Yesterday

was a wild day .............woke up and dayum Tony didn't have his truck which meant I couldn't talk to Lee on my way to the metro.

I made it to work on time. I was happy about that.

Work was crazy it seemed like I couldn't get my head above water where that was concerned but I took a deep breath and said "One thing at a time F it". Tiff gave some encouraging words as well.

James was on the radio last night 7pm hot 7 count down WKYS 93.9 talking about the cat walk classic he was all over the radio station just taking the hell over (lol) I text a bunch of my friends and called some too. Some people even got in touch with me first (lol) "Is that your son on the radio".

I got home and started working on the test for Tausha while talking with Lee and listening to the radio. He was busy with his kids and stuff as well. I love hearing him be in daddy mode he is good with his boys. I finally decided to try saying their names during a conversation and guess what I pronounced them correctly at least he didn't correct me and he IS the type that would.

Tony came home around 9 something with Doug right behind him. I told Lee I would talk to him later since he was home and Lee said "Okay call me when you go pick up Necole".

me "Okay". ..............LOLOOOOOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOL on my way to get her Tony say's "You want me to go with you".?

me "I mean you can if you want". he was looking all sad "Usually you would want me to go and be all happy and shyt".

me "Tony do you wanna go our what"? he ended up coming I texted Lee and he texted back "Okay family time uh it's cool". While at the Target getting Necole a bikini for Ocean City Lee texted me "Did TJ get home from the radio station yet"? He also hit me with "Don't let Necole pick out a swim suit that shows too much"!LOLOLOLOL

When we got back home I went right to bed to watch some TV and finish taking more test (smile)

Tony fell asleep and I sent Lee a text we went back and forth that way for a few hours ....I texted with Dianna as well for a little while. Once Lee's replys kept having to much time between them I told him to keep texting with those hoes cause I was going to sleep. He was like "What the hell u tlk n bout". by then I was in ignore mood.

He called me at 6am I got right up and ready for the day.

Talked with him a little in the van.

Then been talking to him a lot at work today.........................I didn't mention this but the last time...........in the car...........there was NO CONDOM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I feel sooooooo bad and scared it was my own doing I put it in not him ...........SMH what have I done..........he said I keep making him feel bad..................he keeps saying "Shorty if I had something I wouldn't have let it go down like that and I told you I been tested and I'm clean I also told you I didn't cheat on my wife and when we separated 2 years ago I had sex with one chick and we used condoms and that was over a year and a half ago and your the first chick since then and if I ever have sex with anyone else while I'm with you I will strap up but I don't see why I would have sex with anyone else and if I wanted to be with someone like that man I would let them give me head but no coochie I am picky and I don't know what I have to do for you to believe me".

Man I feel like KARMA is a mother and because of the adultery my pay back will be to get that juice .........yes I'm scared and he is like lets get tested then okay cause your scaring me so bad I'm thinking I must have something. ......how could I have been so stupid, so dumb, just so so irresponsible ..................Now I'm scared to fugging death ........................

I was giving him the I'm busy today and he doesn't like that (spoiled ass) so when he finally called me back and I talked to him I could hear how relieved and happy he was.

He took the boys to the movies to see the monster VS aliens at 12pm today and talked on the phone the whole time while he was getting them dressed and everything.

Tony called to ask if I had plans tonight I told him I didn't and he asked me if I wanted to hang with him tonight. I said "Yeah sure". .............I said that because I felt it was the right thing to do not because I wanted to I would rather stay home watching TV while resting in bed but oh well he is my husband and I feel like I have no choice.

Necole has left for Ocean City for the weekend National cheerleading competition.

James has his Michael Bivens audition on sat.

I'm going to see my God Son's on Sat. I want Lee to go with me since Rasaan is Muslim and he has 2 boys as well but we know that wouldn't be a good look.

Felicia, Tiff and I are giving an Atlantic City trip and I want Lee to go so we can stay over night and then either rent a car back or catch one of those one way buses back ...................BUT that wouldn't work either everyone is going to be looking for Tony to be on the trip.

ODENTON uh? Sounds good but am I really ready?