time I mean I'm offering because I want to I mean I am cooking".
him "I'm not trying to argue just leave it alone". MAN I just went upstairs and got in my cold azz bed he hasn't turned the heat on yet and since he does pay the bill I'm not gonna open my mouth. I just snuggled up with my pillow and got on FB until Tiffany called me and then right before I fell asleep I thought about what would happen if I called Lee and told him it was cold in my bed and I was wondering if I could come spend the night with him......I fantasized about different responses he could have gave me.....each ending with him saying "Yeah come over". (SMILE) not sure what time I fell asleep after playing with my bullet (wink)
I can not believe Lee has not said anything about my poem I me geez if someone sent me a poem I would be flattered at least send them a thank you I mean geez why am I so pressed for his azz why!!!!?????!!!!???
So anyway
I thought I was going to have to take out a cash loan but every thing worked out ............did I say that shyt already ????
Work was okay today nothing really happened
Oh Precious Dogg called me to see what I was doing this weekend
Crazy Dogg sent me a text we sorta text all morning I told him since it was going to be
I'm so ready to go home wish I could just crawl under my bed but I have to put on the fake smile and attitude for Tony's Birthday and James is coming home as well so I have to be cheerful ..........
Hope everyone has a nice weekend and can't wait to start my week with a bang next week
maybe I'll call him one day next week .....maybe......just maybe .........yeah I'm gonna call him one day next week
later gator
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Okay first off why the hell did Tony piss me off last night it was funny after I listened to a few of my favorite songs and thought about it (LOLOL) it was like he picked a argument with me so he could spend the night out (LOLOLOLOL) when I thought about this I left him a voice mail message "Tony, please don't stress me by picking a petty argument so you can stay out because I really don't care about you staying out you could just pack your bag and say your going to be gone a few days it would not bother me just please don't upset me in order to do so".
You know I hate telling you guys stuff all backwards and this happened Sunday night so ......okay let's start this post
THE WEEKEND
Was cool
Friday I worked OT and when I got home Tony had the music on downstairs and was cleaning up drinking a beer ...I grabbed me one and sat downstairs before going to my room to clean up ....a little.
Marlow wasn't feeling good still he was out of the diarrhea but now his butt was inflamed and his balls looked irritated ...Tony had got some Desetine because we couldn't even think about a vet visit.
Nothing much went on I hung downstairs with Tony .....oh yeah I kept A-Ron for Tiffany ......sat in the basement watching Kevin Hart comedy special on cable.......dude is funny and I was cracking up thinking about Lee because we had watched one of them together before and it just reminded me of him .............shyt what doesn't remind me of him uh?
After that went off I took A-Ron upstairs to bed ...Mo slept with me too I got him to clap and put his hands up (smile)
I got on FB for a little bit and then I don't know who feel asleep first
Saturday
Tiffany was at the house bright and early like 7:30am.
Mo, A-Ron and I were up I was feeding him some plums ......
Marlow was still in pain
Tony took Mo to bowling
then Shay to modeling practice
James decided to stay down Morgan since it was there homecoming and even though Tony did all that talking about him taking us up there I knew it was BS
Tony made Marlow a appointment with his Vet Dr. Tibbs for 11:30am ...so I got dressed and while Tony picked up Mo I went to the Vet they come up there right before we went to the back.....briefly...the doctor had to put a muzzle on Marlow (6lb Yorkie poo who thinks he is a pit) then he had to get tranquilized twice before the doctor could examine and shave around his rectum then take a stool sample which showed no signs of worms but his rectum and balls are infected so he was given a antibiotic cream, clydamycin an oral antibiotic and then pain medicine (oral) I mean good grief my doggie was hurting ........how bad $265.00 worth good grief Charlie Brown and who had to pay ........you got it Tony because I sure couldn't fade it....hence the reason when I leave I didn't want to take the kids with me I just can't afford it.
After we got back Tony went out back to straighten up and I went with Necole or rather her and Mo went with me to Marshall's to get something to wear to the Biker's party.
While we were out I found a cute top for $7 and then Shay called she was ready to be picked up from modeling practice but first I had to go back home she needed me to bring her the silver dress and the $25 she needed. my niece Rye Pie called to see if Mo could spend the night so I told Mo to pack her bag.
We went to Suitland first and then dropped Mo off my sister was there getting ready to go to a baby shower.
