The last 2 days I haven't had any ...um...yeah with my Lee baby (smile) but we have talked everyday all day as normal. Even at night I mean Monday I wanted to see him but Tony got to crying and acting all stress because he saw me on the phone out back and he couldn't get over the fact that I can't wait to talk to Lee. I stayed home but Lee and I spoke on the phone both days ..................well I did see him yesterday but just for a split second and when I tell you guys I know your going to call me all kinda weak ass bishes and sucka ass punk and all that weak ass shyt but I have to give it all to you guys or why even blog right?

Monday

Nothing much happened I was still on get back from coach and them playing a game Sunday and not even sending me a text or calling me to invite me out to the field I mean WHO'S FLIPPING TEAM IS IT ANYWAY yeah a bish is pissed behind that.

So I didn't even go to practice I stayed at work and got some OT (smile)

I called Mary to schedule a hair appt ..........just to get the front, sides and back redone I am so not ready to take all the dayum braids out just yet.

Tuesday

Went to work

spoke with Lee on the phone most of the day

Tony and I had another talk I mean it seems as if all we do is talk, talk, talk and I mean he always says he is fine after the talk but then turns around and looks all depressed and sad and shyt .....but he has decided he is going to back up off me and stop smothering me with all the lets get back together and I want you back shyt .

I finally sent the graduation announcement's out and boy am I glad about that I will be so glad when it's the cookout is all I'm saying all that other stuff is soooooooo trying I even forgot to save us a announcement I was like okay someone won't be getting one bump all that (smile)

Tony and I went to the Lafonte Bleu for the Bio Medical program graduation. James was the MC for the evening and everyone was talking about how good he was and how much of a ham he is. I love that James is so popular among the staff as well as the students. He signed 3 autographs .......I told you guys he has been doing that since the 5th grade adults ask for his autograph (smile)The food was good and we had to dress up Tony was looking very nice too (smile)

When we left from there I dropped them both at home and then went to see Lee .............now this is that part when I say you guys will be cusing me out okay...........I heard him talking about needing a haircut .....now I know his money situation so .................I call him when I'm out front of his house "Hey Lee I'm outside".

him "Hold up dayum Toni .....(then to the boys hold on daddy be right back) why you didn't tell me you were coming over". He opens the garage and coming down the driveway towards my van he trips (lol) He leans in my van window "What's up "? we kiss I notice he doesn't have his teeth in

me "Nothing".

him "What you got on??? Get out the van let me see you". I was looking fly with a black pleated halter dress and silver 5 inch heels he checked me out and we hugged

him "You looking all hott where you coming from"?

me "Out with friends". remember I was at the senior banquet with James and Tony and we had to dress up but there is no need for him to know my every move right (wink) I get back in the van and he leans in looks at me up and down shakes his head and leans in on the door

me "What"?

him "Nothing sup Toni".

me "Why don't you go get your hair cut tomorrow". I hand him $20 and drive off he calls me "Come back and get this money Toni stop playing". I knew he wouldn't want to take it after we go back and forth he finally says "Thanks". It felt good .....it really felt good

I went right home afterwards and Tony was out back smoking and looking all sad he was like "Did you have to show your friend how sexy you looked in that dress"?

me "No".

Wednesday

Tony and I had sex that's what it was there was no pleasure out of it from me I faked an orgasm and wasn't enjoying any of it at all he even gave me oral and I couldn't even bring my self to cum. He wanted me to squirt so bad but it wasn't even close. I felt like ....like a chick having to work for sex and not enjoying it.

work was cool it was Felicia's Friday her son graduates from the National Guard and is having his party this Saturday at Sequioas ......Just got a text that said it has been canceled he has to report for drill ..............so I have Sat. night free I wonder if Lee will jump on that and chill with me .....I think he said his wife would be in town on Saturday night and will have the boys with her (smile) so maybe I can get some much need SEX!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I just love laying next to him, feeling his breath on the back of my neck when snuggled with my back against his chest, his arms around me holding me...............dayum .....yeah I like being with Lee.

I got home and took my braids out since I was going to be getting my hair done the next day.

Darrin called me .........we been talking a few days and I guess he thinks he is in or something he was like "I love hearing from you everyday".....what have I started

anyway he sent me a call me text and I hit him up while doing some OT ....it was raining and practice was canceled (smile) he said "Hey, what you doing? on my way to the track and wanted to know if you wanted to go with me"?

me "Track boy its raining out this way".

him "For real let me call my boy ....well wanna go get some drinks"?

me "Cool". Now I don't really want to get together with him because all I can do is think and want to be with Lee (SMH) after we get off the phone I realized I had to get home and take my braids out so I called him back "Hey Darrin".

him "Hey".

me "I can't go for drinks tonight I have to take my braids out so I can get my hair done tomorrow". This fool says "I'll help you take them out I just want to see you and spend time with you". Instantly I wanted to vomit .........I haven't heard from him in 2 days because needless to say I turned down his offer to help me take my braids out *rolling my eyes*

I went home and did just that Lee was on the phone with me the whole time even when I was so tired I didn't think I could take out anymore he was like "Go a head take a nap and I'll wake you up in an hour". a hour and 45min. later he called (smile) and talked with me on the phone while I finished (wink) such a good friend he is (smile)

Thursday

I went to work looking a hot mess with this dayum head band on.

talked to Lee all day on the phone

Tony was calling me talking about how he would rather be second to Lee then to lose me after numerous conversations regarding that I got him to change his mind.

Both him and Lee checked on me during my ride to Silver Spring to get my hair done.

I got home around 10:30pm my bedroom door was still locked but when I went inside I saw Tony had brought a new comforter set real nice but hard as paper he never checks the thread count wish he would just leave the sheet picking out for me. I didn't complain I told him how nice the design was and then went to heat me up some pizza.

Got on the phone with Lee and that was that