We got on the topic about garters and he said "You should wear one".

me "Oh I do I have a few".

him "How did I know that you look the type"........then he says to me "I think my daughter heard me talking to you about garter belts....I know she gonna tell my wife ...I already told her about you so it doesn't matter".

me "Oh yeah".

him "Yeah I mean she knows but I didn't tell her about the sex".........

I worked late last night (Wednesday) which meant no kick ball for me

I met my cousins daughter Monique ...yesterday...on Twitter....she said you look just like my mother. She is so right I even think we do and that's a first I always thought we looked just a like ......Monica is flyy ....

I talked a little with the Golden Girls but with the rest of the DCL family......

Lee and I spoke on the phone for a while wasn't talking about much I'm trying to push back from his ass ....just a little ......I mean I'll try to explain it ...to you guys when I figure it out myself......

******HOT OFF DA PRESS******

It's gonna be his son Tyeheers birthday on the 25th and he is having a party his wife is coming down and was like "You have any female friends you want to introduce me too and his ass told me he told her "No it's not even like that". ..........I felt like BAM POW a punch in the fugging face ......but it's cool...yeah it's cool. What I just typed just happened I am on the phone with him right now as I type this so decided to put that info out there.

Okay so once I figure it out I'll let you guys know ...I'm sorta leaning towards the money, no job having, and he won't BREAK for nothing when it comes to me it's like he is holding his feeling towards me so bottled up that he ...he....I feel like he wants to ....I don't know keep it as just bedroom buddies.... there I said it....I get the feeling he just wants to be fugg partners .....I can't remember what we discussed yesterday but I do remember him saying this clearly and then repeating it...."I let you get a way with more stuff because your puzzie is good".

me "Oh so it has nothing to do with my wonderful sense of humor and great personality"?

him "No, I mean yeah you have a hell of a personality too but that puzzie is OMG!!! so good". (he sang the so good part like electrick red)

me "Okay so that's what it is". I changed the subject

I worked OT and was surprised when my Mommy called me to tell me that Aunt Lori saw James face book page and he was talking about his boyfriend so she called Aunt Joanie told her who in turn called my mommy who in turn called me "Toni Aunt Lori said James is gay did you know that"?

me "Yes".

her "So you knew this..aaarrrggghhh....so you and Tony are just okay with it".

me "I mean mommy what can you do he is a grown man you can't live peoples life for them".......She brought up was that the reason HE stopped going to church....I had to tell her WE stopped going a family he knows the bible and what it says about homosexuality......I mean she was sounding all upset and she was getting on my nerves.....I just didn't want anyone calling him and trying to talk down to him and make him feel bad I mean the family ain't never called or came for visits or nne of that shyt so DON'T START NOW!!!!!!

The first person I go to call is Lee I can't believe this we talk for a little he gets my head right and then he has to leave out.

Tausha had called me so when I hit her back she is crying ...over Frank no doubt so I agree to meet up with her and we just chill together while I talk with my Aunt Joanie and Nickee about James. Man when I tell james what is going down he is like ....he thinks it's funny and says that he learned a long time ago that who really matters is his family Tony, Me, Necole, Shay and Mo. (smile)

I went home after that and got in the bed a bytch is beat working 12 hour days 3 days a week is not a game I tell ya......I missed 2 calls from Lee and 3 text messages one he was talking about "I was at my brothers house please don't be mad at me for not calling you back" (smile)

We talked on the phone a lot today and then Troy came over .....Lee and I talked about sex and he is still saying how good that last time was and how I should be taking that as a compliment because he was so turned on and stuff. He said he loved me again but also tossed in there but I'm not in love with you he said "I know you love me too or you on the verge of lovin me come on Toni if we didn't love each other we wouldn't be as tight with each other as we are". I wouldn't answer he got pissed and said "Never mind". I got his ass laughing about something and the subject was changed.

I could hear Troy's voice in the back ground and was wondering if all this talk for his benefit I quickly started thinking about other things like say........getting it in with Lee and my puzzie got wet just like it is now I want him sooooo bad. I think his daughter will be staying with her aunt soooooo maybe tonight I can get it in dayum ......

no time to edit sorry peeps