Okay we went camping as a family 07/24-07/27 it was so much fun. It was also hot as hell I mean come on we were outside for 4 days ........outside we slept in tents but any camper knows a tent draws heat and you can not stay in one during the daytime. I got a tan and thanks to Avon Skin so Soft I didn't get bit by any bugs. It rained for a few on Saturday but all was well.

Meesha and Sherelle came for the first time and ............yeah lets just say it's true about Meesha having a little something for me and Sherelle was making every attempt she could to get in my pants. I hate to even say this and maybe I shouldn't but I won't be true to you guys if I don't...................I let her go down on me. I don't know why I did it I'm not even feeling her ........it was a bad downtown job for real. I felt nothing for the first time in my life when another female was going down on me and I felt ABSOLUTELY NOTHING. She was moaning and shyt and I was faking an orgasm so she could just stop. I even felt guilty afterwards I told Tiffany I think I'm over women but she thinks it's just that I didn't ever have a thang for Sherelle and it was what it was. Meesha was the look out since all the guys were around the camp fire up the hill.

When we got home Tony stayed on the phone most of the time he didn't chill with me at all, then at 8:14pm he tells me has to make a run and will be back. His be right back ended up being 12 midnight and then he attempted to have sex with me and couldn't get hard he even gave me a bad downtown job I was just disgusted. I tried not to get up set as a matter of fact I did a pretty good job I told him "Your dick wont even stay hard you woke me up for that bull shyt"! and then I went to sleep.

Before he had gotten home I had wrote him a letter about our relationship, how he left out like that and yada yada yada. He read it but never said anything about it. He was just being real nice to me paid my cell bill off ($800) and gave me a $500 credit.

Nothing else been going on I been working OT all this week and my check should be looking real nice. I'm gonna need it since I have 4 more Hershey Park tickets to purchase.

Sherelle and Meesha have been e-mailing me a lot since camp but I'm not in the mood to even flirt with they asses so convo has bee dry on my end.

Tausha and me haven't been hanging out none since the cook out at Neka's mom's crib. But I talk to her crazy ass everyday she is funny.

My sister sent me the obitutuary for DJ K-Swift and I let Felicia see them off the break looking at the first pic she says "She was Gay"? I'm like dang the girl is dead that's what the e-mail was about a life gone to soon and she worried about if the chick was gay or not.................now yaw know how I am about the gay subject right? So I say "Why would you say that"?................................you guys ready for this "Because she looks hard, Gay people have this hard look". I wanted to go on her for real but I let it slide I guess she was implying she looked Dom but dayum (shaking my head)

Tony and I made love last night it was okay I tried to implement the pulsatron in it but it didn't work so when he was finished I handled my own business thinking about ......yeah you got it (smile) I've been doing that a whole lot the last 2 weeks .

Kris asked me to go bowling with her tomorrow so that's something for me to do and then Saturday is Rude Boy's biker party. I can't wait for that I told Scorpion and Big Boi I would shoot thru to the club house so they could see my SMILE. I think it's just gonna end up being Angel and I so I'm gonna invite Tausha she'll like the club house.

James just called me to tell me he was on his way to Six Flags I wonder if Felicia can tell he's gay (smile) Nothing else going on for real just work. I can't wait to see Dr. B next Thursday for my anxiety. I have been having small ones all this week and have taken the medication once. I think may know 2 issues that may trigger it. Dr. B might give me some different pills I don't know.