Saturday

I was chilling in the house for the most of the morning. Necole had Cheer practice and she wanted to drop her phone at T-Mobile first so we rode out Clinton her, Mo and I.

T-Mobile is not like Sprint with the ins they state I had to put the claim in 30days after the last use of the phone which was Nov. 14th. So anyway we left without the phone fixed and a F-ing pamphlet about the ins process yada....yada....yada.

Next we went to Petco so I could get Marlow a Leash which he won't even walk on aaarrggghhhh

then we went to Barefeet where I picked up some cute purple heels real cutesie since all the taps are gone off the bottom of my shoes/boots and I wouldn't be caught dead in the same boots Meesh and them seen me in not too long ago I had to get another pair and BINGO they were only $9.99 .....you know how I do if a tag is removable.....................anyway.

McDonalds was the last place we hit before I took her to practice. I got home, cleaned up and started getting ready for the party at Meesh's crib.

Now Tony knew I wanted to be there early so I can help Meesh set up ....but why wasn't his ass home and it was 5:30 ..........then he shows up with one of his home boys a 24 pack of Corona's and a bottle of Henny. I tried to stay calm but he was pissing me off. When I was finished getting dressed. I went downstairs and asked him to come up so I could talk to him. I asked him if he forgot we had plans he said "No what time we leaving"?

me" I wanted to be there before 6:30 which means we're already LATE". He goes back downstairs with dude they rap for a few and then he leaves. Tony starts getting ready he is already tipsy I am like OMG!!! we get in the van and make the long ass trip to Meesh crib. On are way there Tony is sleep and spills his beer all over me........I'm driving.......aaarrrggghhh he jumps up after I scream his name and says "Sorry babe".

We pull up to her house the same time as Temp.................now I had told Meesh I was never rude just cold so I spoke to her did the air kisses and went inside.

Man I don't even want to talk about the party me and this chick Kenya was competing with who could drink more and you know how I gets off the dark liquor....black outs and acting a fool .....knowing this what do I do drink Henny and some shyt I never had before captains Morgan Spice Rum....................I mean who drinks that shyt.................after I drank ....lets say 8 of them or more I was blacking out I don't remember half the shyt I did but I was reminded the next day by Tony, Dianna, Meesh and Sherellie. I was walking in Dianna's heels and fell flat on my face from the knees down, I was flirting with some ugly ass dude named Rick ....GGGGRRRRRRRRROOOOOOOOSSSSSSSSS, I cussed him out and was rubbing on him, I went in the movie room and called my girl Kris then I ended up sleep in Meesh and them bed slobbering..................that was all in a nut shell. At least Tony wasn't pissed at me the next day.

Necole had a cheerleading competition that morning and we didn't leave Meesh house until 4 something in the A.M. knowing she had to be at the gym at 5:30am. I felt so bad she ended up getting a ride all the way there dayum.

I slept most of Sunday in bed for real I was so hungover. Ant was in the streets and took Mo with him, James was at modeling practice, Shay was at church and dinner with Marchae and Necole was at the Competition in Delaware. So I stayed in bed watched Nip/Tuck and slept until they got home.

Necole said they sucked and the pyramid didn't stick. She went to spend the night with Arneshia

Shay said dinner was nice

James said practice was tiring and they went to Ruby Tuesday's afterwards

Mo said hanging out with her dad was boring and she was ready to come home. Tony brought her home and lil Troy as well then he went back out to hang and came home a little before 4am.

Monday

Arneshia stayed the night at our house I texted with Rude Boy most of the day he wanted me to hook up with him but Tony had my van and I wouldn't dare have Rude come to my house. So he was a tad pissed he couldn't see me. he kept telling me to meet him around the corner......come on what is this HIGH SCHOOL?????????

I chilled with the kids and Tony went to work it was chill. can't even really remember doing much

Tuesday

That morning .......yesterday morning Tony and I woke up and had sex twice nucca was siced he had skeeted twice LOLOLOLOLOLOL that is what he said he was siced. We laid in bed watching the news coverage on President Obama until he had to go to work.

I was home with the kids again, My sister and the kids came over, Tiffany brought the baby over too it was later in the evening but that was cool too.

I wanted to have something at the crib but everything started so early in the morning.

Dianna invited me to go to WOW with them Monday but they hang at the one in Waldorf which is a hump for me plus I was still a tad embarrassed by my drunk behavior ..............I think more so that Meesh saw me that way she seems so well put together like a lil miss goodie, goodie Dianna and Sherellie they get down and party they seem more chill I guess.

I stayed at the crib Shay and Necole had their guy friends over and we all just chilled.

Crazy and I texted most of the day.

Today

Tiffany left work early

Tausha called me this morning I took the call ............remember I'm never rude just cold but I do plan to tell her what's up .....that's for sure I'm just giving her time to think for a minute is all.

Neka gave me a dry Morning when I texted her

Kris never hit me back

and Pam was in rare form (lol)

Crazy sent me a Good Morning Sunshine text which brought a smile to my face.

