That blog title even seems weird ....but it is what it is
Yesterday
We didn't do much on the phone talking...he called around 11 something we rapped for a little while and then got off the phone.
We did send texts back and forth for a while and then that even stopped. He did hit me when he was leaving out the movies and then called me when they got to the crib......he was trying to leave the kids downstairs so he could talk to me but his daughter kept coming up to the kitchen just sitting in the chair watching him cook. He was making spaghetti and talking with me at the same time....his son is sick he has a slight fever, throwing up, chills , and cough. He was giving him some Motrin I was telling him what he should do and he was like he got it and knows what to do but that he was still listening to me so....he doesn't have a thermometer .....so I kept saying he needed to get one and he was like "See that's why I shouldn't have told you because you worry to much". ....dayum that nucca knows that already.....it's crazy...
We got on the topic about garters and he said "You should wear one".
me "Oh I do I have a few".
him "How did I know that you look the type"........then he says to me "I think my daughter heard me talking to you about garter belts....I know she gonna tell my wife ...I already told her about you so it doesn't matter".
me "Oh yeah".
him "Yeah I mean she knows but I didn't tell her about the sex".........
I worked late last night (Wednesday) which meant no kick ball for me
I met my cousins daughter Monique ...yesterday...on Twitter....she said you look just like my mother. She is so right I even think we do and that's a first I always thought we looked just a like ......Monica is flyy ....
I talked a little with the Golden Girls but with the rest of the DCL family......
Lee and I spoke on the phone for a while wasn't talking about much I'm trying to push back from his ass ....just a little ......I mean I'll try to explain it ...to you guys when I figure it out myself......
******HOT OFF DA PRESS******
It's gonna be his son Tyeheers birthday on the 25th and he is having a party his wife is coming down and was like "You have any female friends you want to introduce me too and his ass told me he told her "No it's not even like that". ..........I felt like BAM POW a punch in the fugging face ......but it's cool...yeah it's cool. What I just typed just happened I am on the phone with him right now as I type this so decided to put that info out there.
Okay so once I figure it out I'll let you guys know ...I'm sorta leaning towards the money, no job having, and he won't BREAK for nothing when it comes to me it's like he is holding his feeling towards me so bottled up that he ...he....I feel like he wants to ....I don't know keep it as just bedroom buddies.... there I said it....I get the feeling he just wants to be fugg partners .....I can't remember what we discussed yesterday but I do remember him saying this clearly and then repeating it...."I let you get a way with more stuff because your puzzie is good".
me "Oh so it has nothing to do with my wonderful sense of humor and great personality"?
him "No, I mean yeah you have a hell of a personality too but that puzzie is OMG!!! so good". (he sang the so good part like electrick red)
me "Okay so that's what it is". I changed the subject
I worked OT and was surprised when my Mommy called me to tell me that Aunt Lori saw James face book page and he was talking about his boyfriend so she called Aunt Joanie told her who in turn called my mommy who in turn called me "Toni Aunt Lori said James is gay did you know that"?
me "Yes".
her "So you knew this..aaarrrggghhh....so you and Tony are just okay with it".
me "I mean mommy what can you do he is a grown man you can't live peoples life for them".......She brought up was that the reason HE stopped going to church....I had to tell her WE stopped going a family he knows the bible and what it says about homosexuality......I mean she was sounding all upset and she was getting on my nerves.....I just didn't want anyone calling him and trying to talk down to him and make him feel bad I mean the family ain't never called or came for visits or nne of that shyt so DON'T START NOW!!!!!!
The first person I go to call is Lee I can't believe this we talk for a little he gets my head right and then he has to leave out.
Tausha had called me so when I hit her back she is crying ...over Frank no doubt so I agree to meet up with her and we just chill together while I talk with my Aunt Joanie and Nickee about James. Man when I tell james what is going down he is like ....he thinks it's funny and says that he learned a long time ago that who really matters is his family Tony, Me, Necole, Shay and Mo. (smile)
I went home after that and got in the bed a bytch is beat working 12 hour days 3 days a week is not a game I tell ya......I missed 2 calls from Lee and 3 text messages one he was talking about "I was at my brothers house please don't be mad at me for not calling you back" (smile)
We talked on the phone a lot today and then Troy came over .....Lee and I talked about sex and he is still saying how good that last time was and how I should be taking that as a compliment because he was so turned on and stuff. He said he loved me again but also tossed in there but I'm not in love with you he said "I know you love me too or you on the verge of lovin me come on Toni if we didn't love each other we wouldn't be as tight with each other as we are". I wouldn't answer he got pissed and said "Never mind". I got his ass laughing about something and the subject was changed.
I could hear Troy's voice in the back ground and was wondering if all this talk for his benefit I quickly started thinking about other things like say........getting it in with Lee and my puzzie got wet just like it is now I want him sooooo bad. I think his daughter will be staying with her aunt soooooo maybe tonight I can get it in dayum ......
no time to edit sorry peeps
YEAH LEFT YOU GUYS WITH A CLIFF HANGER .....SORTA UH????
Troy says "What maybe I shouldn't have said that". I get my bearings together and walk back over to him "Naw, your good".
him "So what's that for".....Lee is walking over to us I'm looking like OOPS and his buddy his looking like OH SHYT...Lee looks at both of us and says "Yeah, It is what it is it's all over your faces man she is a big flirt that all it is".
me "Whatever".
him "Toni stop faking you know you are and this is a dirty dyck nucca".
Troy "Man it's like that I'm about to disown you". I step off to go warm up Lee steps off and Troy yells at me "So how I'm a call you"?
me "your not".
him "Sice you got her number"? then looking at me he says "That's my cousin".
Sice "Man I'll give it to you".
me "don't you even dare give that boy my number".
Oh yeah Lee didn't even watch me play .....ass hole but anyway I was glad because I would have been nervous I'm sure. (blush)
We played the game and loss 1-0 ...I tell you guys the defense is off the chain but offense we just can't score ....we can get on base just can't score ....SMH! I don't know what to do as far as that goes ....I mean we have to have our speed up and better kicks basically that's it.
Now during the warm up I started getting a headache ....we played on the field right next to the tent the food was being cooked in and it was like they were frying the chicken and fish in the same grease then the grease started burning and my migraine was getting like HELLO!!!!!!!!!!! I started feeling real nauseous and thought I was going to toss my cookies .....so after the game I walked far from the field and gagged swallowing it back Tiffany came over to me and I saw Don dada on her way ...Sice was looking and I was like whoa let me get it together. Sice was like "Your to old to be having a baby". As were walking back Lee comes over hears sice and says "let me find out".
I say "Stop playing ain't nobody pregnant I got a migraine". we're all hanging around Lee and me keep brushing our arms against each other and standing next to each other right?? so it's Sice, me, Lee and some other due standing across from me and we're all talking when Bonus walks up to the circle and sticks his hand out to me face down I put my hand out and he hands me his number Lee says "I'm a step off I don't want to see that". Like a dummy I step off with him ....as Tausha said I was chasing after him while Tony was there SMH!!!!!!!! Lee "Man go head Toni do you".
me "You know this number means nothing to me".
him "Well I know something had to be exchanged for him to give you his number but it's cool I stepped off because I don't want to see that right in front of my face, I do me but you'll never see it". That dayum Bonus I had no idea he was gonna do something like that but then again no one knows about Lee and I so why NOT step to me like that.......I was blown I went back to the tent to tell Tony I was going to the van to get some medicine Tylenol #3. On my way to the car Troy was still trying to holla he said something about me and I said "No, I'm not even gonna say nothing".
him "You betta not you can't handle this ".
me "Whatever nucca square up then chump". He sets his cup down and we about to slap box when he looking over my shoulder like I'm supposed to look back to see who he looking at so he can sneak one in but your girl is too sharp for that and he finally starts laughing and says "I see you not falling for that one".
me "Boy, I'm a Cali girl I don't slip".
him "Well I wanna be there to catch you if you do".
me "I already got someone to catch me". (wink) He smirks and I step off. I tell everyone I'm about to roll out because I am sick .....really .....
James has to drive
Lee sending me texts asking me where I'm at ..........man when I got home I hit the bed and was out for the count ............woke up around 7:30pm and had 3 text from Lee "Wasup u str8"?, "Did u leave"? "I need to talk to you". and 2 missed calls from him I knew he was gonna be pissed.
When I hit him back he was like "Why you ain't answer the phone". we went back and forth for a minute and then he said he was getting ready to leave the park and would hit me back. He hit me back before he made it home but the service was shotty and we kept getting cut off but yet n still he was calling back (smile) finally I said hit me when you get home.
When he hit me back he was talking about his wife and how she was working his nerve about the bump beds, his daughter and her father beefing, his brother not giving him props on how well he played the game as a matter of fact no one on his team gave him his props, THEN ...He goes on to tell me what him and his man were saying about me his man Troy was like ....."So what's up wit your girl"
Lee "Man, I showed you her when you got there I said that's my folks right there".
Troy"Oh man I don't remember".
Lee "I bet you don't".
Troy "So what's you with her she was all smiling at me an shyt".
