12:30pm Lee called "Hey, what you doing"?

me "Just working what you doing"?

him "Watching Fast and the Furious on the computer".

me "Was it good"?

him "It was okay predictable".

me "Oh yeah"

him "So what you gonna do for lunch today"?

me "Eat my left overs from last night".

him "Oh yeah ....well I'm not gonna hold you I just wanted to hear your voice".

me "Okay bye"............................Now this whole conversation I am sounding up beat and he is sounding a little sad

1:40pm

1:57pm

Monday

Anyway that night while in his room we ..um..........yeah and it was the best I mean he ....um 3 times and me 5 times I was like gosh darn he even said my name and I was looking like did he just say Toni or am I hearing shyt? Yeah he was all up in it ........during 1969 .......um...yeah '69 I kept sliding my hand down the crack until I touched the spot just fingering around it and on it but not going into it. I was getting wetter by the minute and it had nothing to do with his oral either (smile) I love the fact he was allowing me to do something.......be the first. We were all over the bed .....rolling..........talking shyt I mean ............it was hott and you couldn't tell we had just been together the night before. SMH He said "I like you Toni".

Me "I like you too".

Him "Toni and Lee sitting in a tree K.I.S.S.I.N.G ". (lolololol) we started laughing SMH

ANYWAY

I have called it off with Lee .....................hold your horses people not really called it off but I have fallin back I have found my place again and I plan to stay in my place BECAUSE I am sick of this nucca reminding me and shyt SMH! Plus no one leaves me comments anymore because I know you Bishes and Nucca's seen me falling hard and acting a plum ass and yet NO ONE SAID anything .........this is the place I tell all and I do take heed to your advice I mean I'm gonna still be me and do me but I do listen and if someone ....anyone would have said "Hey Toni slow the hell down you sound like a love sick puppy for this nucca I would have fallin back!

Okay after practice the whole team went to Apple Bees to celebrate Kolby B-Day...........I called Lee to tell him this but no answer and we just talked about answering the phone when I call on the second ring or that's your ass (wink) he texted me a I called him back "How the fugg you gonna send me a smiley face when I just called your ass and you didn't answer I thought we just had this dayum talk".

him "Whoa why the fugg you going on me I didn't have my phone on me and when I picked it up I went straight to the text screen to send you a text".

me "Your ass seen you had a missed call from me".

him "Dayum Toni I just said I didn't see that you called me I was in the kitchen cleaning up dayum...........hey Toni baby how you"? That's his way of calming down and trying to start things back off on the right or good foot (smirk)

I went ahead and squashed it....He went for a ride with one of his buddies and then texted me a few times when he got back..................Tony ended up bringing me $50 to Apples Bees since I was broke and trying to still hang but what's new uh? (lol) I always have Tony to fall back on I don't know what I would do without him I mean I'm sure I could have called Lee but his broke ass ..or fake broke ass be acting like he tapped out and plus I hate asking guys for money if I mention it just give it to me (smile)

Okay now Monday I went to get my blood drawn the tests Dr. B wanted done and the HIV screening as well. I told Lee this and he was like "Dayum about time now I don't have to keep hearing this shyt". I decided I shouldn't have un protected sex with him until we both show results.

Okay so when leaving Apple Bee's he asked me if I was coming over........I said sure ..................he was waiting outside for me and when we got in we watched some movie and then he said come on ..........we laid down to finish watching the movie and I said "Lee we're not going to have sex".

him "WHAT"?

me "I don't think we should have it until we get both or results back".

him "Why we been getting it in for a month and a 1/2 and you switching up on me .....I mean the damage is done you think I'm not putting myself at risk"?

me "WHAT EVER I'm clean"

him "Me too but oh you don't believe me because nucca's anit shyt I forgot". Then in his fake ass voice "It's cool ". His ass started begging for it and shyt so I got up to leave and he was like "Don't go....where you think you going"?

me "Home since you acting like it's all about sex"!

him "It is I thought we knew that........see you be confusing me now"..........................................what me confusing him uh? I got his confusion ............This is a sexual relationship and nothing more ..........all about the sex not even the friendship uh........smh ...............I left and before I could put his ass on blocked call he called me I made small talk with his ass but was really quite he was talking a hole in my head "I don't even know where any free clinics are to get my blood drawn do you"?.........I tuned his ass out ran out of gas told him I would call him back.......he sent me a text asking if he needed me to come ........Once I got the gas I called him back and told him I was pulling in my drive way and was cool he said "I know you hate pumping gas just call me or I'll ride with you and pump your gas for you". me "Nice to know let me get off the phone I'm going in the house".

He called me at 6am and went right to VM (lololololololoolol) You know I can see the rejected or blocked calls LOLOLOL He sent me a text that said "Hey you"............I erased it..................then around 9:30am he sent a text " I miss you".

I responded with "Sup"?

him "What you doing"? then a little while later I sent "Working"........................Now I'm not cutting him off, off just getting back to my one way street...............removing the pavement he laid and keeping it moving ......I can't wait until he calls ...which he will and I get to hit him with "I in no way shape or form what to confuse you nor the situation when we want to get it in that's when we should contact each other I mean there is no need for all the time we spend on the phone with each other since it's not about the friendship it's about the sex".....................fugg him yaw know how I get down............speak of the no job having nucca now he just called me "What's up"?

me "Nothing just working".

him "That's what it is uh"?

me "Yeah".

him "I thought you were calling off today"?

me "I decided to come in look let me call you back I gotta take this call".

him "Yeah okay".................Now I know this nucca a little and he is not gonna sweat me or chase me so he won't hit me back and I'm cool with that...IF and it's a strong IF he does call me back then I got his ass right where I want him but I in no way shape or form plan to call him at least for 2 weeks........I can't hit him with my spill until he makes calling me a habit let's say after the 4th (I love even numbers) call I can seem annoyed and hit him with it..............dumb nucca ..............

Okay so I took out the flyer and forgot to bring it to work with Skips cell number on it I plan to call his ass and I haven't heard from Fatt Baby I think it may have something more to do with Tee Tee then or past gang history. I'll know for sure on Sunday if Karen throwing me shade. if all is good I'll be calling him for sure. Darrin sent me the bowling lane numbers he was on last night. I plan to see him bowl for sure now and lets see Big Boi been missing me so I'll go to the club house. Rude Boy ......now I don't want to go back there but nothing wrong with a few drinks but no sex...............then there is CD who I need to call more ................let's get ready to RUMBLE.............Let's get this party started .............RIGHT!!!!!!!!!!