R.I.P MICHAEL JACKSON !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I know I told you guys Lee burned me copy of the Maxwell CD BLACK summernites ....I listened to it alllll day yesterday and I mean allllll day ...the CD is mean with it ....the beats,lyrics and not to even mention his voice ...oh my and the notes he hits ....WOW! .......this CD is mellow....it's real nice .....I love Maxwell always have and always will (cheezin) ....He is going to be at the Brogata in Atlantic City 07/24/09 ....SOLD OUT....he will be in Norfolk on 07/30/09 and Flordia on 07/31/09 .....a sistah money funny but what's knew in that area uh?......but this time I only have $292 left out of my check after every thing came out.....I think my cell phone is due soon .....I want to order the G1 (cell) but I owe a balance which I planned on paying today but THAT won't happen I still have to give James $225 to hold his rooming at Morgan State that shyt is crazy .....I have paid off another loan tho .......so I should be good ...or lets say a little better next pay since I will only have one loan left to pay off (thank you Jesus)

Okay so anyway while I was on the phone with Lee that night he was like "Get your bullet".

me "Uh what you want me to get my bullet ...shyt you gonna say my name"?

him "Yeah, now stop asking questions and just get it". I did just that OMG!!!! he even wanted to hear the sound of the bullet when I cut it on.......SMH! he was saying my name....I was moaning....he was telling me what to do with the bullet and ....OMG!!! yeah we were having phone sex and it was good I really got mine and was into it.....Lee was talking about how hard he was but he would wait for the real thing and just loves to hear me cum. (smile) I was at work cheesing so hard I couldn't stop thinking about that phone sex and ....yeah .....when I think about it now I still smile.....that man is doing things to me sexually I haven't felt with a man before ....I...I have no words NONE ....

Friday

Tony called to see if I wanted anything from Horse and Dickies. I didn't want anything and when I mentioned it to Tiffany she was like call him back I'll buy you a fish sandwich.....so I called him back it was kinda good thing I did because I ended up having to leave early to take James to the ER his temp was 103.4 ......I tell you guys this was driving me crazy.....So my supervisor let me go a head and leave early ...........this messes up my OT but I was like okay what can I do. When we got there they didn't even need me they needed HIS ID, HIS signature, He went in the back triage by himself, The nurses and doctor spoke directly to him, I was just...just there he is no longer a minor....my son is a grown man (SMH)

It rained hard while we were there ....they ran blood work, CXR, gave him his first IV and Tramadol for the back pain he was having, his urine was normal as well. We left out of there at 9pm or a little before I was like dang whole Friday night gone. Wanted to go see Hangover with Tony for movie night but that didn't happen I went and got in my bed and went to sleep.

Saturday

I was up early for practice...I knew I had a bunch of running around to do that day. After practice I checked my phone and had 2 missed calls from Tausha and a text from her that said "I can't take this anymore". I knew she was referring to Frank *rolling eyes* now Tausha has had issues ...the kind like when she sends out a SOS someone better be with her before things end up pretty bad lets say...... hospital ......I go to her house right from practice since when I called she didn't answer. She was doing okay but told me she went to his house and he told her to leave said he didn't want to have anything to do with her. She threaten to have him put back in jail...for hustling....when she said that I got pissed "What the fugg Tausha you the dayum feds?? because a nucca don't wanna fugg with you anymore you gonna turn states on his ass that's some petty shyt don't fugg with a nucca lively hood off no bull shyt". Man I was like ....from now on I keep all and I mean all info from her ass real talk ....of course no one knows about....and never will but any other nucca I fugg with in the game she will never ever know .....cause I never know if she may carry shyt the same....wild I know. I told her I would stay with her until she left for work......out of sympathy I invited her to go to Sherellie's Birthday party with me and she was game.....

I got home and took a nap.

Tausha came back because the power was out on one whole side of the mall and JcPenny's was closed so she took Shay to her house with her to do her hair.