Lee "Man, I told you she gonna flirt cause that's how she do and she gonna test those pockets".
him "Oh you know I ain't got that paper".
Lee "Well you won't get far".
Troy "I bet I can fugg her".
Lee "Go head man try your hand I don't think you can tho".
Troy "Well how long it take you to fugg her".
Lee "Man, It took me a month but you not me remember go a head try your hand". Then Lee said to me later on he came to me and was like "She wouldn't give me the number".
Lee " Really". Lee was like "Man Toni if you would have gave him the number he would have fugged no matter if he my man or not that's why I called him a dirty dyck nucca". Now I was thinking oh he would have fugged uh? But I just listened and thought he still thinks I'm easy 
I'm nothing but a cheater to him not being able to hold it any longer I said just that to him and he was like "Toni you always take it another step I wasn't saying it like that"......Anyway I can't remember what was said after that because we got off the phone...not even sure why we got off the phone but we did.......
he called back and we talked a little about Michael Jackson Lee is a fan and still can't believe he is dead so he calls back and the first thing he says is "Toni, Mikes gone". .......we talk for a while then Maxwell comes on BET (the awards) now Lee doesn't like BET or watch anything on BET...keep that in mind
ANYWAY
He says "I'm a let you enjoy your boy hit me when he goes off". I hit him back and we rap for a little he talks about how he wants to fugg and yada, yada, yada then he says "I'm about to go to sleep and hit you back".
me "Okay cool". ..................
now why in the hell when he hits me back it's maybe 30min or less and he is wide awoke talking about how he caught the end of the awards and wasn't this and how did I like that and then he said "Yeah cause I was just talking to somebody and they said XYZ" about 5min after that statement he said "Yeah my folks sista was just saying how she hasn't been able to talk to any one in 2 days after hearing about Mike". We talk some more and then got off the phone for the rest of the night. He gave me the wake up call and then ..................
Monday
Was a ......a.....let's see didn't hear from the Golden Girls like I thought I would I mean it was the work day after Sherellie's 40th B-Day so I thought we would have been chatting it up, I didn't get on Twitter, I blogged and missed Lee ..........yeah I missed him but just the thoughts of the shyt we do and talk about kept and keeps a smile on my face so I was content with it.
He called me around 11 something and was chilling with the boys on his way to his brother's house, He sent me a 
around 2 something and then again around 4 something he called me to say he was still chilling and see what I was up too both times I rush him off the phone because I could feel he was going to get off anyway and I would rather me end the convo first. (SMH so JR high)
This nucca I met on MySpace has been texting me like crazy and yesterday it was non stop I kept thinking it was going to be Lee and it was MySpace Corey .....He wants us to hook up so bad talking about a party at the X4B on Saturday ....Just might hit it but we'll see.
I left work at 8pm I sent Lee a and he replied with "Still out with my man what you doing"?
me "Chillin with my girl".
When I got home Tony called me with people in the back ground sounded like he was tipsy too. He says "The store just got robbed I gotta go back to the job".
me "Is everyone okay"?
him "Yeah they hit Jose over the head and laid the other manager down I have to go back to the store".
me "Where you at what's all those people talking?? never mind".
him "I'm over Joan's peoples house someone got set out around here it's Joan's brother's birthday". Or some shyt he was saying that shyt just wasn't sounding right so I left it the hell alone and told him to hit me later.
Tausha and I had plans for Sideline and she was picking me up I decided I wouldn't tell Lee he would have to contact me to see what my 20 was ....so Tausha scoops me a little after 10pm she looking cute too....got her hair braided in tiny senegales with a reddish aubrun color she had on Tan capri's a dark brown lace top and matching heels that had orange, tan and dark Brown flowers on them she brought the Orange out with her orange eyeshadow and a hit of it on her lips ....Lee was right she do be doing it when we go out....like he says she puts a effort in it....He said she be like "Shyt Toni you aint gonna be the only one mackin tonight" He said every time he has seen her she looks nice.
I had on a Tan and Gray mini dress that was hugging my body in all the right places, a brown clutch and gray high heel sandles I even put on eyeshadow for the smokey eye look ....LETS GO!!!!
I called Tony like 5 times to check on him and make sure everything was okay.......couldn't reach him but oh well I tried.
half way there Lee send me a text "Still chillin what you doing"?
me "Heading out ".
Lee "Where you going tonight"?
me "Sideline".
him "Ok".
When we get there we notice it's not that many cars out there but we go in anyway and we were right there wasn't many people inside but as we're standing around looking for ....anyone we may know the guy turns around in front of me and it's non other then SKIP....looking good as always he looks me up and down, hugs me and says "Is that dress for me". I laugh at him and then he hits wink who smiles and gives me the head nod I say "Hey Wink". Skip said it's his cousins Birthday who is the same dude who pitched for us during a scrimmage ....he is from UI ALLSTARS I think his name is Marc I hug him and tell him Happy Birthday. Then we head over to the bar. Tausha spots Champ outside and we head to the patio. Where we stay for the remainder of the night eating, drinking and talking shyt with the dudes at the table behind us.....we had a nice time.
I sent Lee a and he didn't respond..........
Some dude from Run/DMV tried to holla at me...I wasn't feeding into that ...no more Kick ball dude it's getting way to hot out that joint ....dude said he would find me ...we'll see ....
I do plan to hit Bonus up for some convo tho I keep forgetting his number in my van SMH I'll hit him up tomorrow can't wait to see what's up with that first sex convo and that's a wrap.
ANYWAY
We left a little after closing and still no text from Lee I tell Tausha and she say's "Bitch you drive lets hit it we doing a Lee house drive by".
It wasn't until I was headed his way I thought.......HOLD UP I DON"T WANT HER KNOWING WHERE HE LIVES!!!!!!!!!!!!! so I planned to hit a fake street ....I sent him a text "You still out"? he calls me right back "Hey I'm at the house with a bunch of kids I got my daughter, their cousins, my folks sister kids it was everyone want to come to Lee's house tonight and hang up under me". I can hear a bunch of kids in the back ground too. I bust a U turn heading back to my crib.....I say "It's all good".
him "Yeah I'm not mad about it so you left the sideline ...done with your flirting ".
me "yeah you know how I do".
him "So what you about to do now"? he was sounding like...like....maybe he wanted to see me....but I don't know how with a house full of kids but since he didn't say anything I didn't either.
me "Go home".
him "and do what"?
me "Get in my bed".
him "Sounds good ....so call me when you get in the house".
me "Okay"...........the rest of the drive home I could think of nothing else but talking with Lee until I fell asleep....but this is not what happened........I sent him a text that said I was home ...maybe it was over the top I said "I'm home call me when you can Daddy Daycare Lee I am so in like with you even as mushy as that may sound I say to hell with mushy say what you really feel when you feel it". ..............and NOTHING NO RESPONSE....
Tony was yelling for me to come downstairs and when I went down there he was like "Where your pants"?
me "I didn't have any on I wore it like this".
him "You better have on panties under there pull up your dress...come here".
me "No". now of course I had on panties but I didn't like how he was talking to me ....Tausha calls me to say I left my ID in her purse and to come outside and get it....I go outside and when I come back Tony says "Go back up stairs get out my face I don't want to talk to you now I told you to do something and you didn't do it so get out my face". All he had to do was tell me one time and I went upstairs, locked the door and got in the bed eating my sunflower seeds wishing Lee would call me...................
Lee didn't even call me this morning with the wake up call. I didn't hear from him until 11 something and then we talked for like 20min his daughter was all in his ear saying this in that and I was like DAYUM!!!!!!!!!!!! so far today we have just been sending texts messages back and forth ..........I tell you guys school can't get back to soon for me that's for sure. I sent him a text that said I wanted to fugg and he said he did too man I wanna get it in tonight and I think off the late night I'm a tell .......yeah tell not ask ....tell him to meet me outside so we can get in his ride and get it on I want it bad with a capital B.
Skip sent me a text just now that said "You killed em in that dress last nite". (smile)
People in general are so funny to me lately
listen
some fat people talk about other fat people like they not fat they dayum self.....
some people judge others before getting to know someone..........
some people claim to be honest but then lie about their true feeling everyday........
some people love to ride off others shine ...not even trying to get their own........
some people are so afraid of change even when the change is happening to someone else.....
some people can't come up with an idea of there own .....even if you paid them....
some people become more known or famous after they die..........
Some people can't wait to see me fail...........
some people want to have a man either like Tony or they want Tony (LOL) ...........
some people smile in my face but can't stand me behind my back..............
some people wanna steal my joy ...they can't understand it .....
some people never will....
some people will never experience love .....real...love...
some people will die ...having lived their whole life as a lie...........
