When we got home James was still there I guess he called his job but anyway I decided I would take him and this boy got right in the van turned his head to look out the window and didn't say one word to me. When I dropped him off he slammed the door and went in his job I didn't even get a chance to say "Have a nice day at work". I was heated  My only son treating me that way I called Tony "Hey Tony you better go to James job and ask him to find a way home tonight because I won't be picking him up with that nasty attitude he has towards me". And I told him what he did Tony said he would talk to him. Needless to say I'm not sure how he gt home because we did not pick him up.

I got home and jumped in the shower Tony wanted to get to the party by 7pm since he was the DJ  I ended up having to take him and drop him off, go back home and finish getting ready. I made it back to the party about 8pm and the music was already in full swing Tony sure can work the DJ tables for real. The party was okay I was so glad Tiffany (Pumpkin's friend) came because I had someone to chill with. Me and her ended up going to the Liquor store since no one showed us were the drinks and food were. Some chick was sweating Tony and kept walking up to him asking him to play slow shit so she could stand in his view and dance like a broke ass 50 year old stripper when she requested J Holiday Bed I walked right up to Tony kissed him on the lips  and stood right in front of the DJ table and put on a performance for him  he was chessin and ole girl didn't bother him anymore. There were 4 dudes tryin to holla at me one was 22,24,28 and then a older guy. I wasn't flirting and kept staying close to Tony even though I heard some dude ask Duke who I was and Tony told me he saw the dude with the dreds checking me out all night.

Speaking of dreds Tiffany's brother is real cute I was checking him out on the low while we were moving..........shut up Tif I was just looking

I found out Tony was djing the party for free and I got upset because they were collecting money for the bar and just for the party and no one was collecting for the DJ. I was ready to go and told Tony he said "Hold up baby just a few more songs I'll be done at 2am". I'm thinking you have been here since 7pm 7 hours and for free what kinda hustler are you aaaarrrrgggghhhhh. I left I just walked away turned off my phone and got in the car I drove to Taco Bell and then went home to pee. I was back a little before 2am and music was still pumpin, I was tired and knew I wouldn't make it to 8am service and then when he was done it was me and him who loaded the van up..................damn he did it for free and couldn't get no help packing up aaarrrgggghhhh  I could have cursed someone out.

Tony was mad I left him and kept asking me why my phone was off and I just kept saying "I probably didn't have service". Anyway we made love and held each other while we slept. He kept saying he didn't like the fact that I left him and he couldn't get in touch with me he loves me and was worried.

Sunday just as I figured I woke up to late for church. Tony and I made love and just laid in bed for a while. He got up and got everyone doing chores me too. The girls and I watched Heros trying to catch up we watched from 12pm to 11pm stopping to wash a few loads of clothes, shower, get dressed, do hair, eat dinner and wash dishes. Tony grilled ribs, 1/2 smokes and brats he made mashed potatos and butter beans for dinner he invited Demar, Pumpkin and Tiffany over for dinner. She came over later after the guys went to Unos to watch the game. She had on the Disney T-Shirt we brought her from Flordia the girls were all excited to see her.

While Tony was at Uno's he kept sending me text messages telling me he loved me, asking me what I was doing, telling me he would be home soon and was going to put me to bed.  When he got home we both went to bed alright we were knocked out , . This morning we had sex and he was in a very good mood which was good for me since I spent $160 of the fundraiser money and he replaced it for me. It had to be turned into the school today.  Tony to the rescue again. He gave me a freaky deek DVD for Tif to borrow called big booty hoes or something like that. Shoot we still have to watch the one we brought maybe tonight after I watch more Heros. I saw BBS (thats want I'm gonna call my crush) over the weekend nothing much with that. I'm off work Friday and plan to get mine and Shay's hair done at the shop. I went through Tony's cell  phone and found Ava, Frenchy, Jackie, Crystal, Fran, Markita,Sarah,Shala, and Tanya numbers in his cell I have no idea who those women are and don't plan to say anything about it. Just want you guys to know and kinda be my witnesses to the bull shit.

I asked Tony what was up with my account being in the negative and when was he going to square it off like he said he would and this dude had the nerve to tell me he was broke and could not help me with it.  So much for being honest when he couldn't even help me so what was the point of telling him again? I tried to be a big girl about it and did not get upset but I did get off the phone quick before I blew it.  Then I call him to tell him I was sorry if I came across pissed about him not having the money to help me and guess what??????? he said he was outside helping Mr. King bring a 42IN BIG SCREEN TV in the house 42in or something like that I know he didn't say 50in or bigger but WTF???? he couldn't help me out and then told me the TV cost $350 and he couldn't beat that aaarrrrggghhhh I said "Okay well let me let you go I love you". and hung up I can't believe that shit. I need a drink right now. Rude boy calls me about 20 min after I talk with Tony he's been calling me from a private number lately and talking like a sick puppy "Toni, when can I see you? or Toni wanna hook up tonight? or Come go with me here n there? or You working today". I was so tempted to say "yeah lets do that I'm off Friday". But I didn't I said "I'll call you". like I always do and I never call. The way I feel right now though I just might call P. and hang out afterwork.

