Friday
Let's see I worked 2 hours OT .......then went home ........trying to see what I did .....Oh yeah when I got home I started getting ready to go to Temps crib.......Tony was gone to the store and called to have me wait until he got there so he could see me before I rolled out.
The thing was he wanted to beg me to not give up on our relationship and what I keep telling him is that I don't feel any more either way about our marital aspect of the relationship .....I'm just tired of that back and forth and I am happy with the way things are as of now. I told him I am not willing to end my friendship with Lee for him and if Lee and I end our friendship it will be on the strength of something we did between us to cause it to end. I told Tony I want him to be happy and if going back to Lynette will do that for him then he should do that but he told me that it is over between them because he has been caught and the thrill is gone it's over and he wants his wife back.He finally let me pull off and I was on my way..... I stopped to get a bottle of wine to take with me to Temps house then was on my way to the party.
It was a nice crowd and P. Clark, Jo, Angel and Sherellie were all there so I was right at home of course it was other people I knew but just stuck with them.
Jo and I talked about the Tony situation and then Rude called me he wanted to hook up and I was willing to meet up with him until he said he wanted to get a room!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! oh hell ta da naw he said "We won't do anything". yeah right I told him I was just going to head to my crib............Yeah I mean I don't feel anything towards him in that way as a matter of fact the only.........ONLY person I have a physical/sexual attraction to is Lee and I mean that I am content with just having him a part of my life .........anyway.
I text Tony to see if he wants me to bring him something home because I was on my way. He says "yeah some beer". ....why didn't I know that already (lol)
I called to speak with Lee for a little while he was chilling with his uncle, cousin, and one of his friends while they watched the game so I didn't want to hold him...he had been sending me text through out the night (smile)
When I got home Tony was not there I didn't trip he called later talking about did I get the beer and saying he was on his way home 2 hours later he still wasn't at the crib I called again to check on him and he said he was coming. *rolling my eyes*
Saturday
I wanted to go to work but after practice I was beat and then come to find out there was a vets bike convention going on downtown the white people kind I ended up doing OT Sunday and no bull I saw 1 black guy on a bike and he had a white chick on the back (lol, smh)
Anyway
Practice was so much fun we got it in and I'm getting so much better with my kicking skills coach wasn't there and neither was Tiff for a sec I thought he was showing her mother some houses or something I clearly forgot she was going to see her father in W. VA and when I didn't hear from her and she didn't return my call I started to panic I sent Kris and Neka and text I also called her parents house and left a message and had Felicia call too. She finally hit me back either late that night ....naw it was Sunday I think any way point is she is okay (cheezin)
I lounged around after my shower man it was hot as hell out that joint ..........Arenshia came over to spend the weekend.
I stayed in the house the whole day .....man I really can't remember what I did I know Tony was home with me.
We did some cleaning up I remember that and then well anyway I can't remember so no since trying to make up some shyt........so.........NEXT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Sunday
Woke up and took my ass to work to get 5 hours OT (smile)
When I got home I took a shower it was sooooo hot outside and to think I thought the white ......I mean vets memorial bike ride out was only 1 day .......I was stuck in traffic for almost a whole hour on the way home. I was so happy I had put gas in my van before I went to work.
I took a nap with Mo for a little then went downstairs to sit with Tony and fell asleep watching TV with my head on his lap while watching that guru movie with Adam Sandler being a beautician it was good too but we had to leave and meet the lady regarding the Navigator limo for James and his friends for prom.
Then to Tika's house for her cookout.......she told me Nickee had a cookout at her house Sat. I was thinking dang my own sister didn't even invite us but it's all good. She ended up coming to Tika's house way after we left.
There was this guy at Tika's house Brian was trying to rap to me .....he had on sandals .....the flip flop kind so you know he had NOTHING coming (lol) Tony was making jokes about dude to Necole and Arneshia joning and stuff (lol)
Lee called while I was at the cook out and I took the call.Tony saw me on the phone but said nothing.
When we got home we chilled I ended up giving in and we had sex ...............now sex with Tony is way different then it is with Lee ...............Both is the bomb so there was no complaint .........the only difference is the size .......now with Tony it's a lot more room ......(wink) plus the trip downtown with Tony is a wonderful experience I would hate any other girl to take .....and that's real talk .............Lee never has to go downtown as far as I'm concerned with those false teeth his ass can't tell when he is biting the shyt out of my clit ...............LLS!!!!!!!!!!!! Cheryl had to tell me that shyt when I had a 2 hour talk with her telling her about Lee and shyt OMG!!!!!!!!!! we laughed until we were both in tears she was like "Yous a dumb bytch your missing out on the best head ever if you could only get passed the false teeth and let that nucca take them out during sex" LOLOLOLOLOLOL just thinking about that conversation has me in stitches lololololol I don't think I told you guys but that nucca be biting the shyt out my clit and I was like dayum his oral is the worse and Cheryl had to tell me the reason was because he couldn't feel how hard he was biting and I should tell him to just give me his teeth because he won't need them for the trip downtown lolololololololoolol
I just had to call her on the phone that shyt was funny and we were both laughing again ......man I love Cheryl her and Melissa just brought a house in WVA not to far from Theresa she said ...............Man I have a place to visit again and not to far weekend trips here I come. 