I shake my head at those some people
TONI~
R.I.P MICHAEL JACKSON !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I know I told you guys Lee burned me copy of the Maxwell CD BLACK summernites ....I listened to it alllll day yesterday and I mean allllll day ...the CD is mean with it ....the be
ats,lyrics and not to even mention his voice ...oh my and the notes he hits ....WOW! .......this CD is mellow....it's real nice .....I love Maxwell always have and always will (cheezin) ....He is going to be at the Brogata in Atlantic City 07/24/09 ....SOLD OUT....he will be in Norfolk on 07/30/09 and Flordia on 07/31/09 .....a sistah money funny but what's knew in that area uh?......but this time I only have $292 left out of my check after every thing came out.....I think my cell phone is due soon .....I want to order the G1 (cell) but I owe a balance which I planned on paying today but THAT won't happen I still have to give James $225 to hold his rooming at Morgan State that shyt is crazy .....I have paid off another loan tho .......so I should be good ...or lets say a little better next pay since I will only have one loan left to pay off (thank you Jesus)Lee said Maxwell already came here in November and won't be back I hope he is wrong and he comes back ...lets say August sometime I really wanna hear him....Lee went when he came ...that's when he heard Pretty Wings for the first time....I told him how Tony be calling me and playing that song in my ear and he was like "Does he listen to the words of that song because it is talking about letting go"......It's cute how when I mention something Tony says about getting things back right with me Lee now has a slick smart comment ....example I was like "Tony was trying to get in bed with me last night".
him "Why was he trying to get in bed with you for ..naw nucca stay downstairs shyt ......naw I'm just playing that's your boo".
me "Go head with that I don't have boo's".
Him "My bad that's you baby your grown man baby". LOLOLOL I think this is an example of what CC meant when she called me yesterday to tell me that she likes Lee and thinks he is a nice guy ......I told her I was talking to my Lee baby and she said "Gag, Gag, I feel sick ...I have a headache". (LLS) when I told Lee this he was cracking up because that is the same shyt we be doing to each other so we were cracking up at her doing that shyt too. Anyway she said she thinks Lee really likes me and pulls back when he see's himself liking me ...too much because he has to protect himself ....in case I wake up one morning and say "I WANT MY HUSBAND BACK". *rolling eyes* I told her I wasn't sure he liked me all like that because of some of the things he says but she said he says those other off the wall things to protect himself basically (smile) After he said that about Tony sleeping with me I thought to myself ....yeah he likes a sistah.
Okay so anyway while I was on the phone with Lee that night he was like "Get your bullet".
me "Uh what you want me to get my bullet ...shyt you gonna say my name"?
him "Yeah, now stop asking questions and just get it". I did just that OMG!!!! he even wanted to hear the sound of the bullet when I cut it on.......SMH! he was saying my name....I was moaning....he was telling me what to do with the bullet and ....OMG!!! yeah we were having phone sex and it was good I really got mine and was into it.....Lee was talking about how hard he was but he would wait for the real thing and just loves to hear me cum. (smile) I was at work cheesing so hard I couldn't stop thinking about that phone sex and ....yeah .....when I think about it now I still smile.....that man is doing things to me sexually I haven't felt with a man before ....I...I have no words NONE ....
Friday
Tony called to see if I wanted anything from Horse and Dickies. I didn't want anything and when I mentioned it to Tiffany she was like call him back I'll buy you a fish sandwich.....so I called him back it was kinda good thing I did because I ended up having to leave early to take James to the ER his temp was 103.4 ......I tell you guys this was driving me crazy.....So my supervisor let me go a head and leave early ...........this messes up my OT but I was like okay what can I do. When we got there they didn't even need me they needed HIS ID, HIS signature, He went in the back triage by himself, The nurses and doctor spoke directly to him, I was just...just there he is no longer a minor....my son is a grown man (SMH)
It rained hard while we were there ....they ran blood work, CXR, gave him his first IV and Tramadol for the back pain he was having, his urine was normal as well. We left out of there at 9pm or a little before I was like dang whole Friday night gone. Wanted to go see Hangover with Tony for movie night but that didn't happen I went and got in my bed and went to sleep.
Saturday
I was up early for practice...I knew I had a bunch of running around to do that day. After practice I checked my phone and had 2 missed calls from Tausha and a text from her that said "I can't take this anymore". I knew she was referring to Frank *rolling eyes* now Tausha has had issues ...the kind like when she sends out a SOS someone better be with her before things end up pretty bad lets say...... hospital ......I go to her house right from practice since when I called she didn't answer. She was doing okay but told me she went to his house and he told her to leave said he didn't want to have anything to do with her. She threaten to have him put back in jail...for hustling....when she said that I got pissed "What the fugg Tausha you the dayum feds?? because a nucca don't wanna fugg with you anymore you gonna turn states on his ass that's some petty shyt don't fugg with a nucca lively hood off no bull shyt". Man I was like ....from now on I keep all and I mean all info from her ass real talk ....of course no one knows about....and never will but any other nucca I fugg with in the game she will never ever know .....cause I never know if she may carry shyt the same....wild I know. I told her I would stay with her until she left for work......out of sympathy I invited her to go to Sherellie's Birthday party with me and she was game.....
I got home and took a nap.
Tausha came back because the power was out on one whole side of the mall and JcPenny's was closed so she took Shay to her house with her to do her hair.
Mo kept waking me up ready to go to Po's Birthday party which started at 3pm
I spoke with Lee who while telling me how nice it was out I decided I wanted to wear a sundress but didn't have one so I said "I'm gonna hit the mall and get a sun dress for today I really wanna get one".
him "Well go get one even though I don't think you need one".
me "I wish I had the money for one anyway I really can't afford it".
him "mmm hmm I see what you getting at".
me " WHAT you talking about"?
him "You know I don't have a job man I hate when you talking about you don't have any money".
me "What's that gotta do with the price of peanuts"? Now I know he doesn't like it because he wants to kick that chedda to a sistah but ain't got it .....at least he know tho so I hit him with this "Man I keep telling you I ain't tripping off your cash".
him "Yeah, I know cause you can get another nucca to do it"....BINGO (smile) But I say "Boy nobody tripping off that. Now this is gonna seem un fugging believable but Tony calls in on my other line. I click over and he says "Hey Toni do you have a sun dress I wanna see you in one today".
me "What boy I was just thinking that I was gonna hit the mall and get one".
him "You got some money"?
me "Nope". Now I did have some money but why spend mine right ...OMG! you guys this shyt seems so weird ....but I tell you it's the truth....Tony says "Go a head and get one and I'll pay you back I wanna see you in one TODAY". I say okay we get off the phone and I click back over Tell Lee I'll hit him later when I get back from the mall.
While I'm out shopping this nucca Lee calls me and says "You find a dress yet"?
me "Nope it's a bunch of long ass dresses and I want short, flirty and light weight".
him "oh yeah well look I got half on it okay"............OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!! this can't be happening it just can't be.
me " Naw, that's okay I got it".
him "Toni just bring your ass over in the sun dress and get this money don't be getting know $200 dress".
me "Yeah, Okay". I'm tripping inside and feeling like dayum .....I like this .....I feel good ...yeah... I find 2 dresses I like $35.00 total (Marshall's) I get my plan together......now I can't tell Tony I got 2 dresses or Lee but for 2 different reasons ..
1.I never want to be too deep in Tony's pockets since he does pay the bills soooooo I tell him the dress was $45.00
2. Lee I don't want him to think I'm a cheap chick (lol no pun intended cheap chick) so I tell him the dress was $92.00 he gave me $50 (wink)
I spent $35 and came off with $60 (smile) Oh hell yeah when it comes to a nucca and his pockets my math skills sharpen quick (wink)
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Now when I get back home and get dressed I'm looking ...like dayum real flyy ...I go see Lee first since Tony is over Pumpkin's house getting ready for the party (he's DJing)
Lee comes out side and I get out and walk up his drive way to meet him he's checking me out smiling and hugs me he hits my ass and says "That thing is bouncy too so that's the little sundress uh"?
me "Yeah thanks".
him "No problem so what you about to do now"? I give him the run down we hug and kiss I get my money and I leave.....noticed he never said how he thought I looked and I didn't get in my feelings ..that's how he is but I know I was looking the bomb. He sends me a text "I have your smell all over me and it smells so good...you looked real pretty too".
I reply "Thanks".....See just him doing that made me feel good inside....
When I got back to the house Tony was getting in his truck he got out when he saw me and was like "Dayum you look fine". he grabbed my hand and twirled me around (smile)
two different reactions uh?
I went inside and everyone was ready James was staying home and SHAY had her hair cut ...Tausha done cut my baby's hair I know it was broke off but she looks so much older then 14 shyt she already looks older then her age with that body like WHOA. She looks cute tho and she loves it....she did need it tho.
We hit up Target so I could get her a couple shirts and a card I put $20 in that as well.
Then went to the party it was nice I mean I would have done it somewhere else ...the back yard smelled like dog shyt due to the rocs but yeah....this man sent his daughter up to Taylor to say "My daddy said your cute what's you number". I went to dude and said "Dude I will fugg you up she is 14 years old got it ". He was like "My bad shorty". (SMH) hence the reason I didn't want the hair cut at all but what's done is done.
We left the party around 8 something so I could get ready to head to Sherellies party which started at 6pm. Now Tausha was just getting her toes done I tell you every time I'm going some where and invite her she has to take Allllll dayum day getting ready.