Mo kept waking me up ready to go to Po's Birthday party which started at 3pm

I spoke with Lee who while telling me how nice it was out I decided I wanted to wear a sundress but didn't have one so I said "I'm gonna hit the mall and get a sun dress for today I really wanna get one".

him "Well go get one even though I don't think you need one".

me "I wish I had the money for one anyway I really can't afford it".

him "mmm hmm I see what you getting at".

me " WHAT you talking about"?

him "You know I don't have a job man I hate when you talking about you don't have any money".

me "What's that gotta do with the price of peanuts"? Now I know he doesn't like it because he wants to kick that chedda to a sistah but ain't got it .....at least he know tho so I hit him with this "Man I keep telling you I ain't tripping off your cash".

him "Yeah, I know cause you can get another nucca to do it"....BINGO (smile) But I say "Boy nobody tripping off that. Now this is gonna seem un fugging believable but Tony calls in on my other line. I click over and he says "Hey Toni do you have a sun dress I wanna see you in one today".

me "What boy I was just thinking that I was gonna hit the mall and get one".

him "You got some money"?

me "Nope". Now I did have some money but why spend mine right ...OMG! you guys this shyt seems so weird ....but I tell you it's the truth....Tony says "Go a head and get one and I'll pay you back I wanna see you in one TODAY". I say okay we get off the phone and I click back over Tell Lee I'll hit him later when I get back from the mall.

While I'm out shopping this nucca Lee calls me and says "You find a dress yet"?

me "Nope it's a bunch of long ass dresses and I want short, flirty and light weight".

him "oh yeah well look I got half on it okay"............OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!! this can't be happening it just can't be.

me " Naw, that's okay I got it".

him "Toni just bring your ass over in the sun dress and get this money don't be getting know $200 dress".

me "Yeah, Okay". I'm tripping inside and feeling like dayum .....I like this .....I feel good ...yeah... I find 2 dresses I like $35.00 total (Marshall's) I get my plan together......now I can't tell Tony I got 2 dresses or Lee but for 2 different reasons ..

1.I never want to be too deep in Tony's pockets since he does pay the bills soooooo I tell him the dress was $45.00

2. Lee I don't want him to think I'm a cheap chick (lol no pun intended cheap chick) so I tell him the dress was $92.00 he gave me $50 (wink)

I spent $35 and came off with $60 (smile) Oh hell yeah when it comes to a nucca and his pockets my math skills sharpen quick (wink)

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Now when I get back home and get dressed I'm looking ...like dayum real flyy ...I go see Lee first since Tony is over Pumpkin's house getting ready for the party (he's DJing)

Lee comes out side and I get out and walk up his drive way to meet him he's checking me out smiling and hugs me he hits my ass and says "That thing is bouncy too so that's the little sundress uh"?

me "Yeah thanks".

him "No problem so what you about to do now"? I give him the run down we hug and kiss I get my money and I leave.....noticed he never said how he thought I looked and I didn't get in my feelings ..that's how he is but I know I was looking the bomb. He sends me a text "I have your smell all over me and it smells so good...you looked real pretty too".

I reply "Thanks".....See just him doing that made me feel good inside....

When I got back to the house Tony was getting in his truck he got out when he saw me and was like "Dayum you look fine". he grabbed my hand and twirled me around (smile)

two different reactions uh?

I went inside and everyone was ready James was staying home and SHAY had her hair cut ...Tausha done cut my baby's hair I know it was broke off but she looks so much older then 14 shyt she already looks older then her age with that body like WHOA. She looks cute tho and she loves it....she did need it tho.

We hit up Target so I could get her a couple shirts and a card I put $20 in that as well.

Then went to the party it was nice I mean I would have done it somewhere else ...the back yard smelled like dog shyt due to the rocs but yeah....this man sent his daughter up to Taylor to say "My daddy said your cute what's you number". I went to dude and said "Dude I will fugg you up she is 14 years old got it ". He was like "My bad shorty". (SMH) hence the reason I didn't want the hair cut at all but what's done is done.

We left the party around 8 something so I could get ready to head to Sherellies party which started at 6pm. Now Tausha was just getting her toes done I tell you every time I'm going some where and invite her she has to take Allllll dayum day getting ready.

