I just missed T's call when I got to my desk yesterday I was a little ticked because I've been missing him. Needless to say I didn't hear from him for the remaining of the day. I did however talk to BBS which was interesting (smile)
I worked late while I was at work Coach Juanita called me to find out about Necole cherring for her squad I told her Tony said I could not afford the $265 a month and she asked me how much I could afford and I said $150. She said she would call me back and she found a sponsor to pay the other part so I just pay $75 every 2 weeks I can swing that. I haven't told Tony or Necole about it yet. They have a meeting this Saturday at 1pm so I'll tell her then and Tony I'm not sure when I'll tell him ........... anyway when I was on my way home I forgot Kris and Karl was coming over to drop off the PC's. Kris and I sat out back drinking a glass of wine catching up on stuff since I haven't read anyone's blog in forever it seems like.
I'll be so glad when we get a new computer at home so I can get on with out it going so slow and being logged out or frozen it's crazy. Anyway after they left we just chilled in the house dinner was every man for themselves.
Tony and I had sex for some reason I didn't want the penetration so I gave him oral sex ...........I did real good by the way but I didn't swallow. He was kinda upset because he said he wanted to be inside me but he got over it. I used the bullet while he watched (winked)
Yesterday morning he gave me a fare card $43.00 I was grateful for that.
I talked to T most of the day yesterday. He seems to think that when we finally do see each other and have sex I'm gonna be so head over hills in love with him that I'm gonna want nobody but him. I don't think we will ever meet but anyway. It's nice to have someone to talk to and stuff like Icesis said just keep it a phone relationship. Anyway I Got my ticket for the party this Friday it starts at 11pm I hope I don't be sleep by then maybe I'll find something to do until then.
I worked last night but left early so I could get Mo's party invitations and get my book from the library.
Tony was at the bar but left so he could ride with us Necole went too and he brought her and Mo some shoes. Shay and I are next he said (smile) when we got home Tony fried some fish and I made fried potatoes. I watched Nip Tuck and talked to Tiffany on the phone for a few, called BBS and talk to her until I went to sleep (smile)
I'm off tomorrow and so is T ................yeah were supposed to hook up but will see I think he'll back out but if so o well.................................
Friday I wanted to hang out but couldn't find anything to get into. P. called to invite me to hang at Jo's for crabs and drinks but I wanted to hang with one of my girlfriends and didn't know if she would want to go over there. When I called her she already made plans to chill at home so I was cool with that even though I wanted to see her I just went home and had Shrimps, Crab legs and fried fish.
I had to take James to the modeling meeting from 7-9:30pm the dude Fuji has some strict rules but James is siced about it.
John was over when we got back and hung out for a while. We ate and watched Enchanted again.
Necole had taken Mo's braids out and I planned on getting her the hair tomorrow early morning so she could get it braided.
Saturday I was up early realizing Tony was not going to work I got pissed because Neka offered me 2 tickets to the game (Nationals) I didn't have anyone to go with and he didn't want to go since he told me he had to work and then ended up NOT. Next time I'll take one of the kids just fuck it.
Tony went with John,I was so happy Ruby was gone now I was sure to have a wonderful evening day. I went to get a relaxer and the hair for Mo and Shay, After Mo's hair was done I dropped the girls off at Seat Pleasant day, Tony and I took Mo to the movies I wanted to see Iron Man but she said that was a movie for boy's (smile) we ended up seeing that dumb, stupid ass movie Meet the Browns I didn't like the movie as you can tell neither did Tony.
When we got home the girl's still weren't home yet they called and asked if Arneshia could spend the night and her mother would be bringing them home. They got home a little after 8pm Tony was already gone to the spot to DJ. I checked with my girl who said she was still going, she met at my house so she could follow me. We had a nice time.....................................