I get home and lay across the bed watching Meet the Robinsons with Mo......still waiting for her. Tony gets home and is like "I thought you would have been gone, I'm gonna go with you". Tausha is ready around 10pm we pick her up, hit the liquor store to get her some Merlot (Alice White) and then we're off I gave her a card with $20 in it.
Her party is packed ...we had a good time I took a puff of the green and then got all stupid acting and called Lee to tell him he was like dayum shorty then Dianna wanted to talk to him and they rapped for a sec. ...not sure what they talked about ....he might not have been saying anything that's just the way he is.
Sherellies sister Lovey was looking nice I spoke to her she couldn't tell who I was and when I said "It's Toni". She was like "Toni, man I used to have a crush on you".
me "I had one on you too". Now if I was into women I would have gave her some play but Lee and his ....um yeah that's what's up right now.
We did rap for a minute but I was ready to take my high, drunk, talking ass home.
Tausha was chill until she got to crying off the Frank shyt .....Yeah it was a nice party.
Lee was with his home boy all night. His boy Troy (best friend) who was supposed to go to Iraq but didn't go and to think I was thinking Lee was lying to me when he kept having to do stuff with Troy because he was leaving and then BAM he had to do something else with Troy because he was coming back. It was all true Lee didn't Lie to me!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Troy spent the night at his house (Lee's) that night ...I know because Lee called me Sunday morning talking about "Hey guess what I lost my keys". I'm looking at the time like it's 9am and you calling to tell me that shyt and why is this my problem???????????? but I ask him questions about where they could be and he says his man was looking in his car right then ....I forgot he rode with him the night before ....I tell him I have to get ready to hit the field and I would hit him back.
When I hit him back he has found the keys in between the couch........
Tony goes with me because we have to pick the tents up from Pumpkins house before we head to the park......as always I'm the first one there Tony and I sat up the tent and stuff and while walking from my van Count (Lee's brother) was like "HEY YOU ". all loud I looked around and Lee was like "My brother".
me "Oh hey". Lee shakes his head.....now I'm typing this I wonder if that was a tactic to get me to come over there .....dayum....anyway
Lonnie came next ....now I know I'm the captain but I would like to sleep in too but like Tony said it's your team so you have to do it and he is so right.....Sice got out there next then Don dada her and I sat and watched 3 games. I told her about Lee too......we spoke briefly about Tony and I the week before so it was nothing for me to tell her she told me how she knows herself and she is not green going into the marriage......lol....good she is the first female I have met who is honest with herself. We both said how cute Bonus was and I knew he had been checking me out like two weeks ago ....naw that's a lie the first time he met me at sideline ...um...yeah it was his eyes ...yeah he was ...yeah checking me out. I know he said something to Sice about me and Tony because I heard Sice say "Aw he don't care". something like that......so while Don Dada and I sat in the bleacher as he gave me the wink and head nod I smiled but kept my focus on the game and how well Lee was playing he got the only 2 pioints his team scored he even kicked a home run too I was cheering all loud and Don Dada was like "Someone is showing their favoritism" lololololol
Lee's game ended in a tie ....he was pissed ......Count was arguing with the refs ....After the game we went to get ready to warm up for our game .......I tell Don Dada I got to hit the bathroom ....TR2 who has been hanging up under me since Talk 2 Much was not there said she wanted to go with us.......as were walking towards the bathroom these too dudes walk passed I smile (as usual) and dude says "Hey what's with that smile".?
me "I'm always smiling baby".
him "holla at me when you get back". I keep it moving NOW on the way back dude and his boy are standing at the tent.....I smile and we talk he like "You don't smile that much".
me "Whatever honest I do". He asks my name and I tell him he replies his name is Troy .....we start rapping his boy ask me my sign.....as we rapping about that and kick ball he says he had 2 teams he could have played on but he chose not to play on either one .....Count is walking our way and he puts his arm around both of us ....talking about the refs as he steps off Troy says "So you know him"?
me "Yeah"
him that's my best friends Lee's brother". I step off.............................
THIS IS A VENT
I spoke with Olive yesterday ....you know trying to ...I don't know have conversation and she straight ignored me.....her man is a little friendly towards me ....well yesterday I noticed a difference with him as well....he must have gotten the talk...*rolling my eyes*
SMH! as Lee would say "Let's not waste any energy on that bull shyt she has da issue not you"........that coming to mind .........NEXT!!!!!!!!!!!
I left work at 3pm on the nose and still didn't make it to Lee's house until a little after 4pm ....now this is gonna sound very strange .........I get over there...he's not outside..(not that part just the whole story)....I call him while I'm at the door when he opens the door he's smiling all big he grabs me in a hug and a kiss .....we go to his room and he jumps on me while I'm sitting on his bed ...it's on ..squeezing each other tight....the rhythm is just right..kisses so tender on my neck....hugs so tight...moans and groans....I get one.....and then POW BAM he's getting his ....WTF???!!!??? ....he got his and is he really sliding out ......hold up is he really putting his shorts back on......just WAIT ONE COTTON PICKIN MINUTE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HOUSTON WE HAVE A PROBLEM and this mutha fugger better fix it and quick. Me "WTF was that?, all of 4 minutes and I came once that's not what I came the fugg over here for"!!
him "Ouch that hurt ....Toni you were pulling me in tight saying fugg me fugg me I mean it's been a while I was trying to hold back but then you got started going hard moving, grinding, and I couldn't hold back my bad".
me "Yeah okay I'm used to 3 or more".
him "You funny Toni..dayum".
me "What you should have never started it....I mean I'm just supposed to ..say nothing hell no I got to tell you the deal". He starts looking for his phone and then walks out the room .........I hear some clicking sounds and I'm thinking he can't be texting or calling someone right now can he????? I get my shoes, purse and keys (I only had a dress with no panties under it when I got there) when he came back in the room he looked at me and said "dayum what you got to go home and check on your daughter and get ready for practice"? ....WTF??!!! This nucca is rushing me too ....OH HELL NAW!!!!! I said "No, just have moves to make". .............I said that because I mean I felt like he was rushing me and I didn't want to be hanging around and he be like "um Toni why you sitting here you gotta go". So I was ready to put myself out before he did .....crazy I know I'm just so afraid of getting my feelings hurt ....ANYWAY ....he hands me ..........da da da dummmmmmm........MAXWELL NEW CD BLACK SUMMERNITES he burned it Monday but I tell you guys I had no idea he was gonna hook me up with it without me asking ....I jumped in his arms ...he was cheezin all hard ...we hugged and he shook his head at me .....he walked me to the door and I said "Hey Lee that wasn't even 4 minutes dayum".him "7 1/2".
me "Yeah ooookaaay". I didn't think he was going to call me ...why wouldn't he tho come one Toni he always calls you. Well he did and he laughed because I was already rockin the CD he was like "Man so that's gonna be the back ground music when I call you uh". (cheezin) the CD is the bomb you guys it truly is.
I told him I would be going to see the Transformers later that night he didn't like that idea and I even said "If you didn't say you were taking your sons I would have asked you to go".......
I went home Mo is doing a lot better but her temp did go up last night to 101.7 but temps do that at night. I picked up her antibotic.
I changed into my practice clothes and was off to practice....smile on my face I called Tony before I left to ask him to stop at the theater before coming home and to buy the Transformer tickets for the 9:30pm show.
Darrin called me to see what I was doing ...he wanted to hang out and take me out...how sweet *rolling eyes*
This dude named Warren has been calling me like crazy met him back in the kick ball recruiting phase well I was sending out random "What's up"? text to everyone in my contacts and we started texting back and forth and then he called me a lot of times ....a lot.....I mean so much I started to think he had mental issues .....the series stalker, you not hanging out tonight, girl don't make me smack yo ass type.
Practice was chill .....I really don't care for 2 chicks on the team but that's neither here nor there....The dude soup is sweating me hard ....yeah he is and it's sorta cute but he is not might type...I just play around with him then there is the HC and he ....I don't know I get this vibe from him ....he's definitely a STAY AWAY so I don't even like to be too close to him ...I tell you sometimes...well it's the eyes ....it's the eyes.
Lee called me I had a missed call from him while I was at practice and I called him back twice while I was still out there but no answer. I wanted to ask him if I could come over later after the movies for another go at it. (wink) yeah I gots it bad you guys .....anyway .....Ruby is here so that's that on the ....yeah
Tony is at home getting ready when I get there ....I jump in the shower and get ready to go ....the movie started at 9:30pm when we walked into the theater at 9:15pm it was packed we got a good seat tho (smile)
I nodded off a few times remember I was only off the 2 hours sleep and then didn't get any time to sleep at Lee's house because I felt he was rushing me up out of there.
He sent me a text telling me his team played softball with a softball team. He hit a home run (smile) I told him I was at the movies ....he sent another task a hour 1/2 later asking how the movie was and who I went with.....I responded to all the text except the who? Then he called me I hit ignore....text him back that said "Still in the movies"....I did send him a text when I got home he called me back sounding like he was sleep he said "how was the movie"?
me "Good".
him "Well I was sleep but wanted to hit you back".
me "Okay well hit me tomorrow".