I hit him back with Good Morning

him- what you doing after work?

me- Nothing Wuz up?

him- going to Friday's it's bike night

me- oh yeah I forgot about that I might come through

him- call me I got chu drinks on me

me- cool. Now you guys know Rude Boy hangs up there and I have just the right mind to go up there and have Crazy buying my drinks and sweating me hard while Rude looks on...............now that turns me on (blush)

I'm going to go up there but hate going it alone I have to have someone with me just in case I see someone who knows Tony.

I asked Kris first and she hasn't got back to me .........P. Clark has the baby and Angel hasn't replied yet either. I know Tausha will be down no doubt but...............naw not this time. I might have to go it alone just sit at the bar and get a few drinks .....naw I'm too shy for that.

the question is how bad do I want to go??????

LOl!!!!!!!!!! you will find out tomorrow

Friday

I was going to hang out with Kris but Tony surprised me with tickets to see Notorious....................which I thought was JUST.......O..............KAY........I really could have waited for the DVD. Tony brought Shay a ticket too she has been on Biggie for at least 5 months now and listening to his music a lot ..................Yes, She's 14 but believe me it's nothing she hasn't heard in the streets and I just keep it real with all my kids.

There was a few sex scenes with Lil Kim and then a girl kneeling in front of him appearing to be giving him head but.......I don't know... it didn't bother me her seeing it because believe me I am sure she has seen it before. I don't know what they watch when she be at Petway's crib (lol)

Okay Tony almost made us late for the movie he knew it started at 9:15pm and it was the opening night oh yeah not to mention the theater was in Bowie. I wanted to leave at least by 8:30pm so we could get good seats. I keep calling his cell and getting the voice mail okay I say and around 8:35pm Shay and I leave I had the tickets so F it. He calls me slurring and shyt just got home from the bar he calls when I get to Richie Road talking about "You left me come back and get me". I was heated ..........when we make it to the movies it is no where to freaking park we park in the hotel parking lot and had to walk in the freaking cold.....aarrrggghhh then when we get inside Tony disappears .........aaarggghhhh Shay and I go in to get our seats which just so happen to be in the second row from the freaking front ...aaaarrrggghhhh I go back out to look for Tony who is at the concession stand getting ...get this 1 freaking bag of popcorn....1..... I shook my head and he starts tripping "Where did you guys go"? "where were you "? "why did you leave me"?

me "Where were you we went to get us some seats we waited and looked for you".

him "I was in the bathroom".

me "Well you should have told someone". Oh yeah he was saying all this while slurring and not to mentioned he tried to make me bring in 2 bottles of Corona ...lol....lol I left that shyt in the van.

When we get in the movie he sits 5 seats down from us like I was gonna beg his drunk ass to sit next to me. Anyway before the movie starts he comes and sits next to Shay, sleeps through half of the movie and she has to nudge him awake to stop him from snoring loudly and having the girl next to him laugh at his ass.....Oh what a night!

Then to top it all off while standing outside the movie doors waiting on Shay and Tony to come out the bathroom who is standing across from me?????????????????? MANNY OMFG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! MANNY with his fine ass. He just stared at me he gave me a smile and then his chubby, young ass girlfriend walks out the bathroom just as Tony comes out ..............AARRGGGGHHHH young ass bytch (lol) they were holding hands as we walked behind them out the door I was like dayum back in the day that used to be me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Once I got home it was too late to hang with Kris I didn't even feel like taking that drive I was getting ready for bed when Tausha calls me like "I'll be at your house in 5 min, lets hit it"! I know she meant the club house and wanted to go but was feeling bad like I was supposed to be hanging with Kris and since I can't hang with her I should just go to bed. Then I thought about possibly seeing O'Shay and I told Tony I was dropping Diamond off with Tausha and was ready coat in hand when she knocked on the door.............she drove which made it all the better. Man when we get inside once again it's packed and the nucca's is looking already I see Tim hug him up and then he starts getting fresh talking about my ass and I have to put him in his place...remember he is P. Clarks Ex and I don't play those kinda games.

I see Big Boi and he is all smiles can't wait to hug me and shyt he hands me a glass of the Dirty punch.....

I see CupCake we talk she is bent

I see Scorpion we hug we don't talk because Cupcake puts and end to that showing she is pissed he showing me so much love but you know I eats that type of shyt up (wink)

I see Raymond and Tia we hug and talk Tia tells me how Snaps is at it again and she is leaving the club.