Sunday I had a hangover that was crucial! It had to be about 9am when I hear John, Chip, D, Lenny and Mike making a whole lot of noise in my back yard. I laid around trying to tune them out and sleep off the hang over until I had to take James to practice. When I came back they we gone, Tony got in bed with me and fell asleep for like 20min when the door bell rang and it was the pimp coming over to chill Tony got up and went to the basement with him. I watched the game and talked to my friend on the phone, took a shower around 4pm, Necole was doing Shay's hair in braids like pixie's it looks good too, I got all flied up and was looking cute (I think) after I picked him up and we got back Demar, Anton, Aaron, and Doug were out back grilling. We had a pretty good time before Aaron invited like 8 chicken heads over my crib when I saw one of those hoe's sitting on my kitchen counter. I flicked off.............gave her the look thhat could kill and said "OH NO YOU GOTS TO GO". She jumped down and said "Sorry". Demar was already downstairs putting them out. Fuck no I was pissed how dare her...............I don't even know that trick..........
T called me ...........I noticed he had called me around 7 something but I had left my phone in the car by mistake. He was calling me back it felt good talking to him.
We finally went to bed around 11:30am I called my mother back and talked to her until a little after 12am, Read a few pages of my book and went to sleep.
This morning I was up and ready to face the day. I made it to work right on time without a minute to spare. I was anxious to get a call from T ...........for some reason I have been missing him. I guess we haven't been talking as much and I'm starting to feel it. He still says he loves me and I don't doubt it at all.
Man am I so pissed at Ruby she is here with a vengeance. I had to change the sheets this morning and then while at work today I bled through my pantie liner. I am never this heavy ........hopefully this means I'm getting ready for the change of life so her ass won't be coming by to visit me any more.
I didn't talk to T at all yesterday and I wasn't the least bit down about it. I was a little ticked I didn't hear from him at all today so I can let him no that too. (smile) I did talk to BBS today which brightened my day .........talking to her always does.
Nothing much to talk about today OH! Yeah! why did Jerome send me pics of his dick talking about he was thinking about me while jacking off and he wanted to show me what I was missing....................the man even sent a cum shot too. I was flabbergasted................he then called me talking about he's sick of me never spending anytime with him but I be kicking it with other niggas and stuff the man be luchin. I'm off Thursday I told him if he brought the food I would make breakfast at his house and chill with him for a minute but you know that can change ...........I'm so like the wind and right now I don't even want to be bothered with a man and that's for real.
I talked with T off and on yesterday for the most part of the day. He claimed he was going to try to come and see me today but I knew that was a crock of shyt.
I worked last night and Tony had already called me to tell me he had James, JR and John with him to try and get the grill on the hitch attached to John's truck. They had the bar too I was siced, I had Crab Legs for dinner they were so the bomb, The kids ate Hamburgers, Mo and I watched Dan in the Real Life which was a good movie. Mo and I laughed so hard at times it was great.
I made a few calls and then went to bed to read my book. I started feeling funny................I wanted to call and talk with BBS but I already told her I was going to bed so I didn't want to call her again.................when I felt like I couldn't breath I knew I was having a panic attack I set up in bed, I started feeling really scared of what I couldn't tell you, my heart started racing and I tried to take as deep as a breath I could. I knew Tony wouldn't be able to hear me at the Legion so I started texting him and as I was doing that he called me (smile) It was so much noise he could barely hear me. He wanted to say he loved me and to see what I was doing. I told him I felt scared and then I couldn't get the rest out so I told him to wait for my text. Once he got it he texted me back "Say A prayer". The next text was "say a Prayer of Faith".
I did just that I got out of bed and on my knees and prayed. Once back in bed I felt more relaxed and I went right to sleep.
This morning when I got up I saw I had a text. It was from Tony he sent it at like 1am it said "I love You So Much".
Ruby came over last night. Shay was all mad talking about "Dang Mommy that means she's gonna visit me next". (smile)
I was late for work today but I called, James is suspended from school for 3 days for going off campus at lunch time. They would have let him and his other 2 friends off with a warning but James had to open his BIG mouth so Mr. Sampson suspended all three of them.