Tony slept in his room.
Thursday
Didn't get my wake up call .....sent a at 10am then he did call like 15min after that he is really upset I went to the movies without him.....then to top it off I told him I went with a male friend since he asked again he then says "Is this guy pitching woo ...shyt forget I asked that we're talking about Toni of course dude pitching woo".
me "Okay and that means what Lee? You should know me a little by now right I mean even a teeny wheeny lil bit right"?
him laughing "Yeah I do".
me" Then you should know that a nucca pitching woo means nothing to me right now I ain't tripping off no nucca right now ...I enjoy your company and I'm not thinking about anyone else right now hey remember I like you (in a voice sounding like I love you just replaced with like) you know that right"?
him "Yeah I knew you were gonna say that ". (he was referring to me saying I like you)
his line beeped and he said "That's my kids I'm a call you back".
He just sent me a (means he's thinking about me)
I can't stop smiling this man at the metro this morning said to the guy handing out the express paper "She has joy it's all over her face". and you guys know what he didn't know just how right he was ....I am so full of happiness, joy, peace ...knowing I'm the first...first of many's for Lee .....2nd place Toni doesn't live here anymore she has left the building.................
Okay I was just on Twitter and expressing my feelings about being the rebound chick for my ....yeah friends....I mean I'm not even going to touch on this subject any more and nor am I inviting them out anymore everyone has they lives to live and I must do the same so hanging up the old and hanging with the new. So sick of invites and being turned down ...that's real talk ....
Some chicks get some dyck and loose they dayum minds but like I have been told by the guys I talk with and the Mr. (What I call Tony on Twitter) some chicks aren't used to the attention, don't have men all over them all the time (smile) and don't have many options therefore when a dude shows them interest ...depending on the female they so pressed and excited they drop everyone and everything to become this mans sex toy or after hour friend .....the signs are there...he only see's her after 10pm or later....never takes her any where or maybe once every so often......she does much of the contacting and shyt ...... and they do nothing for the attention any little bit because who knows when the next guy may come.
That's when hanging with me comes in and I become the rebound chick when he breaks up with her for the trillionth time, when they argue and she has no idea where he is and hasn't gotten a call for a day and she wants to teach him a listen it's call Toni so we can hit the streets ........LOL...... yeah I'm venting and have decided this summer NO MORE ......NO MORE of being the rebound chick to the ....yeah no more. I'll always be a phone call away and ready to ride or die if I must with my road doggs (only 5 of them in the DMV and they know who they are) but as far as trying to get my girls to kick it this summer I'm done ...I'm gonna continue to do me and live my life happy and drama free ((MUAH)) .....well I'll always have a little drama these nucca's ...yeah
I was chill this weekend Friday
Tony and I went tot he movies to see The Proposal it was hilarious we both were cracking up and I mean out loud ....yeah people go see it. Movie night Friday's is so cool I had a nice time this time and stayed awake....(lol)
When we get home we chill with the kids
James went to stay the night at Jasmine's house.
Tony slept in his own room.
Saturday
I was debating on going to practice when Preacher Man called me to see if we were having practice he was coming from VA and said it was raining there.......I went to look outside and true to word it was pouring. I sent out a mass text to inform everyone practice was canceled.
Tony called me to see if I was up and we talked on the phone for a while.
Mo got up while I was on the phone with Lee and I told her to go tell Tony we wanted some breakfast. He went to the store to get the bacon and potatoes we had that and eggs.
While he was at the store Demar came over drunk as shyt. He just came straight to our house from hanging at his friends crib all night watching some chicks swing on a stripper pole. He even told me how him and Angel have been hooking up and she is whipped and yada, yada, yada now Tony had already told me this and told me not to tell so I didn't but since Demar is telling me I can spill the beans........Angel has not said anything to me but he even showed me the text she sent him too ....SMH........bragging nuccas just like females talk too much.
It turned out to be a nice day after all but I wanted to lay in I did take the kids out so we could get some cards for Tony.
He picked up Lil Troy who will be staying with us for the week as well
Tony slept in his
I talked with Lee who was on his way home from his home boys house and upset because of some shyt they said about him .....something about him being a soft ass nucca and some other not to friendly things. I finally told him "I'm gonna make you stop hanging with them in a minute because every time you come home your upset behind something they say".
him drunk of course "YOU CAN'T MAKE ME STOP DOING ANYTHING". on and on he went I took my phone from my ear until he calmed down then I let his ass have it he apologized and then we dicussed other things until I started falling asleep I said "Call me tomorrow".
him "No, you call me it's my day remember"?
me "Yeah, a nucca who doesn't celebrate holiday's right".(lololol)
Sunday
Turned out to be a beautiful day ....I went to the store and made breakfast for Tony Potatoes, bacon (turkey),spinach omelettes .....I ate with him.
I sent out Father's Day text (a mass one) and then sent Lee a personal one (wink) why did his ass text back "Thanks baby ((muah))". and then he called me "Wuz up"?
me "Boy didn't I say I would call you"?
him "I couldn't wait wanted to here your voice now". we rapped on the phone for a while he told be what his plans were for the day then we got off the phone.
I decided I would leave my phone in the room so I could spend the day with Tony. Which I did we got crabs and crab legs later on ....he went next door for their father's Day cookout ...I washed clothes ....then made Spaghetti, Salad and Garlic bread...
Tony and I watched a few movies together until he feel asleep (Benadryl Shellfish allergy) He stayed downstairs he was knocked out.
I saw I had 2 missed calls from Lee I called and we talked on the phone for a little while not talking about much.....except when would be the next time....um...yeah it's been almost two weeks and I am going thru withdrawal ...it is not a game I need to get...um...yeah ASAP....just thinking about how ...when he first...um ...yeah and it's um....yeah....then it gets in and OMG it's like ...man did I just cum already ....WOW ....um ...yeah I gots to get that tonight I'm gonna be on the stroll status tonight....leaving work early .....hitting him up...going to practice then to the movies with Tony as if none of the other shyt happened ....dayum....can we say "PRESSED". followed by "DAYUM RIGHT"......LOL
Monday
Work was work ....let's see talked with Lee the boy's are gone ....their aunt picked them up for I wanna say the week or maybe that's wishful thinking ......hitting it all week ....got dayum ......anyway that is what I thought would happen but the forces had something else in mind.
T has been calling me a whole lot more. It's cool talking with him again he's a cool guy and I hold a place for him in my heart (awww blush)
Okay so anyway the Golden Girls haven't been talking about much I guess Sherellie is getting ready for her 40th B-Day party this Saturday which I completely forgot about thanks Dianna 4 da reminder (wink) I will be there ....wish I could bring Lee ...but then again he wouldn't want to come....he doesn't want to hang with my friends ....I can understand why so I would never push the issue we can make our own friends together.
So back to Monday
I didn't go to kick ball practice I stayed at work getting that OT.
I wanted to go straight to Lee's house after work but I was in a shy mood and didn't want to just say "Hey, Lee I'm coming over". .......I know I have done that before but haven't in a while and was feeling shy ...more afraid of rejection ....I know weird but hey that's how I am.
I ended up chilling we spoke on the phone and I even ...okay this is gonna sound nuts ....but to be honest this man be having me do some nutty shyt. .....okay ....wait...I always give you guys the truth ...why???? anyway ....I drove about 3 minutes from his house ....he called me ....I pretended I was coming home from some where else and then drove home talking to him all the way home. (SMH so fugging weird)
We watched a comedy show together .....laughing and shyt.
Now listen to the BS.....I told you guys I can hear when Lee's other line beeps right?
well he got a call at 1:12am he didn't answer they called back again at 1:15pm and he clicks over ....I don't even hold a full minute I just hang up......now when ever he clicks back over to me or calls me back he tells me who it was on the phone.....so I was like WOW this time around.....about 2 minutes later he calls me back...and begins talking about am I going to be working OT and then hits me with a fake ass yawn and how tired he is.....SMH......what for??? why hit me with the BS??? So you can call ole girl back in the exactly in 15min...I mean he's only a sidekick ....and ATTENTION sidekick now hear this YOUR ONLY THE SIDEKICK.
Tony was gone out but once I was in bed I sent him a text to check on him "You okay"?
him "Yeah I'm home". there he was using the back door closer to his room again. I sent back "Can you come see me"? and when he came in my room I jumped his bones .....his dyck wouldn't get hard and I was instantly no longer horny ....he tried to get me back in the mood but his hands and lips on me felt like ...yuck ...it was weird. We did end up getting it in .....first thing in the morning
Tuesday
Oh not sure if I mentioned it or not but our God Daughters Po and Ariel came over Sunday to spend the whole week with us.