We left from there and stopped in a beauty supply store where we saw this real cute hair style it was two of them that would look perfect for Necole
Then home......I took a nap before going out
While I was getting dressed Tony came upstairs ...oh ....wait
before I took a nap I went downstairs to chill with Tony we watched some TV and then he wanted to get busy so we tried again this time he was able to get off but I had to get the bullet to finish the job for me ...he was all acting pissed that he came so fast and planned to make it up to me later that night *rolling eyes* yeah right
After that I went upstairs to take a nap before I took my nap I sent Lee a text "Just hoping your visit is going good". he never sent anything back but that was cool
Okay so now when I was getting dressed to go out Tony comes in the room dressed all flyy like he had on a real cute jacket yeah he cleans up real nice. ......
He had brought me a bottle of GG to take with me and gave me $20
I took the girls to get some Wendy's before I left
I rolled out and when I walked in the spot it was packed ....man bikers know how to throw the best parties I'll tell you that's some real talk ....Tony's boy Dee was there taking the flicks .....My girl Slyk who is now Precious Dogg looked good in her new colors ....Snaps was mad haten ...I saw Raymond, Tia, Renae and Cup cake we're up in the place I had a very nice time it was the best party I have been to this year I had a real nice time .........and can you imagine only one ...1...uno...dude tried to holla at me his name is Red and he is 48 but looked every bit of late 37-40 .....yeah he wasn't bad looking either ...........but I'm so not thinking about any guys right now we didn't even exchange numbers when the party was over a bunch of us went to the Dirty club house for a lil while and he came too (smile)
While on my way to the party guess who calls me ???????? BONUS .....he wanted to invite me Bowling with him and some friends WTF!!!!??? we ended up talking all the way to my party I mean I was like WTH!!!! the convo was light and I told him maybe next time but really I don't even plan on kicking it with him I just don't wanna be bothered.
I hit 7 eleven before I went in for the night and got some nachos mmmm mmmm good
When I pulled in the drive way Tony was already home I went straight to my room shut the door and got my grubb on I had the TV on and next thing I know Tony comes upstairs passing gas eating up my nachos and all I can think is how the 2 plus plan can't come fast enough how peaceful it will be to just come home to a room and not have to keep spraying my air freshener while he gets an attitude like I'm not supposed to complain about his funky ass geez ....Hurry , Hurry
He didn't ask for any azz which was cool with me ...I think he held me while we slept .......
Sunday
Let's see
I woke up with the idea to cook a real good meal so of course I didn't have any money I asked Tony to take me to the store and buy what I needed for this meal I was going to make.
He was cool with that and we went off to the store
the menu
Butterfly Pork chops in an Orange sauce, Asparagus with Parmesan cheese, Caesar salad, Caribbean punch and Loaded baked potatos.
When we got back from the store he left to pick up Mo and go over Demars house to watch the game
I took Necole to cheer practice and when I picked her up at 5pm I took her to get her wig for celebrity day she went as Lady GaGa so by the time we got home it was a little after 6pm I started washing clothes and cooking dinner
When Tony gets home he says "What time you start cooking"? I ignored his tone and said "A little after 6pm".
him "Did you miss me "?
me "I thought about you". I mean he be pulling you guys and I don't want to give him any false hope that we will get back like that because we just won't
Anyway I was just finished cooking dinner a little before 8pm I yelled downstairs for him to come get his plate I had the food all set out on the dining room table I was feeding Marlow when he comes up stairs "Where are the potatoes"?
me "On the table". then I hear him say "A nucca can't get his plate fixed around here". ......OMG!!! you guys I wanted to pull a move from Menace to Society and say "IS YOUR NAME LEE...THEN I DON'T THINK SO". but I just stormed in my room shut and locked the door and put on my Ledisi CD real loud to drown out my burning anger.
Before I went in the room I heard Necole say "Daddy you can fix your own plate". (lololol) that made me smile
He left and Necole knocked on the door and was like Mommy come out and eat....I noticed he was gone and felt at peace the food was the flipping bomb...Mo took her shower, got her hair done for the week and then I gave them the desert Lemon cookies with Vanilla Ice cream in the middle of them ....I watched extreme home make over and Desperate house wives
Talked with Tiff on a commercial while I walked Marlow and then got on FB before I went to bed
When I got up at my usual 4am time Tony still wasn't home (smile) I watched Little House on the yeah and then got on FB and finally to sleep at 5am
Monday
Got up at 6am and then when I get to work I get a text from Lee "I'm good be home tomorrow".
me "Okay good".