I've been so happy these last couple weeks .............I have a secret and thinking about it makes me blush. That's all I can say about it but it's all good .............all good (wink)
I worked last night Mo called me crying ...just all upset because Tony dropped her off at home with Shay and told her she couldn't go with him. I mean she was crying like.........like ........it was the end of the world she kept saying "I love you mommy". I had to have her put Shay on the phone to find out why she was even acting like that. When Shay told me she was upset because she couldn't go with Tony I calmed her down told her I was on my way home and to get her homework together.
Tony called me while I was on the train.................we had to off load at Capitol Heights something about the train being out of service. People were pissed but I didn't have anywhere to be so I was chillin. Tony called to see where I was and when I told him offered to pick me up. I told him the next train would be there in 3 minutes. I did ask him to meet me at the metro since I wasn't sure if I had gas in the van and didn't want to run out alone.
He met me and followed me to the gas station where he put gas in for me (smile)
Everyone was home when we got there. He brought me a Nationals T-Shirt (baby Tee) It is so cute (smile). Tony decided to quiz the girls and if they got 5 answers right they could get their cell phones back. All the questions were political and they didn't get 5 correct. He decides to pull me in on it and add Geography questions too. Needless to say they still don't have their phones I got 4 right they were pretty hard.........well for me(smile)
Mo and I watched Enchanted which was a very good n cute movie
It was every man for themselves for dinner, I finished folding the last of the clothes.......I'll tell you I might have said this before but Mo and Tony be having the most of the clothes in the wash it's crazy.
When I went to bed Tony was already sleep, I finished reading my book and then woke up around 5am for some sex (smile)
Saturday while at the Catwalk Jerome sent a text with his new number to my other cell that Tiffany is holding for me.
Now I have been talking about wanting a big handmade barrel grill to T and Jerome for a while now and they both know people who make them. Well Jerome came through for a sistah. Now here is where the scheming came in I had to see where he was gonna have it delivered and it had to be a good story I couldn't very well come home with a expensive ass grill. So I called P and we came up with take it to Jo's house which she is selling it anyway way and we can say she is giving it to me which was great because she has a outdoor bar she is giving me too. I made P and Jo both swear to secrecy and to never ever mention where the grill really came from I mean not even to Angel or anyone ..............this was a gruddy move I know but hey I got a grill and a out door bar coming. WHENEVER Tony gets it I told him it takes 6 guys to carry it and he goes down there yesterday with just him and boney ass JR. Then calls me talking about how big everything is. I SWEAR sometimes everything about Tony irritates the hell out of me. Like this morning his cell rang playing Lil Wayne Lollipop and When I hear him talking to John I just get irked inside like .....how can you have that ring tone for another man............true it's most likely his default ring but still ........................I was irked..............maybe Ruby is coming for a visit soon.
I hope Tony gets the stuff before the weekend at least.
I talked with T all day yesterday .....he is so pressed ...............man he has been calling me asking about other dudes and saying how he expects me to have Tony and that's it. He's not messing with nobody else, calling any one else and he's gonna take a day off so we can hook up and yada, yada, yada. I'm so not feeling him anymore I have something else on my mind and he's not it.
He called me while I was working the other job all siced since I was alone and he thought I was gonna get freaky, sex talk him and play with myself ..............I cussed his ass out real good for that one.
We talked while I was on the train then he called me when I got home but I missed the call. That man has lost it! I keep trying to tell him we are just friends and he gets pissed talking about "Keep thinking that were friends I aint your fucking friend we are way more then that we're lovers". I might have a stalker on my hands .............what do you think?
I made Hamburgers and Baked Beans for dinner, finished up some laundry, drank a glass of wine, checked Mo's homework, watched Necole make up a routine for Cheerleader try outs next year, and played checkers against all the kids but Shay. I lost to everyone but Mo which is crazy because I am (used to be) the best Checker player around. (lol)
Tony and I got in a slight argument regarding him getting the grill and stuff so he was in a bad mood. I went to bed about 11pm read my book , watched Nick at night and while he was in the basement I played with my bullet (smile). Not sure what time Tony came to bed I was knocked out.
