Wednesday was my Friday and I was siced even tho I knew there would be no rest for me but at least I wouldn't have to be at work right????

We picked up my mother Tuesday evening so Wednesday around 4:30pm my sister Jackee and my daddy came in town. Jackee was staying with us my daddy had an hotel.

Wednesday

Once we got home everyone just sat around talking and James and I took a nap.

No one even asked for dinner we were sooooo full from the late lunch.

Friday

I was up early so I could hit the stores and get some of the stuff for the graduation cookout that night at 7pm. the kids all went to school so my sister Jackee went with me while James was home with mommy and my daddy ........My brother Marques said him, his wife Amanda, their son Mason and Grandma would be in town around 4:30pm.

Man I spent a little over $300 on that dayum cookout (SMH) I know how Tony be feeling now when we have cookouts and shyt it's expensive. I did buy a cute T-Shirt that say's "I (A Heart) shoes and boys with Tattoos" and a Red pair of sun glasses.

Marchae let me use his 10% discount at the party store which helped me a lot.

My brother got there a little before he said he would I was in the middle of folding clothes and watching a movie classic ..........The Devil Wears Prada (wink) my mother had never seen it before!!!!!!!!!

It was so good seeing Grandma but for some reason I was just not that into having vistors and I laid in bed most of the time I think I was missing Lee if I must tell you guys the truth. I mean he barley text me because he knew the family was up and Tony was back sleeping in the room with me which was irritating me he was just so lovey, dovey it was getting on my last nerve.........real talk I had called Tiffany and talked with her about me and Tony and how I'm so sick of everyone saying we can't break up, it's not that serious, stay together, he loves you , yada, yada,yada. I must have went on for a 20min or more and then she said "I think your on the verge of a nervous breakdown". That is what I felt like egg-catly!!!!!!!!!

The party turned out real nice, only a few of his friends showed up and fam and friends got on the mic to say some things to James................when Tony spoke he almost had people in tears.............I didn't say anything .........really didn't have anything to say................I will write him a letter and express it all to him then.

I cooked for the party and this is what he wanted Fried Chicken Wings, String beans, Meatballs and baked mac and cheese with real chez it's on top. Felicia made the ghetto beans (baked beans with ground beef in them) Nickee made regular baked beans, Jackee made Pasta Salad and Tony had Lenny on the grill doing the half smokes, hot dogs and hamburgers.

I made Lee a plate and then snuck out after the speeches to give it to him. I was only gone a hour but was missed by lots of people......................

When I got to Lee's house he was waiting outside for me we hugged and kissed I gave him his plate and then on our way inside I told him I couldn't stay long and he looked so sad .........naw for real yaw it was all over his face but he was like "It's cool I understand, I understand". Yes, we had sex and it was good I missed him so much he was like "Dayum I didn't want to rush into it like that thought you were going to come spend sometime with me".

We talked all the way to my house and Pumpkin gave me a look like "where the hell you been I'm telling". *rolling eyes*

Tony asked me where I was and I just kept beating around the bush talking about other shyt changing the subject until he let it go. Then the nucca starts playing love songs and talking about how much he loves me right there during the party and on the mic he ended it by playing our wedding song "Here and Now"by Luther Vandross ( I walked down on that song) Everyone was like please show this man some love so he can change the music I was like dayum this is too much for me I was thinking I wish I was at Lee's house in the bed laying in his arms right then. (smile)

I told Kris where I went and she couldn't believe it she also said is that why my butt is getting plump like it is (blush) the guy Marc on our team asked me if I was doing squats because my butt was sitting just right a lot of people have noticed the butt change and I have too and I am loving it my jeans be looking like .........."GOT DAYUM SHE PHAT"!!!!!!!!!!!! (lol)

The party was over around 1 something and James got $5 hundred and something dollars .............do you think he asked me if I wanted him to help pay for his housing???? Nope this boy has been shooting dice, shopping and ordering carry out..............smh............anyway

I went to bed before the last guest could leave.

Saturday

I was up for practice, came home and Jackee and I went shopping (shoe) of course I ended up buying a cute pair of grey sandles (heels) of course.

We hung out around the house I took a nap for a short while would have been longer but my family kept asking me what we were going to do. Everyone wanted to get out the house but I have no idea what to do during the day I could have took them to plenty night spots (wink)

Tony had to DJ a basketball tournament and wouldn't be home until 6pm which turned into 9:30pm (SMH)

So needless to say we didn't go any where.

