Yesterday I worked my part-time job and as I was waiting for the train to go home Tony called me on my cell he wanted to know if I had left work already. I told him I had  and would see him when I got home. Man oh man when I walked in the door he had this smile on his face. Our daughter Necole was all excited to see me (she's 14) Tony was telling me he made a mexican dinner and he seemed very happy about it. I got the last load of clothes out of the dryer from yesterday and then made my plate. The food was the bomb  and I told him how good it was. I brought some for my lunch today.

Tony turned on the game and I got Mo (our daughter 7 years old )ready for her bath and then Necole and Shay(our daughter 13 years old) rode with me to pick James (our son 16) up from his job at the bowling alley. When we got back Mo was in bed doing a work book and as I walked past Tony he was like "Come here". I went to him and he set me down on his lap and held me close.

I went to the room to watch the stories and was knocked out by 10pm. I felt him get in the bed but did not wake up until early this morning like 5:45am and we talked again he was acting as if everything was over and final he mentioned how there was someone out there for both of us, we just weren't going to work, he wanted the old me back the one who depended and needed him. I couldn't say I would be that old me. I mean back then I was a housewive and he ran the streets on me, sometimes did not come home, he had other women, he was mean as shit to me and treated me like nothing but a housewive. I guess he wants that back ...................but he said that's not it. He does not want me to be a sucka for him just to do everything like I used to.

When I got to work this morning he was talking normal when I called him to let him know I made it to work. I don't know you guys I want to do right by him and I want us to be happy together but it's going to take us both to change. I was glad he slept with me last night and I hope he does tonight as well I want some of that good sweet love making  

I know I'm not in love with him but I know I could be again.