Friday
I don't even feel like going into it again I must have told the story a million times (smile)
Tiffany and I were making plans to see Journey to the Center of the Earth after work but she changed her mind because she wouldn't get home in time to make the show and didn't want to rush. I decided I wanted to still go and would take Mo.
when I got home I do remember feeling nervous , antsy but not even sure why ........well I did take some money out the joint account only because I forgot about West Gate (timeshare) taking their $250 so I was only left with $107 after that since the loans came out ............I still had bills to pay.
So I was nervous about how Tony would react to that. And just like I thought he was ignoring me when I got home. He was on his way to the sweet 16 party he had to DJ for in Gaithersburg. The girls looked so nice and when he left out without so much as a kiss on my forehead I started feeling sad, unhappy and just .......sad. I packed Mo's stuff for her girl scout trip and told her we were going for a ride.
When we got to Hoffman's I was still feeling a little strange. I called Tiffany to tell her we were at the movie. She talked to Mo for me who when found out we were going to a 3D movie was scared.
Once inside (it was packed) I went to get Mo something to eat and drink in line I felt light headed and it was getting difficult to swallow. I kept telling myself to relax I got to my seat gave Mo her stuff and started watching the movie previews I began sweating and my heart was racing I kept thinking about how Tony was just treating me. I tried to calm myself and even sent him a text "I love you always". hoping he would send me a nice one back .........but none came.
I started seeing double and asked Mo if she was hot she said "No". and had on her jean jacket. I thought the 3D glasses we're giving me a headache and I kept taking them off and on. Mo said she had to use the restroom so we went. While I was standing in the restroom waiting on her to come out I started feeling like I was going to faint, I called Tiffany twice and started to panic when I couldn't reach her and I said out loud "I don't feel good". I said it twice this white lady offered to get me help but I didn't want to scared Mo so I lied and said I would be okay. When Mo came out I told her we would have to leave the movie because I wasn't feeling well she tried to act like a big girl but I could tell she was disappointed. I know I shouldn't have drove I got lost 2 times and was getting nervous . I called my sister and spoke with her she said for me to come over her house and she would take me to the ER.
On may way there Tony sends me a text "We finally made it". he was talking about to the party and he never responded to the love you text I had sent him........................
I dropped Mo off at Nickee's house and she drove me to the ER. When I got in they wanted me to fill out a form my hands were shaky and I could barely write. Nickee was with me the whole time once I was seen by triage my first blood pressure (BP) reading was 163/104 the nurse took me right to the back where they did a EKG which was fine they drew some blood and started an IV. I was so scared but tried to remain calm to try and bring my BP down.
Tiffany kept checking on me and I still hadn't told Tony anything since he was doing a gig and I didn't want to bother him.
Around 11pm when the party should have ended I sent Tony at text that said "Call me when the party is over ASAP"...................nothing around 11:30pm I'm almost done the IV the blood work and urine were all normal. I texted him, Shay and Necole asking for one of them to call me back...............Necole texts back "Wuz up mom"?
me "Nothing is the party over"?
her "Yeah u okay"?
me "Could you ask your dad to call me"?
her "Okay, you okay mom"?
me "Yeah, just have him call me"...........nothing...... I'm discharged from the hospital and as we leave out I call Tony he answers the phone "YES".
me "Did the girls tell you to call me "?
him with attitude "YES, I'M TRYING TO FIND MY WAY OUT OF HERE WHAT IS IT, WHAT'S WRONG"? .........I didn't want to say anything after that ....I felt like I was really bothering him, I felt sad, I was hurt but I said "I just wanted to let you know I was leaving the ER". ................I told him everything that happened and he stayed on the phone with me until I got home. He showed some concern and took me to get my script filled.
I didn't want to take one of those pills at night (wink) Just knowing they were for anxiety made me think they might cause me to become drowsy and I don't know I don't like taking new pills at night (smile)
I did however take one Saturday morning when I felt myself getting anxious. I didn't get to sleep until 2am and then got up at 6:30am .................well
Saturday
I was woke up at 4 something by Mo who was scared then I was up at 6:30am to get her ready for her trip we drove to the lady's house and knocked on the door only for her to tell us it's next week...............how could I mess that up damn I try to keep everybody's comings and goings down to a science but I screwed this up I even had Tony up early to drive us I felt so bad. I was glad it wasn't that day anyway because when I got home I realized I had left Mo's bathing suit in the dryer which would have meant she wouldn't have been able to swim with the other girls aaarrgghh stress I felt like I was on the verge of a panic attack so I took the pill and went to sleep Tony went to work. I slept until 9:30am when my God daughter Po kept calling me she wanted me to pick her and Ariel up. I know I was supposed to be resting but hey what could I do. I started cleaning up, once everyone was ready we went to the store so I could get the Ice and buns for the cheerleading cookout.