I talked via e-mail with Nickee and Tiffany all day
Worked OT until 7pm and then on my way home I put my $10 in the fare card machine and it took my money I had already tried 2 other machines *rolling eyes* So the guys says he will let me ride through and to give the station manager this form on the other end but what about the parking garage I didn't have the $4.25 to get out the parking garage now Necole had sent me a text before I got in the station ....I checked it and it came in at 7:09pm and said "Aye ma". I couldn't wait until I got out the tunnel so I could call her once outside I called her "Please tell me your waiting at the Metro with at least $4"!
Her "Nope I'm at home what's wrong you don't have any money"? I tell her what happened and then back under the tunnel I go ....dayum
When I get off the metro I walk toward the busses and text Necole and James asking them how much did the bus cost? and what bus should I get on? Necole called me back and said not to worry about the bus her and Shay were on their way ......they gathered together some change and asked KiKi (neighbor across the street) to bring them to the metro ....man I had tears in my eyes ....my soldiers have my back (smile)
I waited in the cold for them to get there and then we walked to the van ......why when I was leaving out the parking garage the gate was open?????? BECAUSE IT WAS FREE TO PARK FOR COLUMBUS DAY ......aaarrrggghhhh all that and it was free to park ........we cracked up laughing that thing was funny.
When we got home Tony was downstairs helping Mo with her home work ............
We all talked with James on the speaker phone and looked at the pics he has on FB from clubbing and the fashion show he was in ....he looks so handsome (cheezin)
I went to bed sorta early we all were in bed by 10pm
I was watching The Game Tiffany sent me a text letting me know it was on I saw two episodes and then The Monique show came on ....now I have never watched it but it just doesn't seem to be my thing so I turned on Family Guy (lololol)
Tony came upstair to apologize to me for his smart comment about getting his plate fixed he said he was just joking and I just blew up ....that could be true since Ruby came the next day so I could have been a tad agitated (lol)
I told him it was no big deal
he kissed my forehead and went downstairs to bed
Marlow had a rough night he was whinny, barking and shyt I got up around 2am and walked his ass then he was doing it again at 4am until I put him out back until 6am I mean I was ready to sale him real talk and you guys know I am a light sleeper.
Tuesday
Got up in a tired mood I mean with a dog barking and whinning all dayum morning shoot who wouldn't.
I did think about Lee coming home today and how he might text me and tell me he is on the road .............not he didn't text me once today.
Then I was thinking he might call or text and invite me out for a drink or dinner so I can see pictures and hear about his trip and then I thought .........................HELLO TONI WHY WOULD HE CALL YOU HE HAS A FEW PPL HE HANGS WITH AND MAY BE RUSHING HOME TO SPEND TIME WITH ONE OR THE WHOLE FEW OF THEM HE HANGS WITH.....................GOOD GRIEF CHARLIE BROWN *ROLLING EYES*
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First let me start f by saying do you guys know a female who when she gets shown a little bit of attention from a dude her whole attitude changes , she is more happy, talkative all she can talk about is HIM and just all so giddy you would think they just got engaged but all in all it's just a little bit of attention ........some people not used ta nothing (lol)
Okay so let's see oh yeah second off I need some sex my face is breaking out .....geez Lee getting his off some where with one or both of those few ppl he hangs with (PISSED OFF IS WHAT I AM) I have never felt so sex deprived in my life and I can't even get it from home because that nucca can't keep it up geez mo Christmas and to think before Lee I could go months without sex and now I think I'm gonna kirk out real soon if I don't get some from LEE (DAYUM PISSED OFF IS WHAT I AM)
Okay now
Yesterday at work the work day couldn't have went by fast enough for me I was so ready to hang out (smile)
Michelle was getting on my nerves talking so much she was interrupting everyone when we we're talking .......Felicia was working my nerves to I was just ready to get off work.
I didn't have the urge to call Lee all day or to change my status on Twitter (remember he can still see it) oh right now it says "I didn't ask 4 n e 1 2 b here...I didn't sign up 4 dis thing called luv....I'm now sign n off ...much luv Tweeples. I'm done with that
Tiffany rode home with me yesterday so we could hit Friday's .....when I walked in the house it smelled like big azz dog shyt ................I was pissed I thought they forgot to lock Marlow up and he shyted all over the house but not true Necole had to give him a bath because he had diarrhea all over his cage ..........OMG that shyt was funky.............I told Tiffany I would be ready in 10min and I was out the door we went ..............my sister called when we were almost there she was in the parking lot and said when we pulled up "Is this a club or restaurant or what". She looked really nice but I think she wears way to much make up ......Anyway we had to stand up for a good while until we spotted some guys getting up from their table then we took it (smile) I ended up having 3 Electrik blue lemonade they were okay I wont get it again I would get what Tiffany had can't remember the name of it but it was good.