Then as I'm looking at the crowd I see CRAZY looking at me. I start smiling and walk over to him we hug and ****HISTORY********

Back when I was in the club me and him used to kick it. We went to a bunch of functions together and was feeling each other. After I left the group I stopped talking to him. He was the dude I was acting a fool with right in front of Tony ..........the main reason I started seeing Dr. O

****OKAY BACK TO THE FUTURE********

He was all over me hugging me all tight......asking where I been......am I still married?........(yes, people I show him the ring and say "yes") he is all smiles..that nucca giving me the love at first sight look...(lol) ... I walked away from him and he had his boys checking me the whole night anyway he comes over to me and asks for my number I say "Where your girl at"? Now I ask joking with him but this nucca says "At the bar minding her business I got that".................cocking right? I like that! So I give him my number on the sly.......now the whole night he checking me and his chick got the old people look, hard curls and all sitting at the bar the whole time like a bump on a log he shows her some love but if you were blind you could tell he was sweating me. He starts sending me text talking about he missed me, can we pick up where we left off?, Can I go to Florida with him in March?, He wants me so bad, he wants to be with me..............yada, yada, yada..................My response to this is " I THOUGHT YOU WERE SINGLE, I ONLY FUCKS WITH SINGLE GUYS".....he is no where to be seen while we texting right??????????? when I say that this nucca walks over to the bar where we sitting 4 stools down from his chick, stands in front of me and says "Everything is not what it seems". Tausha looking like this bamma is hot and I can tell she looking sorta funny she starts knocking the nuccas trying to get at me with the "He looks bi-sexual" thing ....I play along with her but I can just tell things is getting a little shade of Green.

Now the reason I am there in the first place is to see O'Shay and I don't I am looking around but CAN'T ask because that shyt would be real HOT. I finally spot him a whole hour after we have been there I don't spot his chick either.....when he goes to stand next to the door I give him eye contact and he comes right over to me .......dayum.........(licking my lips) .......dayum he has this swagga .........and I want some of it. He hugs me and asks how long I been there. He then say's Oh you must have just got here when I saw you................WHAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! this nucca seen me and ain't come look for me or say shyt??????? I was like okay I had my chance and blew it ........I understand but dayum can I please have another one (lol)

He tells me he will be right back but he doesn't I mean let me be honest .........I always am with you guys. ............He could have been about to come back but nuccas was staying in my face so I won't say I give up on him just yet..........even though When Tausha went to get our coats I was alone for a while and he didn't come over then either..............the whole time I was dancing he was watching me I could see him through the mirror.............I left disappointed he didn't even try to get at me.

While in the back room getting our coats Tausha tells me that O'Shay's girl was checking us out the whole time and she seen her scooping us. I say "Fuck his girl, and how come you aint tell me then". She didn't have nothing to say and for some reason I think she was lying the whole time after I saw him ....about 2 hours he never once left that door and she never once came over to him I don't think she was there ....I believe that shade of green was getting darker.

Some dude from the week before comes over and talks with her they exchange numbers and kick it. Fatboy ....who is not fat at all! comes over to me and Tank steps to him and trys to interrupt. Some chick comes over excuses herself and talks to Fatboy for a min after that he is back to me rappin my ear off. He is a EMT and I tell him that he has been to my house before on a call my husband was having chest pains. He asks how he is doing and tries to get me to come to the trophy party in B-More like everyone else but I have Meesh party so I decline.

We finally leave I'm quite in the van thinking about Tausha and her actions

so I test her I say "Girl you see them nucca's sweating your girl"?

her "yeah, but they asses looked Bi-Sexual".

me "O'Shay didn't did he"?

Her *Laughing* ........I don't know if she said anything back to me but I do know she laughed

Test number 2

me "I wish I could have talked more with O'Shay".

her "I mean for what how far will things go?, why do you want to cheat on Tony now"?

Me "I always wanna cheat on his ass this is what I do".(LOLOLOLOLOLOL) this got us 15 years and still counting"

her "I'm just saying".

me "Well as long as I take care of home and my family is happy I'm a do what makes me happy and flirting does it for me it's just that".

her " Yeah but you slept with Rude Boy what you call that"?

me " Yeah bad move on my part now I can't say I haven't slept with another guy since '96".

her " You sure can't, When I was married to C I never cheated on him"..............Now I wanted to say "You sure didn't and he was cheating on your ass and you were calling me miserable and unhappy matter a fact didn't he divorce your ass, marry that chick and they just had a baby".

but I said nothing

just gave her the final test

Crazy was texting me the whole way home

I said

me "Girl why Crazy just ask me to go to Vegas with him"?.......Now he really sais Florida but I was losing the trust factor with her and wouldn't dare tell her the real deal ....I just had this feeling.

Her "Oh for real girl tell him you gotta take your cousin, you know how we do shyt he might be like Rude Boy".....I shoke my head like Tony said using me to get the drinks and shyt..............yeah, I see anyway.

I won't be taking her back and will have to keep my distance. I have learned when chicks get green like most of them do when it comes to me and MY FUCKING HUSBAND shyt gets fucked up so what comes to mind is Tony always telling me to check my friends they not all your friends and you should watch what you tell them..............what does that say to you?

Oh welll I called P. Clark and Angel the next day and told them we had to start hitting that spot up. She was down shyt they both were.I mean I appreciate you having my husbands back and all but that nucca gots dirt too and if you gonna have his back don't live off the fruits of my labor (lol)

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