Friday well lets just say this first ever since I was in the 6th grade I felt like I had a split personalty and I have mentioned it in my previous blog and to a few close friends and of course Tony shit he thinks I have one as well. So anyway when we were talkng one day last week and he brought it up he said its like Toni is the one that's into her family and just the nice girl I married and then Jada is the buck wild chick who just likes to party, flirt and is out of control shoot she'll smoke a cig with me where Toni wouldn't. He said he loves both of them   I say this because I'm beginning to think it's true and I've told Dr. O and he never dug deeper into it anyway.

Friday I was all anixious to see Tony and even called him to say "I can't wait to see you". He called me before I left work and said "We're about to meet up and see each other". Now I'm not sure what happened within the 30min ride to him but I just wasn't feeling him anymore I was ready to hit the streets. P called and said Jeff was coming to her crib and she was going to have a get together.When we got home Tony started  cleaning up and I was getting anxious to go out. I started washing clothes while he went to the store I changed into my Seven jeans, a black off the shoulder top that has Gold and Bronze designs on the front and my Gold sequin 4 in sandles I was ready to hit the streets. When he came back he was like "Where you going"? me "P is having something at her crib later tonight and I'm just bored". him "Oh, Troy needs me to pick him up from the hospital you wanna ride"?  what kinda excitement is that but I went anyway just so I wouldn't appear too bitchy and anxious to leave. On the way there Tony stopped to get us some beer which kinda loosened me up for a while. Once we picked him up from Arlington hospital Troy was teasing me about not drinking and stuff. We listened to a new go-go CD Tony just got all the way to Troy's place. I Spoke with P. who said "Girl you know how Jeff do us he's not even answering his phone now so I'm just chillin at the crib if you and Tony still want to come through". I decided not to go since Tony was already heading in the direction of our house. I was drinking beer which puts me to sleep if I'm not out partying and of course I had to piss. Once we got home I decided this was going to be another boring Friday see this is what I have to look forward to he had no plans so I would have to suffer inside the house aaarrrggghhh. He could tell I didn't want to stay in and said "Come on baby lets go do something". Well his something ended up being this new Sports bar type placed called Charlies which was blah I was still bored. I drank another beer and we people watched. Tony said "What's wrong with you I get this feeling you want to be somewhere else, I thought you couldn't wait to get to me and then you just switched up like that". Me "I don't know Tony I'm just bored I don't mean to make you feel like this..... I swear I just don't know why I feel like this". Needless to say we went home and we went to bed no love making and I could tell he had a attitude or maybe he was more so sad because of the way I acted.

Saturday we were up at 6:45am Tony was still in his feelings and I wanted to make it up to him and planned to be happy, and to stay in a good mood showering him with affection...........He wanted to get to the admissions place before 7:30am and we made it a little after 7am of course it failed (we knew that) he found out a guy he knows works up there as the manager so were gonna be all good.  after we left there we went to Captains football game where I met a friend of Tony's I'll call him Big Man he said "I'm a very,very good friend of your husbands I know a whole lot about you lets just say I'm his friend he keeps in the clost .....not that kinda closet but you won't see me unless some shit is about to go down .........you feel me"? me "Oh yeah .....okay I got you.... your a hammer man right"? he started laughing and shaking his head then to Tony he said "Man your right your wife is hood with it". It's amazing I had no idea he had killer friends anyway. We stood around talking about relationships and shit he was a very nice looking man and his watch and ring were blinding me for real. I saw my sister while she was walking to her van and excused myself and went to speak with her Mike was doing the announcements. My sister kept asking me what was wrong and if I was mad at her. I told her everything was cool and she kept saying she was so happy to see Tony and I together. She also said she misses my blog but I just don't want her to have it this time.

After the game we went to help Tiffany move which took no time at all. I got to see her best friends husband for the first time and since she reads my old blog I could hardly look him in the eye hoping he didn't read it too I mean I am pretty vulgar sometimes and I cheat on my husband so he might not want her hanging around a freak like me.  Shar helped move too and her and Tony were talking about what they were going to do for there Birthdays 16th and 17th of this month. I'ma try to do something. I wont say nothing since Shar reads my blog  nana nananaanana

Necole ended up having a football game at her school she had to be there at 1pm  after I dropped her off (Mo road too) we went to pick up Tony from his job where he dropped the truck off we used to help Tif move. We went to eat at Burger King and then to meet up with Pumpkin at the place he was getting his car fixed. After his car was done we went to wait for Necole at the game (we sat in the car) the game was over at 4:30pm James called and said he had to be at work at 5pm. Tony was like "Tell him to get his ass on the bus shit we won't be home before 5pm". Do you think he caught the bus?..................