Once seated I called Slyk to tell her I heard the news of her joining Dogg Pound and she says she is not with them she is with Dogg chain and everyone from her club is going to a party Saturday in Landover. She wants to speak with Red Dogg who is the President of her club He was all flirting with me and stuff she said they have a social side of there club and she said she would put a good word in for me ....*hint* she wants me to join ..........maybe ....I will maybe I won't
CD came in around 9pm he is a nice looking guy......he offered to buy me a drink (not the table just me) then he kept checking on me ...hanging around me every now and then he introduced me to one of his boys that he told I was going to Daytona with him last March .....his buddy was like oh yeah so CD said "You wanna go to Daytona with me in March next year for real this time"?
me "Yeah sure". He also invited me to go on a ride with him for domestic violence with the Platinum Rollers Oct 17th I will be going with him (smile)....that's if I feel up to it I mean you know how some timey I be with these nucca's
We left at around 10pm something and I dropped Tiffany at the crib and went home ....I was in bed early and that was all she wrote. Tony stayed downstairs which was cool with me.
Thursday
I was yearning to hear from Lee so bad I wanted to talk with him soooo bad I was sending Tiffany telling her just that when I get a text.........I don't text it until later and no bull shyt the text was from Lee "On the rd 2 go c my kids".
me "Great! everythings okay right"?
him "Pretty much".
me "Good well have a safe trip and call me if you would like some on the road company and if you have a driving partner let them take over when you get sleepy and have a nice visit".
him "Ok thx".
work was so much better after that I didn't have that burning feeling in my stomach to talk with him it was strange.
I wanted to work OT but Tony was acting like it was going to be a problem for him to get Mo to the movies on time she was going with her GS troop to see Cloudy with a chance of meatballs so I went ahead and left work to pick her up and take her. With this new troop we have to pay for a bunch of these trips where as with the out troop we didn't come out of pocket.....I couldn't afford to stay and watch the movie with her so I dropped her off and went out Fort Washington to get my party ticket from Snaps (yeah my Ex bike President) well anyway I go to meet up with her and she claims she was coming from the barber shop and just saw Red Dogg and Crazy Dogg who both were asking about you she said "Yaw just saw Sexy Redz last night calm down". I just smiled at her got my ticket and rolled you know she be whaling like shyt. Oh yeah and why the dude Slyk like this dude she been kicking it with Snaps likes and keeps telling her "Slyk you know that man is married you betta be careful". I told Slyk she better be careful because Snaps might be the one to tell the dayum wife we cracked up but we both knew that shyt was not funny but it was so true lolololololol
When I picked up Mo she was so excited about the movie she said it was good and all the kids said it was good but it made them hungry (smile)
Shay had cooked dinner so when I went home I just went to the room to watch CSI ....Tony wasn't home he already said he was going to be hanging out so I did expect him to be home.
Poor Marlow still has diarrhea so when I got home Necole said he ate but still had diarrhea ...Mo was all upset and worried about him geez mo Christmas pls pray nothing happens to our dog the vet Tony talked with said I did right by giving him the pepto Bismol but I should have been giving it to him 3 times a day and then put him on a bland diet...I hope he gets better ASAP I don't have any money to take him to the Vet I just got a text from T-Mobile talking about my bill was past due I know, I know It's due so I gotta pay it but look I'm already neg $300 in my account sooooo I can't bounce another check dayum anybody out there gotta spare $300 they can send to my pay pal account (LOLOLOLOLOL)
I got on FB until 11 something but since I had the BS meeting this morning at 8am I went to bed pretty early ...I slept good and made it to the meeting 5min late only to find out the meeting had nothing to do with the admin staff as always *rolling eyes* then hear this crab big red (the boss) tells my supervisor Michele that my clothes be to tight and my tops to low cut. LOLOLOLOLOL I started laughing and shaking my head then she had nerve to say to Tiffany she also mentioned that on jean day you had on a sweat shirt with a hood on the back OMFG!!!!!!! I was cracking what they call the hell up then she talked about how we don't be in the office and we only get a 30min break and yada, yada, yada I was like OMG!!!! this was just funny to me I told Michele I want a meeting with Shirley I need to find out about my clothes being to tight because clearly ...I mean clearly the handbook must have been updated since I have the 2002 handbook and the way I come to work I know my shyt is not tight LOLOLOL I also know once or twice when I wear this white shirt my boobs sorta popped out but she was no wear around and when I leave the office I always put on my long black sweater so she is full of shyt and I plan to get tot he bottom of this fat white red head bytch aaarrrggghhhhh I know she can tell I don't care to shakes for her fake as ....anyway I asked "SOOOOO how is my work performance are any of my doctors complaining".