I snuggled up to him this morning .......just to make sure everything was still cool between us. He is still acting kinda distant but then fuck it ..................I really don't care right now.
I was on time for work and looking forward to speaking with T for some reason. I was happy when he called I'm sure he could hear it in my voice.
Tony found out I wrote a check using the joint account and the dayum thing bounced (ouch) he was a tad pissed by that but I think everything is good now.
The Funeral was nice a few people got up and spoke. Tony was a pall bearer, Cheryl even spoke even though she broke down crying. It was so and I cried a little too Tony was taking it pretty hard and kept walking out. Every one went back to Yolanda's house to eat and just chill. John came through for a while it was good to see Lashia and her little baby girl, Theresa (My ex I was gonna run away with) she looks old now just worn out and while we were talking I could tell something was still there (No Tiffany I'm not just thinking this) She asked about all the kids and stuff.
On our way to get Mo from aftercare I noticed Tony was not wearing his ring. He told me it was at home. I was a tad hurt by this and took mine off as well fuck it uh? Could wait to get to work today so I could hear from T and he has not called me yet.
Nothing much happened yesterday Tony and I were both so tired the kids had KFC for dinner and I was sleep by 9:30pm woke up nice and refreshed.
Friday was Happy Hour at P's house I already knew I wasn't going to stay late. I was going to have a long day on Saturday.
Temp pulled up the same time as me and we walked in together. We were the 1st to arrive P made a cheese, cracker and fruit tray. She asked why I didn't bring Tiffany and she pulled out a bottle of Apple cider for them to sip on ..........how nice was that.
Sherelle came next and she had on a real short skirt which she would later tell me she bare underneath .......dayum I was so tempted to stay longer but I knew I had to go plus Tony had my Crab legs and Shrimp waiting at home I was siced. He put steaks, Corn on the cob and baked potatos on the grill. Demar came over too and everything was good.
Saturday morning James woke me up at 7:30am so excited about the Catwalk. I had to get them to the place at 9am and he didn't want to take any chances of me making them late..................see why I didn't stay late and get my drink on.
When I dropped him and Necole off it was looking like everyone was excited ..........lets just say excitement was in the air.
Tiffany and Neka decided they would meet us there, My sister was running behind (what's new) so we didn't leave until 12:45pm we stopped at McDonald's to eat on our way there.
It was so nice and the kids were dressed for the occasion. We all had a nice time I think James did a wonderful time. He did very good as the signature model. I spoke with the guy Fuji who runs the Catwalk and he started telling me how he was taking James to BET and it will be on June 11th some sorta modeling competition.
Tony left right after the kids modeled since he had to go to work at the Legion.
I played with my bullet 3 times and when Tony came in later that night for sex I couldn't even cum when he ate me out.
Sunday I cooked, cleaned and washed clothes just the normal Sunday I did talk to BBS on the phone most of the day.
Portia had her sonogram today and she is having a GIRL!!!!!!!
Yesterday I was off work I went to Mo's school to assist in her class room which was a fun experience. I have so much respect for teachers now for real everything was mad crazy. They really don't have that much time for each assignment ..........if they goof around you have to stay focused on the job at hand. A handful of the kids were cutting up but all in all it was a good school day.
I had been there since 7:45am and was ready when 1:45pm came for real.
After school we went to KFC since I didn't eat any of the school lunch. Then it was off to the doctor's office for Mo's appointment ...............she weighs 100lbs, the mark on her arm is not ringworm and Dr. Carrington gave her a gel for it which she said should clear it up. She also gave a urine sample which took them 2 hours to get any other time she has to pee every 5 sec. but of course this time she couldn't go.
When we got home I wanted to lay across the bed and drift off to sleep but that didn't happen. I started reading the book Baby Brother I got from the library while I waited for Shay to get home.
