Haven't been up to blogging but a WHOLE lot has happened. One thing that has happened I'm not proud of at all and was told by a real close friend that the less people who know about it the better so I have told no one but her ....................let's just say I was unfaithful ...........

it was a man.............

it was good...........

I did it and have decided never to talk with him again ........

I feel so guilty...........

I feel so bad...........

I wish it was a dream ...............it wasn't............. I think my kitty kat still smells like a condom and Tony will know if he sniffs it so I'm keeping a distance.

but

that part is history and I'll never speak of it again.

Those who have my e-mail and cell number please don't contact me to ask questions sorry but I'm not giving up any more info then that.

Okay

TONY

he has been drinking a whole, whole lot and it has made his judgement blurry...............Our 15th Anniversary fell on Thanksgiving this year we had 27 people at our house including new comers

My lil baby sister, Tiffany and the baby, Felicia and her daughter cheeks. Troy didn't come this year he was too sick oh yeah his daughter was at our house too. Long story get into it another time.

Tony was all siced over the anniversary all lovey, dovey and stuff as I was just cooking and stuff it was just another day.

Well anyway I got my ring back he had it all along and made an upgrade to it .....I love it's beautiful.

The next day.......the very next day he's M.I.A from 1pm until 8pm his job was calling looking for him, he wasn't answering any of our calls, he even had a dear friend of his call me with the whole he was helping me move all day type stuff. basic BS which I did call him on anyway he comes home pissy drunk. I let it go because I was going out that night and had to get ready.

The girls were going to the movies and he was dropping them off and picking them up.

Well I get a text from Necole at 12 something talking about she got something to tell me. I leave the spot I was at with Kris, Nickee, and Jacqueline around 1am, hit Taco Bell up and go home.

Necole tells me Tony forgot to pick them up, wasn't answering his phone and they told him the movie was over at 11:30pm he didn't get them until 12:45am so MY daughters were outside in the fucking cold and dark waiting for his ass.

I was pissed they should have called ME.

Necole also asked me if I saw him still drunk sleep out in the truck....uh?...........what?.

I go out and get his drunk ass into the house and tuck him in bed.

I go to hit his pockets but find no money but I check his cell phone. 1st number goes to voice mail because I called from a blocked number Lynette is on the voice mail................................I call back from Tony phone she picks right up. I put the phone to his ear get the stapler open it up and beat his ass awake all the while she screaming are you okay are you safe and he's looking like deer caught in the head lights saying "I don't know a Lynette". but she yelling Tony that shyt was hilarious by now Necole, Emel and Shay bust in the bedroom. I'm yelling to Tony get the fuck out and move quick he's still coming out of his drunken stuber I get the iron plugged up and once it's hot I tell his ass he better move and I mean quick I put it close to him and then I burnt his shoulder, hand and side of his face. I got him out the house and Tonique picked him up.

I just saw him Monday and he moved back into the bed Tuesday night.

Everything is all good

the burn on his face is gone most likely it was from the steam, on the shoulder and hand it's pretty scarred and so are his arms from me scratching and pulling him out the room. WILD I know but not a dream either

Come to find out while he was M.I.A he was over Lynettes house drinking and kicking it he met her 2 months ago at the Legion and they are just .....JUST friends (lol)

ME

My Birthday was on Dec 1st and the people I'm close to and thought would be the ones to call, text, e-mail or something didn't

Tiffany brought me a very pretty silver necklace ......very sexy she also gave me the Devil Wears Prada DVD I love that movie.

Nika,Kris,then KeKe gave me a nice black purse, my sisters,John, my mommy, the kids ordered me carry out got me a cake (Necole with her own money) Mo gave me a rose in a vase and a card she made and Necole wrote this very nice paper for school about ME and when I read it I cried, Troy,Tonique, cousin Shelly,India gave me a card with $6 for lunch (smile),Sherellie, Meesh, Dianna, and Temp all wished me happy birthday.

Sherellie took me out to dinner at LaFontie Bleu Tuesday we dressed up and everything it was a nice dinner and cash bar she brought all my drinks and then gave me a card with $20 we danced, talked and had so much fun.

Angel, Cheryl, P. Clark forgot but I hooked up with Angel after I had dinner and we bar hopped Rude Boy came out and drove us every where and paid for everything (blush) he was in his bed when I called ..............man ole man.........and he got up and came to hang out with me..........anyway

I'm 37 now you guys .........................it's not a dream.

The kids are fine James will be modeling in the Golden Scissors awards on Sunday. He is so excited tickets cost $50 you know I won't be able to see him but it comes on HBO and BET later so I'll catch him then.

We got a new washing machine and now the oven went out a repairman will come check it out Monday.

Tony is taking me out to Friday's tonight for dinner (wink)

mediate on all that for a while I'll be back tomorrow with a little more