Michele "Nope the work is just fine no complaints"............OKKKKKAAAAYYYYYYY
me "Well then I guess that is what counts". *rolling eyes*
I sent Lee a poem today wanna hear it???? well here it goes anyway and no stealing it I wrote it you can not have it
I thought I was alright
I thought I had my head right
I did!
I swear!
Everything was alright.
Out of sight
Out of mind....
Out of sight ....
Out of mind
I felt right, I felt fine.
I felt fine
I felt right........That was true!
A text every now and then is what I was getting used to
I actually thought I would never get a chance to verbally talk with you...
Then that Sunday...............
Then we talked and it started
Again..............................Again..................
Just that fast it was back
Just that fast because it never left
When you called me over to sit next to you
My heart didn't stand a chance
It wasn't strong enough
I knew right then
It just wasn't ready to let go
I had so many questions ..(I didn't ask any)
I had plenty responses to your comments....(I didn't make any)
I was stuck
Lost for words
Lost in your smile................
I felt that glow
.................on my face
I felt that warmth
..................over my body
I felt that Joy
I felt that Joy unspeakable
Joy
My Heart........cried out
ached
yearned for you to hold me and never let go
for your smile to keep that warmth going in my
chest.
The LOVE I have for you won't fade
won't die
won't be replaced.
I thought falling back was what I needed
I was scared (of the way I felt)
I was unsure (of the way I felt)
BUT what I knew then
what I know now
Is I want you back in my life
apart of my life
A friend for life.................................
Oh well I hope he checks it out when he gets back from Atlanta ......
About to head home watching A-Ron tonight
Tomorrow a biker party
Sunday the normal
later you guys and miss the day to day post do you?
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Friday toward the end of the day I was getting excited
I had on my 5 1/2 in Steve Madden patent leather heels which had me standing 5"11in I posted this on face book and asked that all the nucca's under 6 feet to pls take a seat ..thank you lololololololol
I had not heard anything from Lee but I was getting excited about the show regardless.
I left work with the thought to just get a pair of jeans ....I had to go to Dots (dayum) I found a nice enough pair of jeans $16.....hemmmmm $16 jeans I think I should shop here for jeans instead of Nordstroms uh??? (wink)
I grabbed a pack of 3 gold hoop earrings for $5.99 I felt like I was on that show a look for less or what ever it is where you only have a certain amount of time and money to pull this particular look together (wink)
Oh yeah and why were my jeans a size .....................................11....................OMG double digits 
Tony wasn't home when I got there so I started getting ready .....1/2 way thru I called Tony who informed me he was in the barber shop......I knew we were going to be late and was praying Chrisette Michele was going on second after Common..................
Before we left out Shay asked me if she could go over some girl name Sa'Quan house ......now I already informed her and Necole that they wouldn't be going any where this weekend since they hung out all last weekend so I'm thinking why the fugg is she bothering me ..........I finally say "I don't care Shay ask your father I don't care just leave me alone".
We decide to drive to the show since we were going to be later even more if we would have took the train.
It took forever to find parking and I just knew the first act was OVER ....still hoping I had not missed C.M.....finally he decides to park in a flipping parking garage I said I would pay the $20 for the parking I mean come on I was missing the show!!!!!!!!!
When we got in the Verizon Center I found out C.M. had already performed dayum
We got in line to get 2 beers and then I saw the bar, bar line and decided to give my beer to Tony and get a cup of GG.
Tony knew a bunch of people it was like dude after dude coming up to him (smile)
we had good seats Common was in the middle of his performance when we sat down. Common was good and put on a good show I didn't know he could free style so well ....I mean I enjoyed him ...
Right before Maxwell came on I get a text from Shay that says "Mom the girl mother on her way".
me "Did you talk to your dad"? while I wait for her to reply I ask Tony who says "Nope he didn't speak with her". She doesn't text back and ....then..... MAXWELL came out and stole the show OMG!!!!!!!!!!! I cried, laughed, danced, sang, played every air instrument his band had LOLOLOL at one point the snobbing chick in front of me glanced back I gave her the look like "I'm getting my moneys worth having fun you continue to sit on your azz tapping your foot like you listening to a symphony BYYYYYTCH". (lol)
her azz didn't turn back around after that (lolololololol)
LOL
I was sad the concert was over and wish I could have went with maxwell to his next event (smile)
Did I mention I cried
When we left the concert I thought we were going to be headed straight home but Tony had something else in mind.......now earlier I was texting Rude Boy and he mentioned that after the show I should come meet him down at the Cadillac Ranch ........get where I'm going???
