I feel so drained and not sure why. I just don't feel myself.
T called twice yesterday the convo was smooth I won't allow myself to fall back in his trap again. I really want to see how far he is willing to go ...............will he finally meet me or what?
After we picked Mo up from aftercare we went to Target so I could find her some Brown knee socks or tights for her GS ceremony. The damn socks were $5.25 I was like damn I only had $10 and Tony had the quarter (whoop di do). When we got home I was pissed Shay was there but James and Necole went to modeling class .....I told them we all were going to support Mo but did they listen ....NO !!!! So I called Necole and told her they would need to catch the bus all the way home not to even call me to get them from Addison road since they were so wrong. Mo was asking for them and everything. But we made it nice for her anyway I took pics and we clapped real loud when she said her GS promise. They served cake and juice it was very nice.
Before we went home I went to Giant to get some stuff for Tiff to make her crab dip and some ham lunch meet for dinner. When we got home I went right to the computer to check my MySpace page while Tony made fried Baloney and ham and cheese sandwiches for dinner and he watched Cheaters. The kids did not get home until a little after 9pm.
I was in bed at 10pm but not sleep. Mo read me a book and I watched Family Feud with Tony I wanted to read more of my book Cursed by L.A.Banks but decided to watch a few game shows with Tony instead. The book is okay I'm not sure I like the writing style of her and that's what's making the book not a very good book for me. I love the story idea but just not the way she writes it. I could also see it as a movie
. I 'm not sure what started this weird vibe between Tony and I but when I went to snuggle up
close to him to hold him while I fell asleep he kept saying "Could you back up I don't have much room". and "Your in my space". shit like that I said "What's wrong with you ...first you complain I don't hug you at night and now when I am your trippin.....do you really want me to back up? Just say it and believe me I will". He didn't say anything but now as I write this I think I remember how it started.
***back track***** I was talking to him about the Bose system and how I really can't tell the difference between it and a regular stereo just like the in TVs
and I want to see a HGD...HD...HGTV or whatever it's called to see if I can see the difference...him "I was trying to show you while we were in Target the other day but you kept looking at the toys". me "For real when". him "I said hey yaw look at those TVs there so clear but you kept looking at the toys". ........okay hold up I'm laughing
.....okay now I said "Tony I'ma tell you how to talk to me when you want me to see something .....say Toni come here let me show you the TVs you were talking about not just hey yaw see those TVs". him "Well you'll see one one day". he said it in a smart ass way so I said "I sure will I can see one tomorrow". him "Why don't you go see one tonight"! ******** and that's how the shit started
I had a crazy dream last night I was screwing the short man across the street it was wild.
We woke up on time and in a good mood.
We prayed before we left the house
and everyone was on time. I called up to the school since Mo told me a lunch lady was mean to her and put her on the stage for no reason. Ms. Jones the principle said she was going talk to Mo and get back to me since the cafeteria workers don't arrive until 10:30am. Mo was crying and everything
she said she didn't do anything and was hurt so I have to get to the bottom of it. I hate going to the schools and they hate seeing me come especially when someone done did my baby wrong.
I get paid tomorrow
and I won't be in the neg
....boy am I excited I have to get 5 new towels, a shower curtain liner, a pic for the bathroom just the first place I need to fix a little before my mom and them get here.
I just got a call from Darren he asked me to be his riding partner at Daytona Beach bike fest in March
.......how sweet of him .....damn. I told him I would have to check my schedule but if I can find a few friends to go with me I will go. I think it will be fun! This is where I miss Cheryl ....my down n dirty running partner. He also asked to take me out for lunch for my B-Day and wanted to know what I was doing for the weekend. Now he put a smile on my face this morning. And then about 2 min. ago I got a text from an unknown number with a 410 area code that said "hey, sweetness how you doing? got a b-day coming up soon uh"? I wonder who it is I sent a text back "fine. Who is this"? No reply yet.