Now my nephew Mason is 2 and everything he ate Marlow ate right out of his hand chocolate is toxic for dogs and Mason had these chocolate chip cookies which Marlow kept eating the girls and I kept chasing him down to get them or what we could out his mouth.

Later on while Tony and Marques went to go get the food from the Golden Skillet Marlow started acting all hyper .......he was running around and then falling over for no reason he head was bobbing and I had visions of how my Gracie used to do that right before we had to put her to sleep due to Parvo.

Lee texted me to say a fight was on and while I was down stairs watching that Mo came running to me talking about something is wrong with Marlow.

Tony and them were back by then and kept saying he was fine he was being so nonchalant about it I called the vet (ER line) and was told I could bring him out Calvert county to the hospital (45 min away) and it would be $125 off the break I was like hold up I ain't got that kinda cash right now lets just pray he is okay thru the night.........as I'm telling Amanda this my brother says "Sis he is just drunk he got into my grey goose". I was livid I text Lee and tell him he calls me right back telling me everything will be okay and asking questions I mean even if he really wasn't concerned I couldn't tell it because he was showing concern at least for my feelings (smile)

Mo and James went to stay the night with my sister.

Sunday

I was nervous because Marlow didn't wake me up so I made Tony go check on him and Marlow came running in the room just fine (cheeze)

The kick ball games were canceled due to the rain the night before. We still went out to the field and ended up scrimmaging against 2 teams we tied and won (smile)

Lee didn't come to the field he was feeling like he was getting a cold.

My mother, sister and the rest of my family came to the field. My brother his family and Grandma had left as well as my daddy and Jackee.

Tony only stayed a hot 10min at the game and then he was gone not to be seen again until Monday morning like 4am .....I was cool with that but Mo was worried she kept asking about him and then got on her knees to say a prayer all by herself I was like dang let me call this man I called him 23 times, left 3 messages and sent 4 text still got no reply. She finally went to sleep.

Monday

My mommy left and things were back to our normal at the house Tony is back downstairs and his room look real cozy.

I had practice

didn't speak with Lee much his brother's family came over to get in the pool he called to tell me just that (smile)

Tuesday

Lee and I spoke on the phone from 11pm until 2:30am when I heard the smoke detector going off and BAM James tried to kill us he was boiling water for Oodles and Noodles and put Shay's brand new Elmo plate on top of the pot as the lid (plastic smh) it melted of course and flames we're shooting up when I walked in the kitchen the house was full of smoke (smh) I screamed for Tony to get up and out the basement. Him and James ran up the steps at the same time. (smh) Shay was out the door and forgot to even attempt to wake up Mo who sleeps in the bed right across from her's (smh)

I am a Twitter now and siced it is so much fun people get one I am telling you it's nothing but the truth and I was tempted to link my blog to it but was like NO WAY JOSE my kids are followers on my twit page and they not ready for all my blog has to offer (smile) or should that be a (wink)

Thursday

Didn't talk much with Lee and didn't speak to him at all after 3pm around 11 or a little before he sent me a good night text (yeah right) he called me at 6am and then sent me a text "Be careful going to work it's raining hard out there". He then called me at work around 9am but I was talking to Crystal and told him I would hit him later. It sounded like he was getting in his car going some where...................While we on the phone Tuesday night we talked about sooooo much I mean childhood stuff I mean he claims he has never told anyone some of the stuff he told me and made me promise not to ever bring it up again and you guys some of the shyt he said I mean ............I can't imagine him just telling any random chick this shyt so ...........yeah we have a trust between us and he feels comfortable with me I would never violate that trust even here in this blog my free world of speaking ........the man is hurting inside and a lot of his dealings with relationships, expressing his feelings and yada, yada, yada has to do with his childhood.

He even touched on me and my mother and how he hates that I try to please her so much and how I let her stress me when he says I am a wonderful woman and a remarkable mother and he hates that my mother makes me feel less then that. We talked about Kenny and him molesting me from 6th grade to 8th grade and how he never wants to meet him since he still comes around my family.

He spoke on me meeting people in his family and yada, yada, yada ...............this being said when I don't hear from him or I feel a slight distance a rise I trust in my heart that ....it's just that .......that NO other woman can hold a candle to what him and I share.......not saying I'm the only woman he kicks it with ....I would never go there but they don't share what him and I do and I can write that in blood on the scroll as him and I would say. (wink)