Tony takes me to the Cadillac Ranch ..................when he pays for us to get inside he knows a rack of people and they asking me how the show was come to find out they are all old friends he grew up with in Oxon Hill. He reunited with them on FB and he knew they would be up there so BAM that's where we end up.
I end up having a total of 5 GG and Tony kept talking me into getting on the BULL.....
Before that who do I see walking past me in a flipping red and white checkered button down shirt .....OMG!!!!! he is not attractive and soooo short anyway just because you are at the Cadillac Ranch does not mean you should dress like a flippin cattle rancher (lololol) Geez Mo Christmas I tell ya nucca's ....I'm a slick azz so I send him a text "Where you at"?
him "About to go to club Elite" now why is his short azz lying to me when I see him and his picnic table shirt so I say "Oh I just saw a dude in a red and white shirt walk past me who looks like you".
him "where you"?
me "Cadillac Ranch I guess that's not you".
him "Where are you"? I see his short azz looking all around for me and then he starts walking this way I wave him over and think why did I even be bothered with his azz.
Just as we talking Tony comes back with my drink he hands it to me then steps off ( I thought that was nice of him but totally unnecessary I was going to introduce them I mean it's nothing really happening between Rude and I or is going to happen again. Rude asked me to Dogg Pounds Party this Friday but I already got the text from Crazy Dogg and said I would be there after I found out my girl Slyk is a member now .....Oh yeah I will be there ....it's going to be fun ........I told him this and he said "Okay so Ill just see you there". I'm thinking yeah and don't be stuck to me either buddy I'm out to have fun none of that other shyt.
He leaves and Tony gets me signed up to ride the bull ...I just knew I was going to be like Sissy on Urban cowboy I mean who doesn't think they can be like her when riding the bull .....that shyt didn't work like that I did ride long but then ....down went Toni...Toni went down....Tony video taped me and that thing is funny every time I look at it I crack up I wonder if I can put it on FB...if not If you know me ask me to see it that thing is classic. Rude Boy sent me a text talking about I rode him longer then I rode that bull *rolling eyes* He also sent me a text that said meet him by the women's bathroom to give him a kiss...............yes, he asked that and ....I SAID SURE I was toasted you guys I told Tony I was going to the bathroom ...I saw Rude by the door I bent down and gave him a kiss went in the bathroom and sent LEE A DAMSEL IN DISTRESS TEXT AAAARRRRGGGHHHH I was just all over the place uh?
okay so here is what I sent him and Da Fedz "I am fugged up and need a ride can you help me? Da Fedz never and I say NEVER hit me back where as Lee hit me right back almost as if he was sending me a text at the same time "Where u at"?
me "Cadillac Ranch".
him out with the homies they not ready to leave yet". Now I don't believe that for one minute I mean I just don't but anyway I said "OKAY I SEE I GET IT I TOTALLY GET IT".
him "Don't act like I'm not trying".
me now this is were it gets mushy and scarey I say "No never that you are the tru love of MY life no worries I have a ride and am on the way home safe no worries I love you". ...........yes, that is excatly what my drunk azz typed and then went downstairs were Tony had a drink waiting for me ...................LEE NEVER TEXTED ME BACK aaaarrrggghhhh I was doing so good .......OMG! I drank my drink and then we rolled out ..........but not home this fool takes me to that parking lot near MO's aftercare and attempts to have sex with me............I say attempt because well I get sick of saying it from now on I'll just say he tried .but no dice......I did get my back hurt the way I was lying in the back seat I woke up the next morning for like 3 days with a sore tender back OUCH!!!!!!!!!!! and for nothing it wasn't even worth it when I was in the back with my lady .........um yeah I never ad a sore back or maybe it was so god I didn't pay attention the days after (smile)
I was twisted and don't even remember getting home ....undressed and in the bed ....but when I woke up with a slight head banger I remembered ....................I DRUNK TEXTED LEE AAARRRRGGGGGHHHHHHH I texted Tiffany ASAP she calls me back and I tell her what I did word by word she once again tells me that when I'm drinking I can hold on to my own keys but need to hand over my cell to a friend (OLOLOLOLOL) and when I am with her I plan to do just that I get myself in so much cell phone trouble .........So she tells me what to do and I send him a text "Good Morning, Sorry if my words made you feel uncomfortable I had too much to drink". BAM and I sent that...........a teeny bit later he sent me a text that said "Good Morning. No why wld I be uncomfortable". I didn't reply but I felt relieved that he wasn't uncomfortable with what I said ....I felt good all that day!
