Man I tell you I really don't ask Tony for anything and I can't tell you the last time I said "Tony I need your help".

Yesterday I told him "Tony I need your help I have the money to catch the train but I can't afford to park at the metro so can you drop me off in the morning".

This fool gave me $20 now he knows we 3 months behind on the mortgage and he should be holding on to every dime he has.

Anyway Monday night he tells me he has to go pick up some money that was around 10pm I called and text him no response he calls me talking low and shyt at 1:30am tells me he is with Duke I say cool..............I don't hear from him again until he comes in the house at 4:15am. I didn't complain fuss or anything .....sad but I hope he was doing just that picking up some money.

This morning he gave me $20 again he really refuses to take me to the metro I am so pissed about that because he'll run around for everybody else you know what I'm saying and I don't even ask him to do much for me but that's cool.

Going down Meesh house for her husband Mikes Birthday Dianna coming up too it's her birthday as well. We gonna partyyyyyyy Tony coming with me this time. That's Saturday night and Friday I'm hanging with Kris and then trying to hit the Club house before I go in I have gots to see O'Shay again.

Lisa the new chick I met on Craiglist ............we been talking a bunch I even chat with her on my G Mail acct. She is so cool to chat with and it's like we looking for the same thing .............a female friend with benefits ...........we e-mail, text, chat, talk on the phone, kick it, hang out, sneak a feel when the need arises and have sex when we feel the need but we are friends too. As she said she wants a female friend she can bring around her family and friends and sneak a kiss or feel when no one is looking. Just my type of chick she has a boyfriend WHO KNOWS and doesn't mind as long as she is not with another guy.

I can't wait to meet her she said she is not Dom as far as Butch but she does take charge in the bedroom....and that is just what I like I told her I was shy I never would make the first move and she was like if she tried to kiss me would I pull back and I said if we click hell no I wouldn't pull back I go with the flow and follow the lead.

I can't wait to get her around my friends........next time we go bowling I'm gonna invite her.She has to meet Tiffany I mean if she gets along with her then we cool. Tiffany is my road dogg and her friendships means the world to me so she has to get along with her ............(girls before hoes lololololol inside joke for Tiff) Plus if we click I have to hang out with her so Tony won't be like who's this chick your with all the time. She'll just be a new friend who comes around. She asked me if I was looking for something long term and I said "Not really sure"

her "Well if it turns out we click and things keep going good then what"?

me "That would make us secret lovers for life". she laughed I mean shyt that is what I have been wanting for a long time...............I love women and feel so complete when I am involved with one............I could never leave Tony but if he ever left me I mean it I'm gonna be with a lady......living with a lady and everything believe that (smile)

I was late this morning......but I wasn't even tripping I can't trip in '09 it's time for a change and I am not tripping what is is and I can't change what is done or what is going to happen. I email my Golden Girls that's Sherellie, Meesh and Dianna us four are the Golden Girls I mean I have grown to care about them and never thought I would get along with them so well. Those my girls for sure I love them man. Any way I talked to them this morning like every morning and get my first morning laugh from them it never fails ....................never fails!!!!!!! I can't wait to see them Saturday.

I talked to Neka by text yesterday just a little to tell her I had a nice time bowling ...you know to start convo ....try to keep the friendship open ....it's like pulling teeth with her....Tiffany is close with her we will be doing stuff together so in order to not have awkwardness I send her text every now and then she never starts a convo with me but anyway.....she said she wanted to get into something this long weekend. I told her if it was anything she wanted to do to let me know and if I heard of anything I would let her know.

Tiffany wants to have something at my house for the inauguration we haven't planned anything so I'm not sure yet.

I can't wait until Tiffany gets back in full swing hanging out man we used to hang out a lot me, her and Neka shoot we need to even get our once a month dinner thing back happening ....lololol every time I think about it I think about the time we were supposed to dress up like COWGIRLS and go to RIPS lololololololol I was the only one who did those dayum two chicks left me hanging!

Tausha wanted to go bowling Friday but I told her I had plans THIS chick copped an attitude talking about "With who? You kicked me to the curb, You didn't tell me about it".

me "I had plans with Kris last week, Me and you hanging out later that night, and Tausha we can't always hang out together I mean you have your girls and I have mine it's cool for us to all hang out sometimes but I do hang out with them and other people with out you it's nothing to trip off of and I'm not one to do the whole high school thing where I have to invite you when I hang out". Honestly I am only possesive with 2 friends and that is Tiff and P. Clark I know they hang with they other friends and I am not invited and I'm cool with that.............. just let a sistah know (lol)

Tausha made me go there on her I don't like shyt like that. Everything aint for everybody!

I got a doctor's appt this afternoon I keep breaking out around my chin and I think I need that Retin A gel again I can't be having bad skin when the summer hits for real.........I wanted to steal a kiss from someone this weekend but couldn't because I didn't want them all up in my face looking at my pimples. I would have been that bold .....I would have made the first move but next time ....................yeah!

Haven't heard shyt from Rude Boy his ass must have had a ball with who ever he went to New Orleans with uh? Oh well you know how word travels in the bike world lets see how fast I hear from his ass when I call EZ (President of EC Ryders) Or those Dirty Nuccas talk about me hanging out there every Friday ............It's staying a little lighter in the evenings uh? LOLOLOLOLOL...................