When I left work it was rush, rush, rush.

I had to get home, change, go to the barber shop, take the kids to Chuckie Cheese, hook up with Lee, drop $20 off to Tausha for gas, pick up a phone with caller ID for P. Clark and then go to her house.

but before I left work I was in for a ear full .........a close your mouth are you serious ear full of stuff from who you may ask???? ......................LEE.

Okay Lee went over his friends house who lives out a little past Crofton.........I told you guys this already so any way on his way home he calls me and says "Hey you want me to pick up James and Necole from school I'm right by Blade and I see all the kids walking with their tan pants".

me cracking up "Naw not this time"...........On his drive home he begins talking his feelings

* He misses me when we are apart

* He thinks about me all day

* He said It's funny how things work out when I told him that usually during the fall and winter months you don't catch me outside and this is the most I've been hanging in this cold weather. He said the night we met he was just saying he was about to bounce when we walked in, then he was going to speak to me but he doesn't approach pretty women because they tend to think they like that but he was attracted to me. He ignored me when I went to the table to ask a kick ball question he would look the other way so I would talk to Count or Champ. He came over to our table to get a closer look at the other chicks at the table. He said he was going to say something to me when he THEN saw my ring and he was like man fuck it I'm going home just then I asked for his e-mail address and said "So do you have a girlfriend or something like that"? he said that let him know.....yeah............

* He said he told his man Troy about me, showed him a pic and told him I was married he said Troy was looking at him all crazy and said "Man what are you thinking a married woman you know how you are about cheating and shyt" Lee"Man I know but she good people and I fucks with shorty like that she my folks". Troy"You don't be feeling quilty". Lee "Yeah only sometimes but that nucca is fucking up man I mean believe me if shorty told me her and her folks were all lovey I wouldn't even be fucking with her".................Then to me he said "That's real talk Toni if you and your folks were straight I wouldn't be fucking with you in this way". ...okay back to Troy Lee said "I fucks with shorty now man". Troy "But what if she gets caught and rail road you"? Lee "Troy man don't even go on her like that for real I fucks with her for real". Troy "Alright man". Lee told me man I must really fuck with you I went at my mans like that about you.

* He said man Toni don't think that when your folks wasn't coming home I wasn't thinking that me and you could get a place together I was even thinking we could work the kids in some way.

* He said he has love for me...but not in love with me he said he could never be in love with me because of my situation. *rolling eyes*

* He said "Real talk Toni I can say I put you on the same status I would my wife I am really feeling you".

* He said since he has been talking to me time seems to be flying and he wishes it would go slower when we are together".

*He said he was thinking about us and he said he feels just like a teenager again being with me ...just the way we act and shyt.

I was listening to him but checking the time as well

1st stop

Home I ran in to change told Shay and Mo to get ready for Chuckie Cheese, played with Marlow for a while and talked to Tony for a bit.

Tiff pulled up just as we were heading out. We had to take the girls with us to the barber shop so they could sit in the car with the baby.

When we got there Dee was cutting hair, we sat and waited the guy Dom was all grinning in shyt he gave me a free movie I think it's called "Witness to the Mob". Then he asked me if I got his text from earlier ..........I had got it but just didn't respond since it said some bull shyt like "I had a dream about you last night and we need to make it happen".............gross gag me with a spoon for real.

Now Bo was all talking to Tiff and I but I already knew something was gonna be up since ...yeah....I was getting those looks ........why this fool send me a text that said "Can you meet me in the back"? I went back there and Bo was all pitching woo and I was flirting back because that is what I do but for real you guys real talk I'm not even thinking about no other nucca besides Lee except Malik and that's real talk. Bo, Dom, Rude, Crazy, Sam, Coach they just flirts when I'm around to keep me busy but my time, convo they gets none.

Uniform talk was just like what I thought he does T-Shirts so he was going to do the T-Shirts, printing on the shirt and numbers on the shorts as well he will do everything for FREE except we have to buy our shorts. If we get the basketball jersey style we have to pay for the jersey and then he will do the print for free. I'm not tripping off the money but everybody might not have it so Tiffany wants to run it pass the team I say we make our own decision and that dayum coach he wants this and that but isn't his ass just THE coach ..........anyway

2nd stop

Drop off the money to Tausha

3rd stop

I took Shay and Mo to Chuckie Cheese.........Mo was excited and I couldn't wait to drop them off. I told Nickee to bring the kids over this weekend and I would have Mariah's gift then.

4th stop

Lee's place he was outside waiting for me when I pulled up......man the way he greets me ............makes my panties wet for real and all he do is be standing out there with this big ass smile on his face when I walk up the drive way (chezzin).

He knows I don't have much time ...........yeah and that's like we teenagers too lets just say ....yeah....that shyt was bananas real talk ..........I didn't want to leave and he didn't want me to leave either. yet and still he says "I am still in control Toni when I find my self to the point where I'm not in control of my feelings anymore then that's when we can fall back or IF your ready to leave your situation then we can do that too and I'll deal with what ever comes my way but yeah I'm here baby I'm not going no where". When I leave he decides he wants to go get something to eat so he comes out with me and we start .........well he started it slapping boxing in the street man that shyt was funny (lol) He stays on the phone with me until I get to P's crib so

5th stop

Target now I was in the one near P's house and when I walked in I was looking all confused so I said "Where would phones be"? and Lee was like okay stop walking but I was still walking and he was like "I said STOP WALKING". So I did and he said "What do you see"? I told him and he said okay go this way towards the cameras and stuff lololololololololoololol

6th stop

P's house it was just her and I of course the baby we drank and ate and talked like we haven't done in at least well 2 years. Man we talked and she let me talk a hole in her head about Lee she asked questions she laughed and omg it felt good to get it out .....to get out how I really felt to someone (smile)

like I said 3 aces and 1 is like a queen now cause she be acting shady but out of the 3 P has been that ear I needed when it came to Lee.

He sent texts every now and then with just a smile or hey you (he got that from me) or thinking about you , miss you just to let me know I was on his mind.

time was flying and I left around 1:30 drunk as shyt and I called Tony and told him I was on my way home.

He had went to the Fish Market with John and I was surprised he was home so early.

I got in the van and called Lee I said "WAKE UP"? we talked all the way to my house. (blush)