Tony took some money too Tonique Sunday as well
anyway
yesterday Mo woke up sick Necole called me and said Mo's Temp was 103.8 man when I got home it was the same took her to the ER last night it was 104.2 .....viral infection and UTI they gave my baby IV fluids and got home from ER a little before 4am ...yeah I'm working off 2 hours sleep
no time to edit I'm leaving work for the rest of the day in 10 min
Yesterday all day with a break totally 2 hours I was on the phone with Lee........ we talked all dayum day about this n that. I was like "Dayum Lee what we gonna do when you get a job we not gonna be talking on the phone like this".
him "Oh will find a way to get it in through out the day ....we got to get the phone conversation time in".
That man is a trip I tell uh.
I ended up working until 8:30pm and still talking with Lee the whole time (smile)
Then I got home and chilled out Tony made steak em's and French Fries.....I sat in the front room chilling with the kids while eating dinner.
I was so tired I decided to call it a night and went to bed. I ended up getting a text from Lee "What you doing"?
me "In bed looking @ TV what you doing"?
him "The same but was thinking about u too".
me "Oh you were uh what was you thinking"?
him "Just about you nothing in particular".
me "Okay well call me when you can". ..."YOU THE FUGGIN BEST". started coming from my cell phone .....he was calling me I was cheezin because I mean we spoke all day on the phone and I remember him saying he was going to go to bed early like he did on Wednesday night.....so why was he calling me back so quick or at all (smile)
We spoke on the phone until I started falling a sleep on the second episode of Family Guy .......I was surprised Tony didn't knock on the door to come in ..........I told Lee I was falling asleep and he was like "You been at work all day wanna take a nap and I'll call you later".
me "Sure"..........I didn't get much sleep before Tiffany called me the baby has a fever at first I didn't believe her but after talking to her last night I did.....I told her to wipe him down in cool water she sounded so tired I was trying to stay up and talk with her but my eyes were heavy and I was SLEEPY! Once I got off the phone with her Tausha called me I was like dayum Lee gonna be calling to wake me up and I haven't gotten any sleep still .
Tausha is talking about Frank standing her up and now she wants to go to LaFontae Bleu and will call me when she gets dressed since I said I would go with her. Frank ended up showing up so she didn't even call me back they got into it but what's new with that....
When Lee hit me back he said he would have hit me earlier but was talking with his mother ......confirmed it this morning when his mother asked him something he said "And we talked about that last night".
her "Boy I forgot we talked about so much last night". I have yet to catch this dude in a lie ................it's strange I expect him to be a fugg up ........I mean why not???????
Haven't spoken with him much today tho
I got the wake up call from him this morning and talked with him a little before I went to lunch.
I was 45min early for work today the kids are out of school so I don't have to wait around for Mo .....I have no reason to be late any more at least until school starts (SMH)
Tiffany has been off work for 2 days since the baby has a fever which means work has been a bore.
Talked to Skip he wanted to see if I would be at the field to watch the kick ball games tomorrow (Saturday) winning team gets $5,000 only the teams that have been around for 5 years can play in the tournament. I told Skip I would be there....I called a bunch of my girls, text and e-mailed them to see if they want to come out and hang ........we will see......
Necole Bitchie sent a tweet to me and Regan Gomez did as well talk about siced I know they not big, big, celebrities but on a wish and a prayer maybe Janet Jackson, Omarion or Maxwell will Tweet a sistah up.
Wednesday was my Friday and I was siced even tho I knew there would be no rest for me but at least I wouldn't have to be at work right????
We picked up my mother Tuesday evening so Wednesday around 4:30pm my sister Jackee and my daddy came in town. Jackee was staying with us my daddy had an hotel.
Wednesday
We just chilled in the crib Tony ordered 6 pizza's and 50 wings Nickee and her kids were over as well. We didn't do much just chilled in the crib watching TV and talking about this and that Lee and I sent text back and forth.Thursday
Everyone was up bright and early for James Graduation (smile) I was excited and nervous .....excited for James and Nervous about driving out to the equestrian center because Wednesday I had got a letter in the mail that said my tags were suspended due to no ins. ........Okay, Okay, people I know I should have paid it but I was going to this pay I mean it ..........I hate paying bills that's real talk. I couldn't let Tony know since he was thinking I was paying it. Plus man oh man I was gonna be owing the dayum DMV like $1,000.00 off the break 2 vehicles and ins canceled since April 2nd 2009 .........yeah someone please do the math!!!!!!!!!!!! aye, aye, aye.
by the time we got to the place it was jive packed but James had told us to sit on the left side which was where the guys would be sitting. Tony had the video camera and amongst us we had 3 digital cameras. When James walked in we were yelling and screaming for him. He set right near us and as the ceremony was going on we got lots of good pictures of him. Of course the principle said "When the students names are called please no yelling and hold the applause until the end"..................yeah right!!!!!!!! When they called James name we yelled so loud and long we couldn't hear like the next 3 names after his ........OOPS! to the families of the students that was after him.....our bad (lol) James modeled walked but had to stop and hug everyone on stage then once he came down the steps he posed for the cameras in his model stance.....Oh happy day............I cried just a little but not as much as I thought I would have.
Lee sent me a text to check on how it went and to see if I was crying and if Shay and Necole busted any ear drums yelling at the top of their lungs (lololololol)
After we got home James decided he wanted to go to Ruby Tuesday's for lunch which turned into our dinner a few people from the graduation were there as well. We had a nice time there talking, eating and taking pictures of James and his friends. The food was wonderful and the bill was $253.00 Tony offered to pay the whole bill ......I was happy about that but my daddy declined and said "Every time we down here you square us away we gonna do separate bills". and we did just that ............
Once we got home everyone just sat around talking and James and I took a nap.
No one even asked for dinner we were sooooo full from the late lunch.
Friday
I was up early so I could hit the stores and get some of the stuff for the graduation cookout that night at 7pm. the kids all went to school so my sister Jackee went with me while James was home with mommy and my daddy ........My brother Marques said him, his wife Amanda, their son Mason and Grandma would be in town around 4:30pm.
Man I spent a little over $300 on that dayum cookout (SMH) I know how Tony be feeling now when we have cookouts and shyt it's expensive. I did buy a cute T-Shirt that say's "I (A Heart) shoes and boys with Tattoos" and a Red pair of sun glasses.
Marchae let me use his 10% discount at the party store which helped me a lot.
My brother got there a little before he said he would I was in the middle of folding clothes and watching a movie classic ..........The Devil Wears Prada (wink) my mother had never seen it before!!!!!!!!!
It was so good seeing Grandma but for some reason I was just not that into having vistors and I laid in bed most of the time I think I was missing Lee if I must tell you guys the truth. I mean he barley text me because he knew the family was up and Tony was back sleeping in the room with me which was irritating me he was just so lovey, dovey it was getting on my last nerve.........real talk I had called Tiffany and talked with her about me and Tony and how I'm so sick of everyone saying we can't break up, it's not that serious, stay together, he loves you , yada, yada,yada. I must have went on for a 20min or more and then she said "I think your on the verge of a nervous breakdown". That is what I felt like egg-catly!!!!!!!!!
The party turned out real nice, only a few of his friends showed up and fam and friends got on the mic to say some things to James................when Tony spoke he almost had people in tears.............I didn't say anything .........really didn't have anything to say................I will write him a letter and express it all to him then.
I cooked for the party and this is what he wanted Fried Chicken Wings, String beans, Meatballs and baked mac and cheese with real chez it's on top. Felicia made the ghetto beans (baked beans with ground beef in them) Nickee made regular baked beans, Jackee made Pasta Salad and Tony had Lenny on the grill doing the half smokes, hot dogs and hamburgers.
I made Lee a plate and then snuck out after the speeches to give it to him. I was only gone a hour but was missed by lots of people......................
When I got to Lee's house he was waiting outside for me we hugged and kissed I gave him his plate and then on our way inside I told him I couldn't stay long and he looked so sad .........naw for real yaw it was all over his face but he was like "It's cool I understand, I understand". Yes, we had sex and it was good I missed him so much he was like "Dayum I didn't want to rush into it like that thought you were going to come spend sometime with me".
We talked all the way to my house and Pumpkin gave me a look like "where the hell you been I'm telling". *rolling eyes*
Tony asked me where I was and I just kept beating around the bush talking about other shyt changing the subject until he let it go. Then the nucca starts playing love songs and talking about how much he loves me right there during the party and on the mic he ended it by playing our wedding song "Here and Now"by Luther Vandross ( I walked down on that song) Everyone was like please show this man some love so he can change the music I was like dayum this is too much for me I was thinking I wish I was at Lee's house in the bed laying in his arms right then. (smile)
I told Kris where I went and she couldn't believe it she also said is that why my butt is getting plump like it is (blush) the guy Marc on our team asked me if I was doing squats because my butt was sitting just right a lot of people have noticed the butt change and I have too and I am loving it my jeans be looking like .........."GOT DAYUM SHE PHAT"!!!!!!!!!!!! (lol)
The party was over around 1 something and James got $5 hundred and something dollars .............do you think he asked me if I wanted him to help pay for his housing???? Nope this boy has been shooting dice, shopping and ordering carry out..............smh............anyway
I went to bed before the last guest could leave.
Saturday
I was up for practice, came home and Jackee and I went shopping (shoe) of course I ended up buying a cute pair of grey sandles (heels) of course.
