First off if I don't get a new wig I'm gonna go crazy this joint is the worst aaaarrrggghhhh

Anyway Gotta wait until I get paid so no use in complaining about it.

Ths guy Andre

Ladies and Gentlemen he has be already acting different out the gate............Now I keeps me a I don't give a fuck attitude right????? It's nothing for me to put a nucca on blocked call and ignore his text messages ......IT'S NOTHING ....I might go weeks even months with out hearing from them or even care because I would not be the one to call them .....that fear of rejection.......But with him I keep trying my hand I have called him first, sent him thinking about you text messages, and then this morning when I sent my friends a snow bunny pic of me blowing a kiss I included him .....................I sent it to Tony, Rude and Crazy too but I sent it to Andre .................he called me ASAP he told me how sexy it was and how my lips were looking so good he said he can't wait to see me next week might be too long and if I leave it up to him to say when he wants me over he would say everyday after work and to be honest I want to see him before then too..............It's like I'm .....I don't know ....lost my I don't give a fuck attitude..................I plan to go see him before next week ..............

I sent Rude Boy a text "You called last night what was up"?

him "miss u.....cute pic.....almost as cute as in person". What got me was the miss u ............he missed me? I called him from my work phone and he said it was true it wasn't a bootie type call he just wanted to here my voice he was missing me. We didn't talk long he asked for my work number ............I gave it to him and he said he would call me back.

Last nite we had this guy come over to discuss Ocean Blue it's some sort of air filter ...............I was helping Phyllis and Yvonne out by listening and in return got a 3 day 4 nite trip but you don't have to listen to a time share thing our anything ............anyway it was supposed to be a flipping hour dude got to the crib at like 7:30pm and didn't leave to 10:30pm I missed American Idol and everything. Meesh was texting me and then laughing at me because dude wouldn't go home. I left him and Anthony talking after we told his ass we were happy for the free gift and to take his $2,546.00 machine and GET TA STEPPIN (lol) I had to watch Baldwin Hills with the kids...........................

It was sad when he told us his daughter Erica died of a brain aneurysm ...............Tony started being concerned telling me I should get a CT SCAN since I be having bad heads .............Migraines.............Okay yaw know I be having anxiety attacks ........I started getting worried and I remembered Tiffany saying I should get one and boy oh boy I almost had to take one of my pills just to fall asleep.

Tony got in bed and we made love it was okay my mind wasn't really into it...................kept having flashes of Rude ............aaarrrggghhhh and then naw I don't want to say................okay I keeps it real with yaw ........then I had to keep saying Tony's name in my mind afraid I would say RUDE out loud OMG! Bad, Bad girl...Anyway why this morning he said "Every time we have sex my dick be itching"? Now I was cool and asked "How long this been going on"?

him "A year".

me "A whole year and you just now saying something uh? Well nothing wrong with my shyt no burning, itching or discharge so I don't know what you talking about my shyt is good".

him "Oh somebody else say they shyt wasn't itching"?

me "I''m not even gonna entertain what you trying to say, You the one coming home at 6:30am tell me why your shyt itching"?

Him "Oh baby I don't be sticking my dick in nobody, You know what I'm a stop coming in like that I'm a stop treating you like that it's disrespectful".

me "Naw, it's cool cause I'm gonna be still going out".

him "Well me to but I'll beat you home".

me "What ever don't talk about it just do it".

him "Well dayum ....I'll just shut up ....dang you hurt my feelings I gotta go". We hung up but I called him back to make him feel better, make him laugh and put a smile on his face (smile) I think he was trying to either see if I was sleeping with someone else ....you know see how I would react or try to make me think something was wrong so I wouldn't jump out there.

Whatever his ass was doing a sistah has a gyn appt scheduled for 02/24/09 BUMP THAT!!!!!!!!!!!!

This morning the kids didn't have school due to the ice/snow I can't stand the cold so you know the snow and Ice are just the worse to me. Tiff and Felicia called off so today has been pretty quite I have gotten a bunch of work done even with talking to Tiff 4 times today so far my work is getting done .............Andre called me to tell me he was leaving for the day and would call me when he got home (raised eyebrow)

Man last night taking Marlow outside to use the bathroom was hilarious he was so funny with the snow. He couldn't even use the bathroom we had to resort to letting him pee on the paper and then this morning when I took him out I kicked the snow/ice out the way to find a patch of grass .....like he was used too and BAM he had a bowl movement and I was so happy (smile)!!!!!

Oka y about to leave for the day wanted to say Andre gave me his address and the code to get into his appt complex ............................think anything is up with that?