I ended up talking to Lee Thursday evening and he said "Toni I missed you so much today out of your 8 hour work day I missed you 7 hours 58 minutes and the other 2 minutes I didn't miss you was because we were on the phone for 2 minutes before we got off the phone because you had to take a call and you know I was mad about that".

We talked and he admitted he was acting like an ass hole and he didn't mean to imply I was just a sex thing he cares a lot about me and yada, yada, yada...

hanging with P. Clark and Angel is wild we have so much fun Kente came through and hung with us he is Bi and we get a long so well this young girl kept checking me out and I was checking her out too she ended up buying me a drink.

I talked with Lee a few times while I was there (smile) I mean I really like him you guys

All in all I had 3 Goose and Cranberry and a Corona (smile) Guys were trying they hand but nucca's up in there can't get no real play just the buy me drinks all night type play with me grinning and giving them some short

shyt flirt wise (lol)

I left from there and went home I wanted to see Lee but went home instead.

Friday

I woke up with no plans to go to work at all I wanted to see Lee and get that thang so I laid around with the complaint that my legs were killing me ....it was true .......Tony was laying around too I was getting mad like "HELLO NUCCA DON'T YOU HAVE A JOB TO REPORT TO DAYUM". anyway turns out he was off but do you think that stopped me from going after what my heart was telling me to do????????????? Nope I said F it I told Tony I was going to go pick me up a pair of flats when the stores opened and I might go into work half day but since he wasn't getting up I would drop the kids off at school. I called Lee when I dropped Mo off and he was like when you drop the kids off why don't you come over and chill with me (smile) .................After the kids were dropped off and I was on my way to his crib Tony called me trying to find out where I was and I could hear in his voice he wanted to hang with me but PEOPLE my heart was not there and if I would have went home to be with him and make him happy I would have felt miserable inside I mean talk about how can you breath with out air I would have needed a friggin inhaler as big as a fire extinguisher ...............real talk ............just this distance I feel between Lee and I has me jive trying to catch my breath and my heart hurts just a little ......yeah I'll get to all that when I catch you guys what they call the hell up!

I went to Food Lion and brought Potatoes I told Lee "I want you to make me some fried potatoes he said "Oh yeah"?

me "Look at me thinking I'm gonna MAKE your ass do something".

him "Yeah well you did cause you know I'm gonna do it". (smile) when I got there the garage was open and his mom was backing out the drive way I was standing on the side with the bags and when she looked over and saw me she was like "Oh shyt you scared me hey Toni".her and I are crackin up laughing and when I get to the door Lee is shaking his head he takes the bags from me and walks to the kitchen I go to the bedroom take off my shoes and set my stuff down. "Come up here Toni". I go to the kitchen and he has the TV on in the kitchen (cable) I sit at the table "Hey Toni how many potatoes you want"?

me "I don't care however many you think". We're watching Spider man 3 and he is peeling the potatoes and talking about his brother, kick ball, his mother and money...............once the food is done he makes my plate first and then he makes him some eggs as well...............then this fool gets him self some juice but doesn't get me any so I'm staring his ass down like "You is a straight fool for sure". He says "Aw my bad Toni you want some eggs or something to drink"?

me "I'll take something to drink but fugg the eggs cause when you was cracking them in the bowl you should have thought about me". How dare he I mean I was a tad upset about it but didn't say it I'm sure he could tell from the tone of my voice rude mutha sucka ..........I tell you he is ruff around the edges.

We went downstairs to finish eating in his room. Once done we get in the bed just him holding me while we made small talk until I fell asleep.

I woke up when I heard him snoring I turned to face him while he slept he looked at me, grinned and held me close before he fell back asleep I was sleep right after.

We woke up to watch a little more TV and then we uuuummmmm yeah it was soooooo good and I only got it 2 times today and he got his "Toni I'm about to ....". Ummmmm yeah just thinking about it makes me wet omfg!!!!! the ....is the bomb .....I never thought I would be on dick this hard but I am willing to bet when this ends and all good things must come to an end I will be looking for that ....right there with a flipping flash light in the day light on the kick ball field in full uniform (LOL)

Now this made me a little mad he said he was hungry so I said lets go to Wendy's his lazy ass didn't want to get up so he said lets order Pizza Hut .......okay you wanna order so you must have the money right ?????????????wrong this nucca has got to comfortable cause when the pizza man got there he asked me for money I gave him the $15 I had and will you believe he had the nerve to come back and say LOLOLOLOLOLOL I can't even say this without laughing because I am so not used to a nucca with no cash flow ....at least a nucca showing me he doesn't have any cash flow he said "You got 5 more dollars"???? LOLOLOLOLOLOL I didn't even open my eyes (I was still half sleep) I did roll over and say "Lee if you don't get away from me how the hell you order and didn't get a total to see if we had enough money before dude got here I don't have any more money I am tapped what they call the hell out"! he went back upstairs and must have found it from some where...........a safe perhaps or his mutha flipping wallet but he found it and was eating when I woke up.

We ate looked at some more TV and lay in each others arms his son called him and he spoke with both boys while I laid in his arms then he said put your mother on the phone. I felt uncomfortable at first like I was ease dropping but the convo wasn't about much and then he said "We have to have a long talk so I will call you tonight". I was thinking dang I wonder what that is about.......I sorta thought it might be about me but then again when do I not think it's about me uh? (smile)

I left his house around 4pm as a matter of fact we left together the story about his aunt going to the hospital was true and he had to go pick her up.

Tony had called me twice while I was over there I answered once and the second time I was sleep so I let it go to voice mail.

Oh yeah while Lee went to take a shower he was gone for a real long time and I looked at his phone his text message screen was up (If any one knows how to operate a IPhone let me know) I can see Natalie name at the top and I think her writing was in white cause it said "I don't know maybe we can get together tonight". and he said "Gotta pick my aunt up she was release from the hospital today". then she said "Okay cool hit me up later". I was burning up inside and was dressed and ready to go home when he got back to the room he said "What you doing ready to go who said you could leave now".

me "I'm gone".

him "Not yet I'm not ready to go yet". I sat back down on the bed and watched him get dressed then we rolled out he went his way I went mine. He called me as always and we talked all the way to my house about nothing much I had this Natalie bytch on the brain I mean he doesn't fugg with white girls so she is a black chick and aaarrrggghhhhh forget about it.

Okay wanted to give you guys something so Saturday will have to come later I am so far behind!!!!! Oh yeah and Friday night too SMH