I wasn't having luck reaching and talking to Shay ...yeah her azz still wasn't home (SMH) and I had no idea where she was ......she said she talked to Tony and he confirmed he did talk to her I didn't ask him any questions I just thought okay she should be home sometime today.
Tony had a party to do for Duke he is off house arrest (smile) He had Lil Troy and Mo with him I took Necole to modeling practice she wanted to ride with me out Morgan to give James some money, BC powder and his Cat Walk DVD's so I was waiting for her to get done before I left.
Tiffany ended up picking her up for me and I met them at the Giant near her home since I had to stop past the party first to drop off some lights Tony forgot to bring with him.
I had been craving Fried Chicken wings from KFC all day so after I got Necole we went to KFC before heading out to Morgan.
Before we reached Anarundel mall I reached James who said he was going to the club and dinner with some friends and he thought Tony told him that he was coming to bring him the money tomorow since he didn't want me driving out there at night ...............but how come when I told his drunk azz I was going out there he didn't say anything then I said "Well have fun we're not that close I'll just see you tomorrow". He felt bad and sent me a text that said "Mom still come".
me "No boy it's okay enjoy yourself". (smile)
When we got home we stopped at the 7 Eleven before going in. I texted Shay to see when she was coming home and she text back "Da gurl mufa is go n 2 brng mi hm after she get her hair done if it not 2 la8 I told dad & he said 2 keep my fone on".
me "Okay".
Necole and I watched Mommy Dearest which she liked oh yeah while we were at boutique the next day she kept picking up clothes and saying "Hey mom is this something Joan Crawford would wear"? she was pressed..... anyway when the movie went off we went to bed I wasn't sleep since Tony still had Mo out with him ...................they come in around 1am and he asks me "Where is Shay"?
me "She said she talked to you and told you the girls mother would bring her home after she got her hair done if it wasn't to late".
him "Baby Shay never talked to me I never talked to her today". Now I'm looking just a tad bewildered because I could have sworn he said he spoke with her earlier.......so I take a deep breath and say "Tony I thought you spoke with her earlier today I am so confused".
him "Oh I did talk to her earlier but she never mentioned nothing about getting hair done I don't know where Shay is at". I am pissed and so sick of even talking to his ass that I just remember grabbing my phone and getting on FB.
He got in my bed and next thing I was sleep.
Sunday
I was up pretty early..Tony wanted to try and get some but ...yeah no dice I am even getting sick of letting him try I said "Maybe your just not attracted to me anymore ...........I AM IN NEED OF A RELEASE I SWEAR I have been using the bullet every flipping night I need some dyck real talk I never knew how women could be on dyck but since Lee .....dayum yeah I am on it and I want his.
I was in the bathroom when he left right out the house without so much as a goodbye ......about 20 so minutes I call him and say "Hey, make sure they fry my hash Browns hard".
him "Uh girl aint nobody at IHOP I'm on my way to Morgan".
me "UH!!!!!?????????".
him "Yeah Talk a lot and I half way to Morgan".
me "Dayum Necole and I wanted to go see James too dayum Tony that's why we didn't go yesterday because you said we we're going today". I was pissed, Necole was pissed and when I called to tell James he was pissed. *rolling eyes*
I don't think I heard anything from Lee Sunday ...hold up let me think .....yes, he hit me up Sunday with "Did you hit the Maxwell show"? I replied with a few details about the show and how much fun I had ........about a hour or so later he hit me with "Cool".
me "So how is the fantasy football thing coming along"? he has yet to reply to that text smh!!!!!!!!!! *ROLLING MY EYES*
I texted Shay and got an address to where she was at but when I got to that complex there was no appt 1013 I kept driving around I called her and she kept telling me to go this way .....go that way ....finally on my way back to the front of the small azz complex she is standing there near the bus stop..............mmm hemm I was pissed I stole her in the shoulder as soon as she got in the car the chick thinks she slick I told her to give me her cell phone .....all that didn't even add up ......I wanted to tell Lee about it to get his take on it but I didn't wanna text him with stuff like that .......even though we used to talk about that type of shyt all the time ...........~~anyway~~
I stop to get us all McDonald's breakfast all of us...