I get home and lay across the bed watching Meet the Robinsons with Mo......still waiting for her. Tony gets home and is like "I thought you would have been gone, I'm gonna go with you". Tausha is ready around 10pm we pick her up, hit the liquor store to get her some Merlot (Alice White) and then we're off I gave her a card with $20 in it.

Her party is packed ...we had a good time I took a puff of the green and then got all stupid acting and called Lee to tell him he was like dayum shorty then Dianna wanted to talk to him and they rapped for a sec. ...not sure what they talked about ....he might not have been saying anything that's just the way he is.

Sherellies sister Lovey was looking nice I spoke to her she couldn't tell who I was and when I said "It's Toni". She was like "Toni, man I used to have a crush on you".

me "I had one on you too". Now if I was into women I would have gave her some play but Lee and his ....um yeah that's what's up right now.

We did rap for a minute but I was ready to take my high, drunk, talking ass home.

Tausha was chill until she got to crying off the Frank shyt .....Yeah it was a nice party.

Lee was with his home boy all night. His boy Troy (best friend) who was supposed to go to Iraq but didn't go and to think I was thinking Lee was lying to me when he kept having to do stuff with Troy because he was leaving and then BAM he had to do something else with Troy because he was coming back. It was all true Lee didn't Lie to me!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Troy spent the night at his house (Lee's) that night ...I know because Lee called me Sunday morning talking about "Hey guess what I lost my keys". I'm looking at the time like it's 9am and you calling to tell me that shyt and why is this my problem???????????? but I ask him questions about where they could be and he says his man was looking in his car right then ....I forgot he rode with him the night before ....I tell him I have to get ready to hit the field and I would hit him back.

When I hit him back he has found the keys in between the couch........

Tony goes with me because we have to pick the tents up from Pumpkins house before we head to the park......as always I'm the first one there Tony and I sat up the tent and stuff and while walking from my van Count (Lee's brother) was like "HEY YOU ". all loud I looked around and Lee was like "My brother".

me "Oh hey". Lee shakes his head.....now I'm typing this I wonder if that was a tactic to get me to come over there .....dayum....anyway

Lonnie came next ....now I know I'm the captain but I would like to sleep in too but like Tony said it's your team so you have to do it and he is so right.....Sice got out there next then Don dada her and I sat and watched 3 games. I told her about Lee too......we spoke briefly about Tony and I the week before so it was nothing for me to tell her she told me how she knows herself and she is not green going into the marriage......lol....good she is the first female I have met who is honest with herself. We both said how cute Bonus was and I knew he had been checking me out like two weeks ago ....naw that's a lie the first time he met me at sideline ...um...yeah it was his eyes ...yeah he was ...yeah checking me out. I know he said something to Sice about me and Tony because I heard Sice say "Aw he don't care". something like that......so while Don Dada and I sat in the bleacher as he gave me the wink and head nod I smiled but kept my focus on the game and how well Lee was playing he got the only 2 pioints his team scored he even kicked a home run too I was cheering all loud and Don Dada was like "Someone is showing their favoritism" lololololol

Lee's game ended in a tie ....he was pissed ......Count was arguing with the refs ....After the game we went to get ready to warm up for our game .......I tell Don Dada I got to hit the bathroom ....TR2 who has been hanging up under me since Talk 2 Much was not there said she wanted to go with us.......as were walking towards the bathroom these too dudes walk passed I smile (as usual) and dude says "Hey what's with that smile".?

me "I'm always smiling baby".

him "holla at me when you get back". I keep it moving NOW on the way back dude and his boy are standing at the tent.....I smile and we talk he like "You don't smile that much".

me "Whatever honest I do". He asks my name and I tell him he replies his name is Troy .....we start rapping his boy ask me my sign.....as we rapping about that and kick ball he says he had 2 teams he could have played on but he chose not to play on either one .....Count is walking our way and he puts his arm around both of us ....talking about the refs as he steps off Troy says "So you know him"?

me "Yeah"

him that's my best friends Lee's brother". I step off.............................