Friday well lets just say this first ever since I was in the 6th grade I felt like I had a split personalty and I have mentioned it in my previous blog and to a few close friends and of course Tony shit he thinks I have one as well. So anyway when we were talkng one day last week and he brought it up he said its like Toni is the one that's into her family and just the nice girl I married and then Jada is the buck wild chick who just likes to party, flirt and is out of control shoot she'll smoke a cig with me where Toni wouldn't. He said he loves both of them   I say this because I'm beginning to think it's true and I've told Dr. O and he never dug deeper into it anyway.

Friday I was all anixious to see Tony and even called him to say "I can't wait to see you". He called me before I left work and said "We're about to meet up and see each other". Now I'm not sure what happened within the 30min ride to him but I just wasn't feeling him anymore I was ready to hit the streets. P called and said Jeff was coming to her crib and she was going to have a get together.When we got home Tony started  cleaning up and I was getting anxious to go out. I started washing clothes while he went to the store I changed into my Seven jeans, a black off the shoulder top that has Gold and Bronze designs on the front and my Gold sequin 4 in sandles I was ready to hit the streets. When he came back he was like "Where you going"? me "P is having something at her crib later tonight and I'm just bored". him "Oh, Troy needs me to pick him up from the hospital you wanna ride"?  what kinda excitement is that but I went anyway just so I wouldn't appear too bitchy and anxious to leave. On the way there Tony stopped to get us some beer which kinda loosened me up for a while. Once we picked him up from Arlington hospital Troy was teasing me about not drinking and stuff. We listened to a new go-go CD Tony just got all the way to Troy's place. I Spoke with P. who said "Girl you know how Jeff do us he's not even answering his phone now so I'm just chillin at the crib if you and Tony still want to come through". I decided not to go since Tony was already heading in the direction of our house. I was drinking beer which puts me to sleep if I'm not out partying and of course I had to piss. Once we got home I decided this was going to be another boring Friday see this is what I have to look forward to he had no plans so I would have to suffer inside the house aaarrrggghhh. He could tell I didn't want to stay in and said "Come on baby lets go do something". Well his something ended up being this new Sports bar type placed called Charlies which was blah I was still bored. I drank another beer and we people watched. Tony said "What's wrong with you I get this feeling you want to be somewhere else, I thought you couldn't wait to get to me and then you just switched up like that". Me "I don't know Tony I'm just bored I don't mean to make you feel like this..... I swear I just don't know why I feel like this". Needless to say we went home and we went to bed no love making and I could tell he had a attitude or maybe he was more so sad because of the way I acted.

Saturday we were up at 6:45am Tony was still in his feelings and I wanted to make it up to him and planned to be happy, and to stay in a good mood showering him with affection...........He wanted to get to the admissions place before 7:30am and we made it a little after 7am of course it failed (we knew that) he found out a guy he knows works up there as the manager so were gonna be all good.  after we left there we went to Captains football game where I met a friend of Tony's I'll call him Big Man he said "I'm a very,very good friend of your husbands I know a whole lot about you lets just say I'm his friend he keeps in the clost .....not that kinda closet but you won't see me unless some shit is about to go down .........you feel me"? me "Oh yeah .....okay I got you.... your a hammer man right"? he started laughing and shaking his head then to Tony he said "Man your right your wife is hood with it". It's amazing I had no idea he had killer friends anyway. We stood around talking about relationships and shit he was a very nice looking man and his watch and ring were blinding me for real. I saw my sister while she was walking to her van and excused myself and went to speak with her Mike was doing the announcements. My sister kept asking me what was wrong and if I was mad at her. I told her everything was cool and she kept saying she was so happy to see Tony and I together. She also said she misses my blog but I just don't want her to have it this time.

After the game we went to help Tiffany move which took no time at all. I got to see her best friends husband for the first time and since she reads my old blog I could hardly look him in the eye hoping he didn't read it too I mean I am pretty vulgar sometimes and I cheat on my husband so he might not want her hanging around a freak like me.  Shar helped move too and her and Tony were talking about what they were going to do for there Birthdays 16th and 17th of this month. I'ma try to do something. I wont say nothing since Shar reads my blog  nana nananaanana

Necole ended up having a football game at her school she had to be there at 1pm  after I dropped her off (Mo road too) we went to pick up Tony from his job where he dropped the truck off we used to help Tif move. We went to eat at Burger King and then to meet up with Pumpkin at the place he was getting his car fixed. After his car was done we went to wait for Necole at the game (we sat in the car) the game was over at 4:30pm James called and said he had to be at work at 5pm. Tony was like "Tell him to get his ass on the bus shit we won't be home before 5pm". Do you think he caught the bus?..................