It was nice and we stayed until 4:30pm then went home Tony was at the Legion setting his stuff up. I stopped to get Arenshia so she could go with Necole to Brezzy's B-day cookout in Waldorf about a 35min drive aaaarrggghhh Tony drove us down there and feel a sleep on the road so I drove us back.
P. Clark called to see if I was going to the party and after I told her what happened she was like stay home and this chicked checked on me like 6 times (smile) I went home and slept for 2 hours then was up cause my baby Mama dropped off the girls. They were so happy to see me and I was happy to see them. I went back out Waldorf to pick them up from the party. I started getting ready for the Legion and Tausha met me at my place.
Kris showed up too and we had a nice time as always.................I love going places where I guess you would say I'm a regular ..........being a regular is not a bad thing at all (wink)
Duke said some new lady on the board was saying this would be Tony's last week there because he wasn't catering to the crowd with the music ................ I don't know what the hell she was talking about people was dancing and besides her there was a white guy and girl in there. I told Tony what the white lady with the Mullet hair cut said and this fool started playing country music being funny and the white boy jumps up and starts doing a line dance to *Red neck woman* of course you know I tried to learn it (smile) he played some Green day and other pop/rock type music for a while.
O well like I told him now he can do more private parties anyway ...no worries
Donyalle wasn't there and Jerome didn't show talking about was I going to give him some....aaaarrrggghhh I'm really getting sick of that kinda talk from him for real.
I got Nacho's from 7 Eleven again and we Tausha , Duke, Tony and I sat out front chilling for a while.
Sunday
Tony was up for church and ready to head out the door he didn't even bother to wake me or the family up so we could go ..............that's 2 weeks in a row when he came back he was ignoring me, giving me short answers so I left him alone. Took a pill dropped Necole at practice and when I got back Tony said he was taking Po and Ariel to see Pumpkin since he was having a cookout and had the pool up. Which was fine with me I took Mo and Shay with me to see the movie we missed Friday. It was so good and funny watching Shay and Mo jumping around like silly girls (lOL)
Necole was already home when we got there.
I started cooking dinner
I talked with Kris some via text, Nika sent a text checking on me as well guess Tak has a water problem too (LOl) I don't want people worrying about me.
I watched some TV with the kids.
Then
Meesha called me .....you know P can't hold water either she told her what happened to me Friday Meesha was sounding all concerned talking about I be doing too much and maybe I need to get away and come out hughsville and hang with her for a weekend to rest and stuff (smirk)
I washed clothes
and got to bed by 12am
Monday
I was 30min late for work
Tony was still being short with me
when I kissed him goodbye he gave me the cheek
he hasn't called me all day and when I called to tell him I made it to work I could tell he didn't want to talk to me. So I just got off the phone .......I feel rejected and I hate the way he makes me feel when he treats me this way. I'm trying to not let it get me down I knew he wouldn't call me all day so I shouldn't even be tripping off it.
Rude boy called me but I let it go to voice mail now he's pressed for my convo, laughs at my silly ways and makes me feel good inside he's a cool dude but I just didn't want to talk to him right then.
T called me today and was so irritating he could tell I didn't want to talk so he got off the phone and has not called me back. And there he is wanting my convo (lol) too funny ......just too funny.
Tiffany and Felicia are talking about some people who found a 3k diamond ring and I couldn't remember if mine was 1 or 2k so I called Tony to find out and they said he wasn't at work so I called his cell and his phone is off. I called the house to see if he maybe there and Necole told me he wasn't home and that Mo found a condom in the dryer........it was un opened. I told Necole to keep it in her room and not to say anything about it...............I feel my heart racing and my breathing getting deeper and faster.................I don't want to go home ...............I want to buy a plane ticket and fly to my Momre ......just thinking about her brings tears to my eyes I know she'll hug me and tell me everything will be okay ...............once she talks to me everything will be just that .........................OKAY.............I'm going to get a hotel very soon to spend the whole weekend chillin, relaxing.....yeah
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As a matter of fact I'm going to ask Momre if I can come for a visit and stay with her for a weekend in September I need to get away ....................
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I don't like it when you get all worked up like that! You are totally stressing and you probably do need some time away! Poor thing! I'm sorry to hear that all that happened to you on Friday. I think I even texted you that day because you told me you was at the movies, I had NO idea! I'm sorry to hear that and I'm glad you are feeling better! Try real hard not to let stuff like that get you too down, you really don't need the stress! Luv ya, sweets! 
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