We hung out around the house I took a nap for a short while would have been longer but my family kept asking me what we were going to do. Everyone wanted to get out the house but I have no idea what to do during the day I could have took them to plenty night spots (wink)
Tony had to DJ a basketball tournament and wouldn't be home until 6pm which turned into 9:30pm (SMH)
So needless to say we didn't go any where.
Now my nephew Mason is 2 and everything he ate Marlow ate right out of his hand chocolate is toxic for dogs and Mason had these chocolate chip cookies which Marlow kept eating the girls and I kept chasing him down to get them or what we could out his mouth.
Later on while Tony and Marques went to go get the food from the Golden Skillet Marlow started acting all hyper .......he was running around and then falling over for no reason he head was bobbing and I had visions of how my Gracie used to do that right before we had to put her to sleep due to Parvo.
Lee texted me to say a fight was on and while I was down stairs watching that Mo came running to me talking about something is wrong with Marlow.
Tony and them were back by then and kept saying he was fine he was being so nonchalant about it I called the vet (ER line) and was told I could bring him out Calvert county to the hospital (45 min away) and it would be $125 off the break I was like hold up I ain't got that kinda cash right now lets just pray he is okay thru the night.........as I'm telling Amanda this my brother says "Sis he is just drunk he got into my grey goose". I was livid I text Lee and tell him he calls me right back telling me everything will be okay and asking questions I mean even if he really wasn't concerned I couldn't tell it because he was showing concern at least for my feelings (smile)
Mo and James went to stay the night with my sister.
Sunday
I was nervous because Marlow didn't wake me up so I made Tony go check on him and Marlow came running in the room just fine (cheeze)
The kick ball games were canceled due to the rain the night before. We still went out to the field and ended up scrimmaging against 2 teams we tied and won (smile)
Lee didn't come to the field he was feeling like he was getting a cold.
My mother, sister and the rest of my family came to the field. My brother his family and Grandma had left as well as my daddy and Jackee.
Tony only stayed a hot 10min at the game and then he was gone not to be seen again until Monday morning like 4am .....I was cool with that but Mo was worried she kept asking about him and then got on her knees to say a prayer all by herself I was like dang let me call this man I called him 23 times, left 3 messages and sent 4 text still got no reply. She finally went to sleep.
Monday
My mommy left and things were back to our normal at the house Tony is back downstairs and his room look real cozy.
I had practice
didn't speak with Lee much his brother's family came over to get in the pool he called to tell me just that (smile)
Tuesday
Lee and I spoke on the phone from 11pm until 2:30am when I heard the smoke detector going off and BAM James tried to kill us he was boiling water for Oodles and Noodles and put Shay's brand new Elmo plate on top of the pot as the lid (plastic smh) it melted of course and flames we're shooting up when I walked in the kitchen the house was full of smoke (smh) I screamed for Tony to get up and out the basement. Him and James ran up the steps at the same time. (smh) Shay was out the door and forgot to even attempt to wake up Mo who sleeps in the bed right across from her's (smh)
I am a Twitter now and siced it is so much fun people get one I am telling you it's nothing but the truth and I was tempted to link my blog to it but was like NO WAY JOSE my kids are followers on my twit page and they not ready for all my blog has to offer (smile) or should that be a (wink)
Thursday
Didn't talk much with Lee and didn't speak to him at all after 3pm around 11 or a little before he sent me a good night text (yeah right) he called me at 6am and then sent me a text "Be careful going to work it's raining hard out there". He then called me at work around 9am but I was talking to Crystal and told him I would hit him later. It sounded like he was getting in his car going some where...................While we on the phone Tuesday night we talked about sooooo much I mean childhood stuff I mean he claims he has never told anyone some of the stuff he told me and made me promise not to ever bring it up again and you guys some of the shyt he said I mean ............I can't imagine him just telling any random chick this shyt so ...........yeah we have a trust between us and he feels comfortable with me I would never violate that trust even here in this blog my free world of speaking ........the man is hurting inside and a lot of his dealings with relationships, expressing his feelings and yada, yada, yada has to do with his childhood.
He even touched on me and my mother and how he hates that I try to please her so much and how I let her stress me when he says I am a wonderful woman and a remarkable mother and he hates that my mother makes me feel less then that. We talked about Kenny and him molesting me from 6th grade to 8th grade and how he never wants to meet him since he still comes around my family.
He spoke on me meeting people in his family and yada, yada, yada ...............this being said when I don't hear from him or I feel a slight distance a rise I trust in my heart that ....it's just that .......that NO other woman can hold a candle to what him and I share.......not saying I'm the only woman he kicks it with ....I would never go there but they don't share what him and I do and I can write that in blood on the scroll as him and I would say. (wink)
Ant wasn't home when I got there and I went right to bed I knew I shouldn't have went to sleep because I wasn't gonna get up on time for kick ball.....and true to my word I had 8 missed calls 6 from Lee and 5 text messages 3 from Lee ......I finally trudged out of bed and called back Boxer and S.S. and told them I was on my with the tent it was 01 something in the morning I was late as heck.
Lee kept missing me and I him.
Man by the time I got everything set and was parking my van way down yonder......Tiffany was parking her car across the street from me. So I asked for her help and we walked to our tent together. I spot Lee who comes over to me talking about "I been calling you all morning".I ask him if he wants a cigarette...gave him one and he stepped off.
He came over a little while later to give me my head band and that was it I saw him but he kept a distance from me I even went to watch his ass play ........he kicked a home run and had a awesome catch ....he fell but yeah he caught that ball people was like what you trying to get on ESPN with that joint (lol) his brother saw me watching and waved at me (smile)
I stepped off because of all those flying ants and Lee told me they won later that night wehn we spoke over the phone. I didn't hound him because I knew his wife was coming to the field to bring the boys but I never saw Lee with a female I saw him talking to his boys and .....yeah I was checking for his ass (wink).
Rude boy came to the field I was shocked he was there and he didn't say he was coming either so I was like dayum he had his kids with him too. (smile) I was playing the game so didn't get to talk to him and he didn't know where I was either so the whole time he was watching are game his ass didn't realize that was me smiling at his ass from 2nd base (lol). He's coming next Sunday with his biker crew (blush) I wonder how Lee will handle it never mind Tony I mean .....I don't know what I mean I guess I'll see how he reacts as well. I don't planned to be bunned up with him but I can guarantee Rude will hang around me a whole lot (smile). Tausha better come to keep him company as well .....you know how I be doing with my many men (lol)
We lost 1-4 it was the best game so far we have gotten so much better.
I left the field a tad earlier then usual since I had to pick up Mo from Crystal's house and Necole and shay went to Necole's cheerleading cookout. I was hoping I would have gotten to spend sometime with my Lee baby but no dice didn't even see him when I left. I sent him a text tho to see if he was gone but he said he was still at the field.
Once home I made me a turkey cheeseburger and ate some potato salad. The fam sat around talking about this in that. I took a nap and then got a shower so I could go drop James at his friend Jazmine's house to spend the night since she graduated Monday. Since I would be passing Lee's crib I thought I would get to see him for a while at least to get a quickie so I put on a skirt not panties and was looking real cute and country (smile)
Just as we're leaving I realize the girls aren't home and Mo can't stay sleep in my room while I leave so I have to take her with me which means ........THERE WILL BE NO QUICKIE for me *rolling eyes*
I did send him a text to let him know what I was about to do. He hit me back once he left the filed and was telling me all about our coach and the boxer getting into it on the field he said the boxer was calling coach all types of whores and sluts I was like WOW! Lee and coach are cool and have been since they were jive younger (smile) ......that smile was just because when I think about Lee I do just that smile........
anyway
We rapped on the phone and then once I was home I washed some more clothes until Tony got home he invited me to dinner. He wanted to hit the new Japanese spot near our house but it was closed so we went to Applebee's which was cool with me I was still hung over and queasy stomach from all that drinking I did the night before and I needed mashed potato's .....real bad and they have these loaded ones OMFG!!!!!!!!!!!! yes, I am a potato addict (smile)
While at dinner we talked about this in that ......mostly about Lee, Lynette who has been calling him and pressing him out she really likes him it seems and she wants him to be a part of her life ........anyway he doesn't want her anymore and it's like dayum........So anyway we sitting at the bar and this older guy is checking me out like crazy Tony is like "I'm about to say something to dude because this shyt is wild he can't stop checking you out". He told me how he never told me before but he does get jealous and he sometimes get intimated by the guys because he thinks they are looking at him like "What is this fat nucca doing with her". or vice versa what is she doing with him and he says it bothers him........I was like dayum it's jive weird how he is talking to me more expressing his feelings and stuff.
He is telling me he was going to get me the Hello Kitty watch I want for Christmas are before.......he wants us to go away some where nice and far for our anniversary this year.....he is giving me $100 today to start shopping for the Graduation stuff......he is going to give me $450 and him and I are going to go to NYC so I can get some new bags (smile) I told him it's not about the material things and he said "I know but you like that stuff and have never asked me for anything expensive before you always make do with what you can get even tho I know it's not always what you want".