Later that night my girl BC/BG called me she was in town and asked me to hang with her and one of her guy friends to check out a strip joint I knew the one they were talking about and said I would meet them there. I mean I only live up the street from the place right? right! so why when we get there it was my second time being told I couldn't come in the chick working the door was like it's a private party you can come in but the girls can't!!!!!!!!!!!! crazy I know the bytch was hating on us must have been some busted bytches in that joint
anyway
We drop my van back off at my house I hop in his truck and off we go in search of another spot this spot he takes us to is out in Seabrook I think Tony told me it's called sensations ......there is not a strip joint he is not familiar with (lol)
dude paid for us both to get in and when I stepped foot in the spot I was like dayum! nucca's were lined up in chairs on the side of the walls with chicks grinding all hard on their dycks and I was like this is so gross look at these guys do they not realize for a few more dollars they can get the real thing or with some chicks a dinner at apple bees and a weeks worth of phone boning and they can be in like flyn who ever he is *rolling my eyes* (lol)
BC/BG had spotted a chick working her shyt giving some chick a lap dance and she decided she wanted one from her.I was excited she was going to get a lap dance and thinking maybe now I won't be so bored and I might get wet. I wasn't getting turned on by the slightest and all I could think about was what Lee is doing. I told him I was going to the strip joint and he was like cool. He doesn't like going to see strippers which after seeing some of those desperate looking dudes I like the idea of him NOT going anyway while she was getting her lap dance I was watching but not turned on in the slightest even when the chick pulled her thong to the side and showed her puzzie I was like dayum they show it all it's so clean shaven and she had her clit pierced. when the chick was done she got in front of me like she was gonna give me one I shut that shyt down and was like "Naw baby girl I'm straight". There was this one chick who was sexy and I might have tried to get at in a different time and place but it wasn't doing anything for me I may have needed some drinks ......some dude was in there trying to get my attention and off the drinks I may have got some dayum cell phone money.
I called Lee on the way to my house and we talked on the phone until Tony finally came up stairs he had no idea I had left and had hung out at the strip joint (SMH)
Monday
lounged around all day
Tony grilled the kids invited a few friends over and we watched movies noting much went on just a bunch of chilling a lot.
Later that night while I was talking to Lee on the deck Tony was getting all mad I was like "You told me I could talk to dude just not in the house". I mean he goes back and forth and it's crazy really crazy not talking to Lee makes me sad I miss him dearly when not talking to him and it's crazy.
Tony was telling me Lynette called him asking him why he hasn't called her and he told her he was working on getting things straight with his wife she said she has a going away present for him and he was like "Where am I going hold up". I said she better not act stupid because I will set that whole apartment complex on blaze if she try to hurt my man that's real talk. She said she was going to bring it to him on Sat. I want to be up there on Sat. so I can see her and jump out on her ass ...........naw that's not right I'm gonna leave it what they call the hell alone.
Tony told me she gives good brain and even swallows I was like nasty bytch I know he loves head and since I don't enjoy doing it and find it pointless I really don't handle that business well so I'm not even tripping off it he said one time she was on the dyck so long he fell asleep. He said she was mad but o well.
I love the fact Tony and I can be cordial about things he has moved his stuff to the basement and I know it's hard he keeps saying he is going to back off and let the chips fall where they may.
Lee
Okay he brought up the fact again that he is jealous of me dealing with other guys. He said when he gets his own place he is going to have music on all the time except one TV for his movies and then he said "What you gonna be doing while I'm watching the Wiz"? He said it a bunch of times and then was like "Do you hear me"?
finally after he repeated it again I was like "I won't be there if you watching the Wiz when you know I'm scared of those monkeys".
him "okay so you not gonna be at my place uh"? He sounded a tad hurt
Lee likes me and wants to be with me one on one I bet when he gets his own place I could move in and he wouldn't even trip. It's like without saying it he does want a committed relationship with me I told him "Your dyck belongs to me now I don't want anyone old or new getting any".
him "Hold up old too I thought we said".
me "Well I changed my mind your mine now everything about you belongs to me now".
him "Hold up your taking on a big responsablity that means you have to handle me ....um...yeah....when I want it....I know you won't have a problem doing that so okay we like one on one now right"?
me "Yeah". Okay so I got to thinking hold up this is like a committed relationship which he clearly told me he didn't ever want again so later on that night I picked a fight and said "As I matter of fact I don't even want to own you anymore I'm giving you back".
him "Why??? oh you just gonna give me back now uh? I told you I don't like that word own Toni you can't own a person".
me "Okay what ever anyway remember you said you didn't want a relationship ever anyway and when I got to thinking that is just what I was asking you to do sorta like the boyfriend girlfriend thing and the way you were fighting against that makes me feel rejected".
him "Yeah it does sound like that but I didn't reject you believe me I'm not". We ended up talking on the phone until 2:30am this morning.
Oh yeah why he be checking Ruby he was like "Your late uh"?
me "For what"?
him "Your period".
me "yeah like 2 days but this month has 31 days that can happen".
him "What would you do if you got pregnant"?
me "Shyt I would be at the abortion clinic so fast no one would know".
him "Oh yeah you know I hate to hear that right"?
me "Well good thing I can't have kids uh"? then I changed the subject
Mortgage
People called Tony and told him they were going to catch us up and we have one thing on our credit we need to acknowledge but we are no longer 3 months behind God is good people (smile)
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