It was a mandatory Kick ball league meeting beginning at 7pm all the teams were to be there Lee said his brother was gonna go but he was staying in I think it had to do with me but anyway.I saw his brother there and we stuck our tongues at each other just like kids. He kept checking me out too I was wishing Lee was there. I was going to go to his place once I left the meeting but .........BUT the team decided to go to My Place .........and I went with them Tiff went too...........I didn't plan on staying late since I had on my practice clothes cleats and all ....now Karen was there talking about me in my cleats but shyt I pulled a few nuccas that night crazy ass Malik was there and when I say crazy I mean Tiff was like girl he was pissed you were talking to some guy about kick ball. Then Don Datta said the same thing. I haven't even gave this guy a kiss and he is sweating me like this ..........true he gots that bread for real......nucca used to run with a well known crew back in the 80's I don't even want to mention the name of the crew it's like Harry Potter and he who shall not be named (lol)

Coach and L was like the nucca is a straight dude but a crazy killa dude and ....yeah that shyt turns me on I mean I've always loved that type and Tony is not that type but Tony and I are total opposites and he was never my type I won't sit here and say I don't love him or never did but for the last 2 years I have not been in love with him. I decided to leave Malik alone on the strength of Lee...................come to find out the nucca Lee had beef with back in the day was Malik ....what a small world..............I told Lee the way dude was tripping off me and Lee wasn't even scared a little bit he asked me how I felt about dude what kinda relationship we had and when I told him it was NOTHING and dude knew that it was NOTHING he said "Bet so if I have to go at this nucca then so be it". I haven't talked with dude since and won't ..........dayum he is caked up ..............OMFG!!!!!!!!!!!!! maybe I won't say I won't just yet but I don't plan on it. (wink) Shyt Lee might not be around forever.

Anyway when we left it was pretty late and since I drove I knew I wouldn't be making it to Lee's house and he was LIVID mad as a bytch I had to tell him to "CALM THE FUGG DOWN".

he was still mad the next day as well talking about how I let Kick ball come before him and everything. I said "Since Ruby came I didn't know you still wanted to see me".

him "Come on now Toni .....think .....I'm about to pick my kids up and won't get to see you for a while I'm not thinking about no Ruby I'm thinking about the getting to spend time with you".

me "Okay I wasn't thinking".

TUES

Lee was giving off attitude that morning and I was upset stomach hurting and all because I knew he was upset with me..............He woke me up at 6am and I was at work early again I love him waking me up (smile)

around noon he was coming around and boy was I happy.

WED

Lee and I talked about this in that and that and this .

I had practice was supossed to scrimmage against Angel's team but they didn't want to they changed their minds I think we scared them....we still got a good practice game in with just us and I got a out and caught a ball (smile)

Lee was on the rode with his home boy to go pick up his kids. (smile) I was so glad he had someone riding with him this time.

I had told Lee that I wanted to see him all next week and I asked him if I put my bid in early enough and he was like "Yeah I keep telling you I don't have anyone one else putting bids in for my time and shyt".

Now later that night while I was talking to him he said "Hey I was thinking remember when you said you wanted to see me every day next week"?

me "Yeah I put my bid in already ".

him "I know but remember I'm a have my kids next week".

me "Oh yeah well the week after that".

him "Naw, why you don't want to be around my kids"?

me "Come on Lee it's not the time for that".

him "Why"? he kept asking that over and over and said "Your not giving me a reason Toni"...........now he is talking all this while his home boy is singing up a storm...........me "Lee I remember how you are about your kids and you said you didn't like having people around them".

him "But Toni your not just people....man forget it we'll talk about it later okay"?

we stayed in touch by text and I missed his call this morning waking me up ...........

Tausha

I went over her house after practice yesterday and this chick hasn't taking any of the test for the MA certification since 2005 so she has 4 years worth of test to take on line and she asked me if I would do 2008 for her ..................SMH...................that's my girl and I agreed to it.

Did I tell you that when we was at IHOP that Saturday she said "Bytch you really like Lee I have never seen you this happy".

Mia said the same thing the other day when I was telling her all about Lee (for the first time) and she said "You know we go way back and YOUR my friend I am behind you 100% no matter what you chose to do. I just want you to be happy and you deserve that happiness can you see your self leaving Tony and are you happy"?

me "Honest Mia I can see myself leaving Tony, living on my own and making it..............and I haven't felt like this about anyone in years real talk he's all I want in my life right now at this moment..........Sam, coach, Fatt Baby , Malik and any other guy you see me talking to or flirt with is just that flirting and just that. I don't want to talk, text , kick it, go out or spend time with any of them ....I just keep them as back up I don't want what Lee and I have to ever end but you never ever know ........so I gots to keep back up.