It seems so weird that he knows I am really interested in someone else.....I don't think Tony is going to go crazy or flick off and cause me any bodily harm (wink)
Skip came over to watch us play and we talked for a little while. Then he stepped off while looking at his phone. That night Lee told me Skip was pitching woo to his wives cousin.......he was like I started to tell Skip he couldn't be doing that or I was gonna tell you........I was thinking Lee is such an ass hole sometimes.
anyway
Didn't see Fatt Baby or Karen at all Sunday.
Darrin hasn't been calling me since he asked to help take out my braids
I spoke with Lo for a little via text.
T .........he called me yesterday while I was on the phone with Kris.....he was flirty and everything I was even feeling good inside and flirting back with his ass. I kinda gave him the impression I might be proposing to his ass in November don't ask me why I did it just something to do .....I know, I know I'm always playing with guys and their emotions right?????????????????shyt they do good women like that 365 days of the year.........and do it to some more then others so fugg em............all but Lee so far until he proves me wrong I do nothing but trust him and believe what he has to say as truth (weeellllll maybe not all that but let's just say innocent until proven guilty lololol)
Monday
Lee's wife was still here and it was the cousin's graduation and the party as well so I knew I wasn't gonna here much from Lee sooooooooo let's see during the day we barley spoke on the phone and then after I left kick ball practice I called him ...................Oh wait .....wait......during the day when I did talk with him he was saying how he wanted his cigarettes back becasue he didn't like someone to control him and yada, yada, yada.......so after practice I sent him a text "What you doing"?
him "At the graduation party what you doing"?
me "I put your cigarettes in your mailbox". There was a very long delay and I was half way home from doing just that when he sent two text back to back "WOW"! and "Oh Ok". Later While I was cooking he calls me I missed the call and hit him back he tells me he is on his way to take the kids to his house because the party was 16 and over after a certain time and he was taking all the kids to his house ( his car was quite as .....as.....a church mouse how ever quite that maybe) then he says his daughter is going to have his phone because her battery is dead and she can't be without a phone he just wanted me to know *rolling eyes* I was cool and just said I would talk to him the next day..........When he gives me the wake up call at 6am Tuesday morning he tells me his wife and her girlfriend stayed the night and were sleeping in the same bed and room upstairs he was like "That's some weird shyt". he then said "I called you last night and sent you a text I know we said we would just talk the next day but I wanted to talk to you". and true to his word I had a text "U sleep"? and 1 missed call it was around 1:30am
Tuesday
Was rough I didn't get to talk to him as much I guess his wife and everything was around so I was like cool we did text a lot and then when he left to pick up his brother we talked all the way there and then he sent me a text that said he was on his way to his brother's which meant he wouldn't have service ............aaaarrrrgghhhh
When I got home I started cleaning up while waiting for Tony to get back so we could go pick up my mommy from the airport...........yeah I'll have lots to talk about when I get back to work on Monday that's for sure.
Sorry there was no time to edit this Dianna get on your hops with the editing on the names (lol)
The last 2 days I haven't had any ...um...yeah with my Lee baby (smile) but we have talked everyday all day as normal. Even at night I mean Monday I wanted to see him but Tony got to crying and acting all stress because he saw me on the phone out back and he couldn't get over the fact that I can't wait to talk to Lee. I stayed home but Lee and I spoke on the phone both days ..................well I did see him yesterday but just for a split second and when I tell you guys I know your going to call me all kinda weak ass bishes and sucka ass punk and all that weak ass shyt but I have to give it all to you guys or why even blog right?
Monday
Nothing much happened I was still on get back from coach and them playing a game Sunday and not even sending me a text or calling me to invite me out to the field I mean WHO'S FLIPPING TEAM IS IT ANYWAY yeah a bish is pissed behind that.
So I didn't even go to practice I stayed at work and got some OT (smile)
I called Mary to schedule a hair appt ..........just to get the front, sides and back redone I am so not ready to take all the dayum braids out just yet.
let's see ..........not sure what else went down I know we did a lot of talking Tony and I ....Oh yeah Marchae graduated and Shay went she said when he went across the stage she was standing up yellin for him (smile) they went out to eat at Outback for dinner.Lee and I spoke on the phone until we fell asleep. (smile)
Tuesday
Went to work
spoke with Lee on the phone most of the day
Tony and I had another talk I mean it seems as if all we do is talk, talk, talk and I mean he always says he is fine after the talk but then turns around and looks all depressed and sad and shyt .....but he has decided he is going to back up off me and stop smothering me with all the lets get back together and I want you back shyt .
I finally sent the graduation announcement's out and boy am I glad about that I will be so glad when it's the cookout is all I'm saying all that other stuff is soooooooo trying I even forgot to save us a announcement I was like okay someone won't be getting one bump all that (smile)
Tony and I went to the Lafonte Bleu for the Bio Medical program graduation. James was the MC for the evening and everyone was talking about how good he was and how much of a ham he is. I love that James is so popular among the staff as well as the students. He signed 3 autographs .......I told you guys he has been doing that since the 5th grade adults ask for his autograph (smile)The food was good and we had to dress up Tony was looking very nice too (smile)
When we left from there I dropped them both at home and then went to see Lee .............now this is that part when I say you guys will be cusing me out okay...........I heard him talking about needing a haircut .....now I know his money situation so .................I call him when I'm out front of his house "Hey Lee I'm outside".
him "Hold up dayum Toni .....(then to the boys hold on daddy be right back) why you didn't tell me you were coming over". He opens the garage and coming down the driveway towards my van he trips (lol) He leans in my van window "What's up "? we kiss I notice he doesn't have his teeth in
me "Nothing".
him "What you got on??? Get out the van let me see you". I was looking fly with a black pleated halter dress and silver 5 inch heels he checked me out and we hugged
him "You looking all hott where you coming from"?
me "Out with friends". remember I was at the senior banquet with James and Tony and we had to dress up but there is no need for him to know my every move right (wink) I get back in the van and he leans in looks at me up and down shakes his head and leans in on the door
me "What"?
him "Nothing sup Toni".
me "Why don't you go get your hair cut tomorrow". I hand him $20 and drive off he calls me "Come back and get this money Toni stop playing". I knew he wouldn't want to take it after we go back and forth he finally says "Thanks". It felt good .....it really felt good
I went right home afterwards and Tony was out back smoking and looking all sad he was like "Did you have to show your friend how sexy you looked in that dress"?
me "No".
Wednesday
Tony and I had sex that's what it was there was no pleasure out of it from me I faked an orgasm and wasn't enjoying any of it at all he even gave me oral and I couldn't even bring my self to cum. He wanted me to squirt so bad but it wasn't even close. I felt like ....like a chick having to work for sex and not enjoying it.
work was cool it was Felicia's Friday her son graduates from the National Guard and is having his party this Saturday at Sequioas ......Just got a text that said it has been canceled he has to report for drill ..............so I have Sat. night free I wonder if Lee will jump on that and chill with me .....I think he said his wife would be in town on Saturday night and will have the boys with her (smile) so maybe I can get some much need SEX!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I just love laying next to him, feeling his breath on the back of my neck when snuggled with my back against his chest, his arms around me holding me...............dayum .....yeah I like being with Lee.
I got home and took my braids out since I was going to be getting my hair done the next day.
Darrin called me .........we been talking a few days and I guess he thinks he is in or something he was like "I love hearing from you everyday".....what have I started
anyway he sent me a call me text and I hit him up while doing some OT ....it was raining and practice was canceled (smile) he said "Hey, what you doing? on my way to the track and wanted to know if you wanted to go with me"?
me "Track boy its raining out this way".
him "For real let me call my boy ....well wanna go get some drinks"?
me "Cool". Now I don't really want to get together with him because all I can do is think and want to be with Lee (SMH) after we get off the phone I realized I had to get home and take my braids out so I called him back "Hey Darrin".
him "Hey".
me "I can't go for drinks tonight I have to take my braids out so I can get my hair done tomorrow". This fool says "I'll help you take them out I just want to see you and spend time with you". Instantly I wanted to vomit .........I haven't heard from him in 2 days because needless to say I turned down his offer to help me take my braids out *rolling my eyes*
I went home and did just that Lee was on the phone with me the whole time even when I was so tired I didn't think I could take out anymore he was like "Go a head take a nap and I'll wake you up in an hour". a hour and 45min. later he called (smile) and talked with me on the phone while I finished (wink) such a good friend he is (smile)
Thursday
I went to work looking a hot mess with this dayum head band on.
talked to Lee all day on the phone
Tony was calling me talking about how he would rather be second to Lee then to lose me after numerous conversations regarding that I got him to change his mind.
Both him and Lee checked on me during my ride to Silver Spring to get my hair done.
I got home around 10:30pm my bedroom door was still locked but when I went inside I saw Tony had brought a new comforter set real nice but hard as paper he never checks the thread count wish he would just leave the sheet picking out for me. I didn't complain I told him how nice the design was and then went to heat me up some pizza.
Got on the phone with Lee and that was that
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