After we eat Tony comes home with Talk a lot (his guy friend TT) whom he says is going to the tail gate event with him ...he gets Mo and Lil Troy ready with their Redskins t-shirts on and they leave ..........whole time they end up over Joan's sisters house ..........taligate uh? yeah okay Mo called me talking about where they were and she was on the computer (smirk)
I took Necole to cheer practice and then stopped brought me some shrimp to steam and a salad from the salad bar at Shopper's
went home and cooked while Shay was in her room.
While my food was steaming I cleaned the bedroom it looks and smells so good I was in heaven.
I decided to check in Shay's cell phone to see what really went on this weekend but when I went to turn on the phone it was showing there was NO FLIPPING SIM CARD in it...................I was livid OMG! again she was trying to pull a fast one
I go in her room and say "Why did you take the sim card out of the phone"?
her "uh? sim card".
me "Shay why when I turned on your phone it said no sim card was in it"? she looking all stupid in the face and says "I took it out".
me "If you don't have it in my room when I get back that's your azz". I lock my room door (I have a chain lock she can put it on the floor or toss it on my bed) I leave out to pick up Necole from cheer practice ...................we get back and eat and then Tony calls me asking me to bring him a black table up to the apartments near Pumpkin's house.
Necole wants to ride we stop at the store to get some pads she came on (wink) and then head out Pumpkins Tony is DJing it was already close to 8pm so I take Mo home with me she does have school the next day.
When we get home I start washing clothes, Necole starts doing Mo's hair and we watch Extreme home make over and Desperate housewives ......everyone goes to bed after that...............
When I wake up Tony is still not home I text him and call and get no answer. Around 4am I am up again looking out the window he still is not home I get on FB for a while and around 5am I go back to sleep ....mind you I have to be up at 6am he still up to the same tricks ...........when I was up at 6:30am his truck was out front and he was sleep downstairs.
Monday, Monday, Monday it was a wild, wild Monday
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I was e-mailing with this dude Chad from CL last night during OT but just for a little while he was getting ready to go to sleep he works nights.
This morning I had a e-mail back from Kandi ...this 22 year old chick who said she was looking for convo during her work day ......now her and I have been e-mailing all morning She lives in Laurel and is Bi .....she is a cute girl but looks even younger then 22 ....she called me fierce and said me being 40 (yeah I tell every one I am 40) doesn't bother her. We might be meeting up at My Place on Monday
It was Tausha Birthday yesterday 10/01 I called her first thing in the morning she said she was going to work and school.
Tony isn't up to much the other night he was looking all over the house because he thought we hid his can of beer and I mean you guys he wasn't talking to us he was just a looking. I found the missing beer on the shelf/banister going down the stairs to the back door (lolol) when I told him what I found he confessed to that being what he was looking for but he didn't want us to know because he is suppose to be quitting (lol) the girls and I got a kick out of that.
We go to the Maxwell show tonight and I am so excited to be seeing and hearing Maxwell (smile) Chrisete Michelle too butta I wish Lee was going he loves both of them as well .
Tony is not even excited wellllll he said he is excited for me. (smile)
I was on FB last night chatting it up with my cousin Terah until 1 something this morning ...I can't wait to see her for Thanksgiving I think I am going to have a ball this trip .....let's pray that like the 3 hour trip went without flaw so does the 6 hour trip to Ohio as well I have not driven that far before. Terah said she was gonna hook up with my Ex Tyrone so we could all hang together (smile)
Tausha and her friends all went out to Outback to celebrate her birthday she said she told them to make sure they invited me but of course I didn't get anything cause I would have went that's cool....she said "When you didn't show up I just figured you couldn't make it" ..................I don't believe a thing she said but glad she had a nice birthday regardless.
Tony is still drinking, not calling when he stays out all night and yes, he is still staying out all night SMH! The sex is horrible he can never get it up I am beginning to think it's me he just doesn't like sex with me anymore and I wish he would just STOP trying.
Okay I don't even feel like changing this subject but this weekend was wild so I'm gonna start another post
be on the look out.
*Maxwell show
*Damsel in distress
*The bull
*Sneaky Me
just something to look forward too reading ....maybe we will see......it is a distraction for me today ......I still have the urge to text him but I won't until Monday ......you know... see how his Birthday weekend went (wink) .........man I know this is against the rule .....naw fugg it what rules .........if ...when he text me again I'm gonna text back "Call me I miss your voice". how does that sound??? should I or shouldn't I??
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