Tony called me at like a little after 5pm talking about he had a stop to make before coming home. While at the library I had let Mo check out 10 books (she has her own card) she read them all as soon as we got home. I decided to go to the school and see if Shay was there and take Mo back to the library. when we get up the street I see Shay walking home, she gets in the van and while I talked to BBS on the phone.
When we got home I watched TV, Tony still hadn't made it in and since I called him twice and the phone was going straight to voice mail I knew he was over talk-a-lots house since he doesn't get service there.
When he got home I could tell he was tipsy and it was already like 8pm.
Wednesday
Cheryl came over to get the money for the funeral and show me a pick of Yolanda she took with her cell phone. Cheryl said it was so hard seeing her like that But at least she would be prepared for The funeral the next day. While we were outside talking and chillin KeKe sent her son Trevor over to bring me a drink.
I started texting one of my friends until she feel asleep on me and then I just went to bed. Anthony went to Karoake and when he came home he was ready for sex it was like 3am and I had already used my bullet twice with thoughts of BBS so I wasn't in the mood but didn't want to turn him down either. His dick wouldn't get hard, hard and I was just like cum already the time was 3:14am now and I was thinking this is gonna be a long sex session. Then this fool starts spraying something on his dick.......he acted like he wasn't gonna let me see what it was at first .........come to find out it's some spray that's supposed to make you stay hard ............didn't work for his ass and then he had this clitoral gel and he got mad because I wanted to look at it first .............that shyt didn't work either I mean when I want it my pussy gets wet as a ocean so I don't need any of that stuff. It was now 3:30am and I was getting pissed he pulls out this tongue vibrator which he wants me to wear while I suck his dick but the damn thing keeps sliding off my tongue and he keeps talking shit like he's doing something when all I want to do is go to sleep. He tries to go down on e and gets mad when I tell him "No". He turns over with attitude I hug him for a minute then watch some tv before falling a sleep. I had to get Mo up for school at 6:30pm which Tony slept right through like a baby..........I wanted to fuss but opted not to since the furneral was that afternoon.........................
Let's get this out of the way. When I got home I started cleaning up the room while Tony mowed the front and back yard. I talked to Cheryl and told her we would be over there for a while. Tony said Tika wanted to go with us so we picked her up, stopped at the liquor store got a 12 pack Heniken, Cranberry juice and a 5th of Hennessay. We rode out to VA reminiscing about Yolanda................ I got to see Tika's new baby girl she is a chocolate baby who has eyes just like Jay's. We also got to see the wedding pics for the first time. Hanging at Melissa's reminded me of old times. We got some carry out and just sat back talking Rita came over Melissa's ex girlfriend ....seems like they are a couple again but I didn't say anything. We talked about all the fun stuff we used to do and how funny Yolanda was I mean Cheryl,Renee, Yolanda,Tyrone, me, Anthony, Theresa, Stacy, Melissa and Rita used to hang like shyt I mean we used to hang and take the kids with us to the beach, out of town and man she will be truly missed. T had called to check on me too. He is being so sweet this week. The day before while at work I talked with T and then he called me when he got home. we talked for a while until I told him I was going inside and Tony was home. I could hear he was a tad upset by that. It was Karaoke night and T was going to try and call me later that evening................he didn't but I wasn't mad he didn't because BBS and I talked on the phone and she brought up my bi-sexuality again she was asking me questions about other women ............she even asked if I was attracted to her and I told the truth and told her I was. She said she was flattered and then she flat out flirted with me I mean she asked me what I would do with her if we had a night together. I told her and she started breathing all heavy and shyt she was turned on and I could tell. She rushed off the phone talking about her husband was coming. Man I was chessin from ear to ear. Now she might be too embarrassed to ever talk about that night, or to face me again ............man I hope not see this is the thing you never know what to expect. I wish she was making the moves on me because there would be no question what would happen. Tonight is Happy hour at my house and I invited her I hope she comes Kris is the only one I discribed her to and I think Neka said she was bringing her so maybe she can get a vibe and see if she's digging me or not.
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